#nosugarcoats

[nosugarcoats]

You're the one I fall asleep thinking about, hugging my pillow, wishing it was you. You're the one that I constantly check my phone for. You're the one that I wish was appearing on my caller ID in the middle of the night. Your voice is the one I want to hear when my day starts and ends. Your laugh rings through my ears like music fading into the night. You're the one I think about when I write. You're my first thought when I wake up and my last before I turn in for the night. Your face is the image that comes to mind when I hear that song. And you're the reason I smile. You're the one with my heart.

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What's something you want to tell someone?

"I want to sleep with you; in every sense of the word. I want to watch you play video games only to make you turn it off before climbing into your lap and asking you to do bad things to me or you asking me to do bad things to you while you play. I want things to escalate. Then I want to fall asleep next to you, we don’t have to cuddle if you don’t want. I just want…you. Just you"

Yeah…he’s never going to know that unless he reads that or he’s going to think I’m weird or that it’s about someone else. Oh, and thanks for that picture, it made me smile.

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tmi questions?

I’m not really sure how to define it2. Your past relationship

His name was Alex and I was with him for a really long time like more than a year, we ended things cause we changed and we went to schools that were really far from each other. 3. Your current relationship

I don’t have a relationship? It’s not exactly definitive to say the least. I’m still evaluating a lot of things.4. Your best friend

My bests friends are the best things in the world. They are my family.5. Your worst friend

My worst friend is my friend who only knows me when he wants a booty call.6. Your parents

My parents are overprotective people but they care a lot and give me just about everything I ask for so I’m lucky to have them.7. Your siblings

My biological sister is my twin and she gets uncomfortable when I say “penis”, no actually, I scream it in the car just so she freaks out. And my 3rd twin, Mandy is the person who brings me back down to earth and brings all common sense to me when I have a volatile guy in my life.8. Your pets

I have two puppies and a cat9. Your dreams

To live on the east coast with my sisters(:10. Your day dreams

I day dream so much it’s not even funny haha11. Your sleeping patterns

are confusing…I sleep at random times and wake up at the same time almost everyday12. Your eating habits

When I’m hungry, I eat13. Your hobbies

I have so many, let’s not talk about it14. Your hopes

To be happy and healthy with people I love15. Your fears

FAILURE16. Your confidence

fluctuates depending on the day17. Your anxieties

I have a lot of anxieties18. Your greatest adventure

Probably the one I’m going to start in January19. Your worst mistake

hmmmmm, omg my awkward relationship that Mandy had to suffer with me…THANK YOU FOR BAILING ME OUT OF THAT DATE…IT WAS SO BAD20. Your emotions

are stone hahaha21. Your thoughts

are racing22. Your physical ills

thrive in the water23. Your eyes

are brown and boring24. Your ears

can hear25. Your taste

varies on what I am looking at26. Your bad habits

are influenced by how hot someone is hahaha27. Your good habits

are dictated by what needs to be done by me28. Your music

is a mix29. Your writing

makes people wonder30. Your philosphies

contradict everyone31. Your sexuality

is straight32. Your likes

Have to do with what makes me happy33. Your dislikes

if you piss me off, I will hate you35. Your fetishes

I don’t have any?36. Your turn-offs

STINKY, SLOPPY KISSES, DIRTY, bleeeeeeeh37. Your first sexual experience

Hahahaha it was weird38. Your last sexual experience

was the other night and it was pretty good39. Your fantasties

include things that I shouldn’t say here40. Your favourite games

TABOO WITH MY FRIENDS41. Your favourite books

DON’T GO THERE. THERE IS TOO MANY. I WOULD BE HERE UNTIL 201542. Your favourite play

Hamlet43. Your personality

Is quirky44. Your quirks

I’m funny and I speak in funny accents and voices all the time45. Your sameness

heh?46. Your depression

being lonely47. Your happiness

is my friends, writing, and books48. Your role model/inspiration

my grandparents49. Your flexibility

I thank my flexibility to yoga and pilates and dance class50. Your clothes

I like to shopppppp

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1-20?

