In the beginning, there was an Occurrence.
Then there was a Motion.
And then there was Light.
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a creation without a heart learns to Think
ffxivwrite2025 day 13 ft. zodiark
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in the beginning, his heart is gone, and all he has left is his mind. his uncountable souls swirl within him, but they are souls of feeling, and memory, so he does not Know what they Know. really, he doesn’t Know anything, until a big Occurrence happens outside of him. it makes him go away, and in time, as these Occurrences happen again and again, he learns to call himself darkness, and go-away, light. the big Occurrence does not Occur like what he now can see as Other Things occur. Other Things can be Known always - they Occur always. The big Occurrence cannot, and does not. This is how he comes to Know time, and a burst of light, and Things and Other Things, as well. He doesn’t get down, but into and out of make a kind of sense. The big Occurrences come into, and make loud sounds and light when they Reach him. Sometimes, in the place whence the big Occurrences come, other very small Occurrences come and go across his sight (and he learns motion, then).
He does not understand that he does not comprise the place that he is in until a Small Motion occurs on the outgoing side of his vision. The Small Motion is not like the Big Occurrences, or the Small Ones. It looks very different. It moves differently, too. It goes into and out of, except it has already Reached. It moves around in strange patterns on him, and moves into the Things that surround him. The first Thing becomes Light and-
his souls scream. blinding, aching, horrible pain, suddenly he senses every edge and limit to him, the crushing pressure of space and bindings searing into his essence and-
then the Light is gone. the Small Motion goes out of. he quivers in the center of what he now understands is Not Him. his souls shake. he checks them, every single one, because that is his second Duty and with his first stripped away from-
hm. what was his first Duty? he’s forgotten.
the Small Motions come and go. sometimes they come and the Awful Things light up and he is in pain. More often the Small Motions move around the edges of the Him Place, making sounds. sometimes Small Motions that are darkness come and makes sounds, too, and he Knows them, because they are of him. But they too are things of feeling and memory, even his Heart, which. He Knows too much now to accept that his heart is all of Him.
Very little else happens. Big Occurrences collide with the place around him in bursts of light. Small Motions move around the Awful Things. Small Occurrences go side from side in the Place Whence Occurrences Come.
And then a horrible, strange Occurrence happens. It is bigger than a first Big Occurrence, bigger even than a second big Occurrence would be if they both came into this place at the same time. It collides with the place with such force that it moves himself, even. the sensation makes himself unbalanced. the light, too, is more than ever before. it melts away even the dark of the Occurrence Place. the sound hurts, it is bigger than the light, even. and – something new – he smells. it makes him want to Move, away from it. he has only just now Moved for the first time, though, and he does not Know how to do it again, so he does not.
A Small Motion appears at the edge of him. it makes very, very quiet noises. it moves much more slowly than any other Small Motion he’s ever seen. it makes pale, awful sounds, like his souls do when the awful, light, pain happens.
...could it be that a pain was Occurring to it, and not to him?
Yet… how? How can that be? He does not need to check each of his souls to Know they are safe within him. The Slow Small Motion is not of the darkness souls that are outside him, either. What is it? How is it?
He is Thinking, and then the Slow Small Motion stops making sounds, and falls
down.
He moves without Thinking. He Moves, and then the Slow Small Motion is on him and something is on him for the truly first time and the sensation, it is bad, and he is Limited with an end. He wants to recoil from the sensation, but he cannot. He thinks – he Knows? - he has seen many Small Motions. He has seen enough small motions to Know this one is moving differently. He has seen enough Awful Things light up to Know what pain sounds like. His second Duty is to protect the Souls within him, and this Maybe Soul is not within him, he Knows this as surely as he Knows his duty, but he does not Know…
He does not Know…
He does not Know… what… made… the pain? What made the soul apart? No. What made the Soul into a Big Occurrence? No. Not right, either.
He does not Know… why.
He does not Know Why this has Occurred.
And he is… curious.
The Slow Small Maybe Soul stirs. It moves a little, then makes a sharp sound and moves wildly. It makes sounds of pain, too. So, he does what he thinks is the second Duty. He moves to it, and thinks of the sounds his souls makes when they are farthest away from the Awful Pain, and he… he…
Makes a sound.
It is a quiet, but Moving sound. He senses himself become a little unbalanced, but it's not… bad.
The Slow Small Maybe Soul stills. Its smallest part moves slightly towards him.
It makes a small sound. Then it waits, and makes it again.
He does not know Why.
He guesses.
He makes his sound.
It pauses. It moves its smallest part again. It does something strange, then, and moves all of it to be on top of him, and it settles. It becomes more like his souls, then, as their memories run and their feelings run and they rest, protected, inside him.
And this is good.
So… it must be good for the Slow Small Likely Soul as well.
