#not excusing it

[pixiefeatherkw3]

... Was Columbina half-human or adopted by humans?

[melodious-oblivion]

Did you read Trinity’s interview with vanity fair? She said she’s supporting Korbin which is very ????????????

I did and I’m extremely saddened / disappointed. I’m sure the team has been given talking points, and there’s worries that if they don’t stick to them they won’t be called up. No currently active (like last two rosters) have spoken out beyond the basic Pinoe statement or the USWNTPA statement (and what Lindsey and Alex said at a presser). I wish she had said more, I wish they were all saying more, but at the same time this lies more in the hands of leadership and coaches and USSF people.

I’ve also said that I believe Lynn not being called up last time was due to her speaking out so publicly about KA on her podcast. So that’s part of it.

[panlight]

something that's always rubbed me the wrong way is the books implying all the pack have short hair because if their hair is long their wolf form will also have long hair, esp since i learned a lot of native american cultures place spiritual value on long hair. what are your thoughts on it?

It’s definitely problematic and doesn’t really make any sense, either. I do think it’s important to remember that Native Americans are not a monolith and different tribes have different beliefs and customs, but as you point out, many do assign significance to long hair. I’ve seen a few references here and there to historical Quileutes wearing their hair long (women in two braids and men "sometimes coiled their long hair into a bunch behind their head” [x]) but I haven’t seen anything more in depth so I don’t personally know the finer points of their beliefs on that topic.

eta: many people have pointed out in the notes that regardless of the Quileutes’ particular beliefs, having them all cut their hair is reminiscent of Indian Schools and forced assimilation.

It also just . . . doesn’t really make sense that the length of their human hair would correlate to the wolf fur when other things like color doesn’t matter. Seth is “sandy” colored as a wolf but he’s not blond; Leah is silver-gray but doesn’t have gray hair. So why would the length translate over? Does it apply to other body hair? The more you think about it, the less sense it makes.

I think SM had this image in her head of all the pack looking alike. She has said once before that she might have been subconsciously inspired by the Mormon story of the Stripling warriors, where a group of converts vowed never to fight again, so their sons take up arms to defend them. I don’t know much about these Mormon stories, either, but judging by the artwork that comes up when I google this, they were associated with Native Americans too (and that opens up a whole other can of worms about racism in the Mormon church). She might have wanted them all to look similar to mimic the visuals of an army? 

An army where the uniform is cropped hair and jorts. 

[ivyblossom]

Hi Ivy! Well, here I am, back to the grindstone with the Big Kahuna of Series 4 questions: why do you think Mofftiss chose to have John beat up Sherlock in TLD? They didn't have to go there, right? What was the point of going that far, and then not even showing us the emotional 'pay-off' we assume happened before TFP? Why do this if the point of the show is to portray the devotion between Sherlock and John and their journey to a legendary partnership?

Perhaps we can come at this by considering what narrative function John’s violence serves in the story.

First things first: an important part of John’s characterization is that he cannot express his most intense feelings in words. He doesn’t say the things he needs to say. 

I don’t think you can overestimate just how much John hates himself in The Lying Detective. He has failed in every way that matters to him: he cheated on his wife (as far as he’s concerned), he’s abandoned his daughter. He’s drowning his sorrows in alcohol. He’s hallucinating. John is broken. He says nothing, which means he’s not yet completely broken.

The slow breakdown of John Watson isn’t just about Mary’s death, but that does bring it to a head. It’s also about the still-steaming revelation of Mary’s past and how she lied to him from tip to tail. He placed all of his faith and trust in Sherlock, and he failed to deliver. He feels betrayed, but unable to express that. He must accept things as they are because it’s the right thing to do, but he can’t do it.  He hates himself for failing everyone he knows, and he hates everyone he loves for failing him. He is rudderless. Still: he says nothing. He hasn’t quite hit rock bottom yet.

And then he finally does.

When John breaks completely and hits and kicks Sherlock, he has been dragged into a case after forcefully pushing Sherlock out of his life, repeatedly reminded that he’s a failure even at the one thing he’s valued for (writing about Sherlock), and has to face that fact while waiting outside a loo while Sherlock get high, literally on his way to killing himself again. Then he watches Sherlock apparently falsely accuse a man of being a serial killer and then threaten him with a scalpel. Sherlock is out of control too. It’s John’s job to keep Sherlock in line, isn’t it? But what good is he at that? 

John is angry with Sherlock for letting Mary die, for betraying him, for failing to be the man John believes him to be. John hates himself for failing to live up any even a single one of his own standards. Hurting someone he loves, something he also did to Mary without her knowing it, is, I think, the ultimate expression of how broken he has become. He is there to protect Sherlock, but he does the opposite. It is his final and ultimate low. John is now utterly broken.

He does not apologize for his actions. Or at least, we don’t hear him apologize. He stands at the foot of Sherlock’s hospital bed and bears witness to the evidence of his rage, the damage he caused to someone he loves. How long does he stand there? We don’t know. How does he feel? Does he regret what he’s done? Is he ashamed of himself? He comes to say goodbye, but he can’t face a conscious Sherlock. He still can’t say any of the things that matter. 

He walks out of the room expecting to never see Sherlock again. Mary forces John to admit that he can’t stop thinking about him. And that he hates himself. Is he sorry? I think he’s beyond sorry, but he says nothing.

Until he finally does. 

I think the violence, the balled up emotions that never get expressed, are there to underscore the moment when they finally are. Finally, finally, when Sherlock asks John if he’s okay, he is truthful: no. He is not okay, and he will never be okay.

And then the floodgate is open. John says the things he never said. He asks the questions he always wanted to ask. Having reached the ultimate rock bottom, John is finally cracked entirely open. He is talking, and he is honest. And 221b blows up so that they can rebuild it and start over.

I think John hurts Sherlock in order to explode the part of him that holds him back. It is Sherlock’s guilt made flesh and blood, and it’s the action that pushes John to finally be brave to open his mouth.

[thirdeyedfreak]

Browsing instagram and maybe had a revelation. A former classmate of mine reblogged some kind of mommy-power post cause she's about to have a kid and it gave major anti-vax/crunchy vibes. It made me wonder how people get on that seriously dangerous train of thought... then I remembered her own mom died of ODing after a long struggle with pain pill addiction. Feels obvious in hindsight but I have to consider just how many of these crunchy moms online have known/been affected by the opioid epidemic, and how that has led to a distrust of the whole healthcare system.

[sentry---defiant]

Sometimes I get memories where I yelled at somebody close to me, or I got irritated with a friend, or I said something I later regretted and apologized for and I’m left wondering “why did I even do that in the first place? That’s very out-of-character for me, I’m not the sort who gets easily irritated, what was going on?”

And then I remember that one of the symptoms of PTSD is irritation and hostility. And then I understand.

[memelorddan-blog]

alright let me clear this up incase anyone was confused by what I said

I don’t like that perrie wore the headdress. I think it’s offensive.

But I know that it was for a photoshoot (I believe it was anyway) and I’m not gonna sit and bitch because how many other people (including Americas sweetheart) have worn a headdress and not got any shit for it at all?

Don’t hate on her when I’m sure most people don’t even know what the headdress is for or what it symbolizes.

(Not to mention she looked really hot in it) I’m not gonna excuse her actions but I’m not gonna piss and moan when it’s literally a part of pop culture now and it’s even in stores as a fucking Halloween costume.

In otherword, stop acting like she committed murder and don’t call her a racist because you obviously have no clue what racism is.