1. The meaning behind my URL

I don’t embellish the truth, I call it how I see it. Ask my best friend.2. Weakness

Food haha. I don’t know, probably talking.3. Why I love my bestfriend

They remind me what’s real and they understand and when I get too involved in something they bring me back to earth4. Last time I cried and why

Uhhhh I cried when I was reading a book like three weeks ago?5. Piercings I have

Earsssss6. Favorite Band

DON’T ASK ME THAT7. Biggest turn off(s)

Sloppy kisses, stinky, creepy8. Top 5 (insert subject)

Let’s try top 5 fooooood

1. TACO BELL

2. TACO BELL

3. CINNABON

4. CHIPOTLE

5. TACO BELL

I like Taco Bell9. Tattoos I want

A quote on my ribs and a symbol on my hips10. Biggest turn on(s)

NECK KISSES or when guys do that thing between my boobs…yeah…that…11. Age

1912. Ideas of a perfect date

Depends13. Life goal(s)

To graduate college, go to law school, and live in NY14. Piercings I want

I don’t really want any15. Relationship status

Single. So very much single.16. Favorite movie

Up17. A fact about my life

I have a twin and a third twin18. Phobia

Being alone19. Middle name

Adrienne20. Tattoos I have

none :(

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But you're so pretty and nice. You HAVE to HAVE A BOYFRIEND.

Oh haha well thanks but I don’t have a boyfriend. Again, I repel the opposite sex. hahahaha.

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I'm curious...1-100?

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life?

I have friends so yes, there are boys and girls in my life?2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

Ugh, let’s not dwell on the douchebag3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”

Tanner!4: What’s something you really want right now?

To sleep haha5: Are you afraid of falling in love?

Naaaah6: Do you like the beach?

LOOOOVE IT haha7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?

Yes, I have.8: What’s the background on your cell?

A quote9: Name the last four beds you were sat on?

Mine, my sister’s, my parents’, jaaacckkk’s10: Do you like your phone?

Yes, I do but I want a new one11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned?

Not really, but I don’t mind(:12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?

Nick’s13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?

rottweiler14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

Emotional?15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?

zooooooo16: Are you tired?

Extremely haha17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact?

A couple years18: Are they a relative?

Nah, a friend19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?

No, no, no, no20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?

Uhm, I think the friday before finals21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?

No22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Maybe23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

none24: Is there a certain quote you live by?

Sweet as sugar, hard as ice, hurt me once, I’ll kill you twice.25: What’s on your mind?

Registration and classes26: Do you have any tattoos?

Nah, I don’t27: What is your favorite color?

blueeeee28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?

I have no idea29: Who are you texting?

No one cause I left my phone in my room30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

The last time I kissed the person I did was on a couch31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?

YEEESSSSSS32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

Yes(:33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

Douuuuubbbbttttt ittttttttttt34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

Yeah haha35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?

Ewww, gag36: Were you single on Valentines Day?

Very much single37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed?

Yeah, kind of haha38: What do your friends call you?

My name, babes, smalls39: Has anyone upset you in the last week?

Yes-_-40: Have you ever cried over a text?

Yeah, but who wouldn’t cry when you get a text saying that the woman who raised you is no longer here.41: Where’s your last bruise located?

Uhhhhhh, chest42: What is it from?

Hmmmhahahaha43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?

Ugh, when I was in AZ44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

Uhhhh I don’t really call anyone just to talk on the phone, I used facetime last night? Does that count?45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes?

my booooooots46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?

Yes haha LA Kings hat47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style?

No, I really like my hair48: Do you make supper for your family?

Sometimes49: Does your bedroom have a door?

Yes50: Top 3 web-pages?

Tumblr, youtube, gmail51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping?

Yes hahahahaa

52: Does anything on your body hurt?

Yeah, I’m sore all over, bleh53: Are goodbyes hard for you?

Nah54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

This morning55: How is your hair?

My hair is waiting to be dyed haha56: What do you usually do first in the morning?

check my phoneeeee57: Do you think two people can last forever?

Yeah, sure, I guess58: Think back to January 2007, were you single?

I was haha59: Green or purple grapes?

