#not reality

[thequeenofsastiel]

Just thinking about how Jay kept telling Sun to accept that Sun had feelings for him, and I'm realizing that he wasn't just asking Sun to accept romantic feelings. It was about what liking Jay specifically meant for who Sun is. Sun was a top, always in control, never letting anyone else be in charge. Having feelings for Jay meant accepting the fact that he felt submissive to someone. Being with Jay would involve having a D/s dynamic to some extent. Jay has made that clear in the way he's pursued Sun. So for Sun to accept that he has feelings for Jay, he also has to accept something about himself that he's always tried to hide from. This is something that Jay is able to see, and something he wants Sun to see as well. He kept asking Sun to tell him what he wanted, to ask Jay for it. To give it real, honest thought, instead of simply expecting Jay to tell him. This wasn't(just) an ego thing. Sun refusing to acknowledge to himself what kind of relationship he wanted with Jay was a huge obstacle. And everything Jay did was to try to force Sun to look at that side of himself. To see it, and accept it. Was it selfish? Sure, absolutely. But I also think there's deep care there as well. He wants to be able to look after Sun. To keep him safe, to let Sun feel and accept that safety and experience a full range of emotions. Emotions that he can't access if he's too busy hiding from both his trauma and a fundamental part of who he is. And yes, Jay also wants to possess and control Sun. To watch tears run down Sun's face while he fucks him painfully. He's a sadistic Dom, and he's drawn to a repressed, bratty, masochistic sub(maybe a switch, I don't think we'll find out for certain if he was a top because he genuinely wanted to be or because he felt like that was one of the ways he could stay in control in his very unstable life). Jay was willing to do whatever he felt was necessary to shatter Sun's false image of himself as someone who didn't want Jay to dominate him.

There's so much depth in this show and these characters. I feel like I keep unraveling new layers every time I think about it.

[jalluzas-ferney]

Hi! @savemyboycole !! This is a present I worked very hard on last night just for you 🫵🏼🗣️serving as a welcome gift to your arrival to tumblr •w•!

I didn’t really know you until people here on tumblr began talking about you :0 I heard your a massive Cole fan and a huge lostshipping supporter! At least that’s what my friends have told me 😅

Hearing of your hard work for preserving Cole’s masculinity is very inspiring‼️ I find that part of him very important and essential to his overall character and as a symbol of males :D🐻

That is why I highly agree with the values you portray online! So I decided to make you a gift for you contributions to the Ninjago community❤️❤️

And because you love lostshipping, which makes sense considering how much Cole’s identity as a male matters to you and how :

male+male= double male

I made you this! I hope you like it 🫶🏼🫶🏼 (I pulled an all nighter for this so I DO really hope you enjoy it 😔😕😕)

Can we please become mutuals?! I really admire you!! And together, we can make sure to save Cole from heterosexuality!!! We can message the writers together as a team and make sure Cole never kisses a girl ever! So he doesn’t get girly and become a sissy or smth 😨

From a gay person to another gay person, I really admire you….<3

[airellebebe]

ive been pondering recently about the comfortability of having someone always There in your life and will and leno became a topic around me and here we are now.

will and leno have known eachother for so long that they could’ve fallen into this like pseudo relationship, like a whole i’ve known you, you’ve known me for so long, you understand everything i’ve been through, seen me through my awkward moments at age 12, the inclines, the declines, the doubts. you’ve seen me be rebuilt through the horrors of being 14, 15, 16, 17, have experienced everything i have, you are a part of my family, my mother considers you a son, what we have is irreplaceable in my life and nobody can replicate that with me, that’s something you own (side eye to Will Vote but he’s not in my gay shit agenda so he’s just like the cousin friend).