He settles himself, without moving the Slow Small Likely Soul that is on him, and then he waits, and watches.
hi have you considered any other fcs for the girls ? the lineup is exquisite don't get me wrong i'm just curious
oooooo of course i have! and maybe u just wanted a normal response from me, but i am going to make this reply a bit more visual and fun (for me) because i am going to explain what i was looking out for in my girls and why i decided not to choose ___ and ___ and yada yada because i'm feeling crazy! also because i’m taking inspiration from @/pureun because they did something like this before and i thought it was really fun <3 but trust me, it will be really hard to get sana, jisoo, and yuqi out of my hands. they are set on stone at this point!
first off, we are starting with my darling kaia. for her i wanted someone to bring the fun to the group and, for lack of better words, friendly-looking. approachable, lighthearted, someone who exudes comfort to even those she’s not close to, someone very fun to look at when on stage, and someone who is known to be a wonder to be around with. a mom friend, basically. but i also wanted someone no one would ever suspect of doing anything wrong, which is why it was such a shock to fans when rumors circulated that kaia mistreated a stylist and that she is known by her inner circle to have anger issues 🙈
i immediately thought of sana minatozaki when i came up with her because hellooooooooooooo! and she was perfect because i actually wanted a japanese fc as i wanted kaia to be a member of akb48. i also really liked the idea of kaia pulling a xg’s cocona and going viral for flawlessly rapping in three languages 😮💨 and idk just the thought of the face of baby girlism sana having anger issues and rapping in the levels of soyeon will always be funnie to me
i consider and think about nana komatsu as kaia every now and then, though. there was a time that i actually wanted her to be the oldest out of the three and in a way i could see nana fitting her background, especially as an idol who likes to stay low-key with her own endeavors, but i just don’t see her as kaia. maybe as idol!kaia, but not kaia, yknow? i also think that the vibes of nana!kaia would have been a little bit too similar to yvan’s, and the thing about hiraeth is that the three of them are different from each other
mina myoi also crossed my mind because madre! but it’s the opposite of nana’s situation. i see her as kaia, sure, but not as idol!kaia D:
for poppy, i wanted someone who gave off princess-y, royalty like vibes with a dash of cunt, especially as she’s the group's representation of elegance and maturity. miss little pretty face, a reserved woman with a big mouth and an open mind, devoted to her craft as an idol and as a producer, someone people and other idols look up to, usually kept under a microscope by knetizens because there’s no way anyone could be that nice (and she’s not even that nice, she just minds her business!), if her face is involved, the brand’s stocks are sure to rise, and she’s not that intimidating, but there’s something about her that makes people hesitate to approach—not just because of her beauty or her monotone-like attitude, but because she’s poppy. i also wanted someone who seemed really put together on the outside, but in reality they are not as poppy is chronically ill and kinda insane ngl 😔
i think out of the three, poppy’s main fc is the one i don’t think i’d ever change. i’m really attached to jisoo as miss pawppy— like, there’s so much history in here friendsies!! poppy is jisoo, just with some alterations that i’d love to talk about eventually, but i’d be lying if i said i haven’t thought of other people as poppy. not because i don’t see her in jisoo anymore, but because i’m so attached to poppy as a character that i see her everywhere, either as a concept or as someone else.
eunbi never never neeeever fails to remind me of her… she’s genuinely the perfect alternate fc, especially since she’s the same age as jisoo so if i did the change, i wouldn’t need to adjust anything! but i have a really strong bias, and i know that if i ever changed her fc to eunbi, i’d end up switching back 😭
and here’s where i admit that each girl is inspired by current or former idols, and poppy is lowkey inspired by hirai momo who has always reminded me of her— in terms of her personality, stage presence and her looks. like that one picture she posted during the miumiu fashion show… where she was sitting and looking back at the camera with her bare back, like yall, that's poppy! 😵😵😵 but again, i have a bias. plus i also want kaia to be the only japanese woman in the group
now heejin would have been the perfect candidate to be poppy’s fc if only poppy wasn't a hag, so yeah. that’s never gonna happen unless i make an alt universe where they are younger… :p
for yvan, i wanted someone with the it factor— someone who graduated from servington university with a degree in serving!!! 😝 i wanted someone approachable and relatable, THEY/THEM realness fr, a best friend or at least a friend to many, admired for their genuine love for their job and their talents, fun and quirky with a dash of chaoticness that usually keeps everyone on their toes, so big-mouthed it often lands them in trouble but usually works out in their favor, and despite doing absolutely nothing (they absolutely did or said something btw), their name is always on everyone’s mouths. i also wanted someone who could “snatch” the golden maknae title from j*ngkook, which is the reason why armys fucking hates them and keep making up stuff about someone who’s not only globally liked but also j*ngkook’s number one wingman! 🙄
yvan actually went through a lot of fc changes until i started to pay attention to g-idle during the queencard era. when i say everything clicked when i watched this yuqi fancam… yeah. since then i’ve never considered changing their fc. yuqi is literally everything i envisioned for yvan <3
xiaoting was one of their initial fcs and the one who stuck around the longest (i even have old edits with her face and everything), but i couldn’t quite see yvan in her as much as i wanted to ):
now ningning… siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighs. it’s similar to poppy’s situation with heejin— though she’s the perfect candidate to be yvan’s face claim, she was too young to be in a group with ’95 liners, and i wasn’t going to age-bend anyone for that. maybe in another universe…
i initially created the idea of yvan with yves in mind (catch the “y” at the beginning of their stage names? not really a coincidence lmao), but due to some plot changes to fit the narrative of my friend’s and my ideas, i decided to switch their ethnicity.
but wait. alternate faceclaims but instead they are younger and have just debuted recently… wait!
Mark…he is soooo cute beautiful romantic and fuunnyyyy so i would probably marry him💖💖💖💍💍💍
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I LOVE CRISTINA SOOO MUCHH I was REALLY SO in love with her before I FINALLY fell in love with Kiiit
so I would say I would kill Cristina... but then I would also kill myself because she is truly an amazing person... and like everyone else I miss her so much❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