GREEEEEEEEEEN60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?

When I see my friends61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?

Not really62: When will be the next time you text someone?

When I check my phone63: Where will you be 5 hours from now?

In bed64: What were you doing at 8 this morning.

Lying in bed65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

Yes haha66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

Yeah(:67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today?

Naaaah68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

That was fun69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

Yes-_-ugh70: How many windows are open on your computer?

271: How many fingers do you have?

1072: What is your ringtone?

vibrate73: How old will you be in 5 months?

2074: Where is your Mum right now?

living room75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?

We broke up and go to different schools76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

No77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

Yeeeeeesss78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?

Yes, I doooooooo79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?

mhmmmm80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

Yes81: How many people have you liked in the past three months?

282: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?

Yes haha83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

I don’t know84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

My friends haha85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?

I would care86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?

Uhh, I went to see a movie?87: Who was your last received call from?

I don’t call or get calls haha88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?

noooooooo89: What is something you wish you had more of?

time haha90: Have you ever trusted someone too much?

Yes91: Do you sleep with your window open?

Sometimes92: Do you get along with girls?

Yes, but not as well as I do with boys93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?

Not really94: Does sex mean love?

Not all the time95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

It’s definitely awk96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?

No97: Did you sleep alone this week?

yes98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

Yeeesssss99: Do you believe in love at first sight?

No haha100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

Uhh I don’t know actually

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What I'm thankful for....(very cliche but I truly mean all of these and I don't express sentiment all that often, so shut the fuck up)

Well first off, I am thankful for the person I've been with since before I was born, my twin sister, Chelsea Adrienne Orfinada Meneses. She's helped me  through so many things and we've been to and through hell and climbed back out. She's one of the strongest people I've ever met and she will continue to enrich my life and stay with me no matter what. We will move to the east coast and eventually we will move to England and be awesome people there, because let's face it, the Brits are awesome, particularly the English and Irish hehe.

Second, I'm thankful for the family I have chosen, My Mandy Pandy, Andrew, Jt, and Hungry Hippo Alex. They have made my life so much better and so much lighter than I could have possibly imagined. They all know so much without even asking and they've been there for me for as long as I could remember. I couldn't ask for better friends. We are the cast of FRIENDS.

Next on my list, is that one person who has been there since the beginning. This person knows me better than anyone and knows all that I have done. This person knows my strengths and my weakness; this person knows how to make me smile and how to make me feel better. Even though we argue, and we have been arguing for a while, I know things will get better because that's how things go...I know I sound overconfident, but that's one of the few things I have now. I love this person very much and I am so thankful this person has been in my life. I couldn't ask for anyone better. This person is better and more than a best friend. This person is like the Will to my Grace (this person is not gay, only exception), this person is the Chandler to my Monica, the Corey to my Topanga, the Greg to my Dharma, the Ned (Pie Maker) to my Chuck (Charlotte). Yes, this person is a guy. I give him a hard time and I don't make things easy a lot of the time. I can be annoying and overbearing and insecure but he's still there. He's all I could ask for and more. One day I will marry this person. 

After that, are the few people I don't really talk to but have taught me lessons in my life. first off, is someone's best friend. That person's comments gave me a certain outlook on life and made me strive harder and work harder in all that I want and need in my life.  Another person has taught me the value of honesty and learning to trust people.

I'm thankful to the person that has been a rollercoaster in my life; this person has taught me a lot, like how to guard my feelings and my heart. This person has taught me to be stronger than I already am, to stand up for what I believe in and don't give up. Although this person's intentions may not be the same as mine for our standing in relationship, this person will always be someone that had come into my life when I needed it the most and taught me so many lessons. 

Last, but definitely not least, I am thankful for the grandparents that raised me. None of them are alive anymore and I have lost a part of my life that was the most important to me, they have left me with many memories and life lessons that has made me the person I am today. Mama, Papa, thank you for everything you have taught me. I will always love you and you will always be with me, in my heart (and in the form of tattoos...I know that might upset you, but you always told me to do what makes me happy).

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I start choking and my sister turns up her music -__-