while they make friends and meet others they were always in each others orbit more than most (same line, same home) and maybe you start considering… wait we are so super special together and i feel something for you i don’t feel for others…

also they both are beloved youngest sons, the ones people take care of, so there is this ease to them. they’re not self conscious, no shame in not being cool together, especially in this kinda man up hockey world (for lack of better phrasing rn lol). they don’t overthink how they come across (to eachother will def care about how he comes across i think). and i think that makes it even easier for them to fall into that ‘we just work ‘ dynamic without really questioning it too much

i personally think about it developing a few ways depending on the way the sun rises lol …

maybe they try it, and it works, but in a way that’s almost too familiar. like nothing actually changes, it just feels like an extension of what they’ve always been, and that’s the problem. they don’t know how to be anything other than this version of themselves together. there’s no shift, no tension, and maybe they avoid the hard parts because they’re too scared to lose each other… and that’s what makes it fizzle. or it explodes (depending how you read the situation of will signing his entry level contract) because at some point you realise you can’t build something new out of something that never changed yknow

or maybe it’s never confirmed at all. maybe it’s one of those …uhhh we will figure this out later…things….. oh when we retire, when things settle, we’ll figure it out, we’ll come back to this. and they both kind of believe it without ever saying it out loud. but then will leaves early, and there’s the mack of it all, and suddenly it’s not this distant maybe anymore, it’s something that got left behind… like yeah, will left BC, but he also walked away from a future that could’ve been, and neither of them ever really says that, but it lingers in the back, it makes the whole fall out stupid cause what are you guys even fighting about, what is the drama but neither wants to acknowledge externally (or even internally) so there is tension but we are still friends cause nothing ACTUALLY happened

or even a one sided version of one of them (let’s say leno cause im a will centric thinker lol) confesses to will and in a moment of oh i don’t want things to change, i dont want to lose you…. I’ll just says yes, it’ll probs work out because logically we work everywhere else, we fit, we’ve always fit somehow but it’s quiet heartache, because it doesn’t feel the same does it?

and then the realisation of oh… you don’t feel this the way i do… i thought our super special bond was something more, something romantic, but you were just holding onto the nostalgia of it all… and i built something bigger out of it than you ever did

i am in the feels and have written out this is an uh extremely ooc think piece about will and leno BUT i am making this all up with very little care for reality cause, what if… also im like they can be joyful, high performing, dumb guys externally and have these internal battles !! the horrors of being an athletic gay teenage catholic !! THE HORRORS !!!

[possiblyunhinged]

A short story in why this country is fucked, and how you can see this logic across the political spectrum.

I want Starmer to resign if it means Burnham gets in. But also, it's obvious what will follow. It will be people yelling about things Burnham supported in 2015, because to the internet, nobody is capable of changing position. He will not be left enough. He will not be right enough. He will have committed the unforgivable crime of existing in public for more than five minutes.

I am already dreading the smarmy interviewers on GMB, the BBC and everywhere else interviewing Labour MPs like they're the Gestapo, while practically begging Farage, Yusuf and Tice to go on Newsnight to clip farm, with minimal pushback on their countless MPs who have openly expressed fascist sentiment that belongs in 1950s Germany.

Burnham will be treated the exact same way as Starmer. We have literally seen the logical failure of "all politicians are the same". Would America have detention centres if Harris had won? This level of backing of the Israeli government? Really? It is lazy.

Meanwhile, the other side will paint Burnham as the second coming of Stalin as he tries to wrangle with the actual issues we are facing, while offering no path forward themselves and showing little to no interest in getting involved with politics beyond screaming from the sidelines. Because who would want to do that? No matter how hard you try to inflict positive change or deal with material reality, you will still become the endless recipient of screaming from the worst cunts you can imagine.

And yes, I do think Starmer has done some good things. In fact, if you are even remotely paying attention, you would know that a lot of the legislation passed is genuinely good for working-class people. Far enough? That is a debate and I would argue no. Curiously bad decisions? Obviously. But if you read the political cave-dwellers on here and Instagram, you would think Starmer was part of the NSDAP. It is insanity. Pure and utter insanity.

If something is not spoon-fed to people through a social media feed, it simply does not exist in their political reality. If someone is bad on one issue, they must be bad on every issue. If someone was wrong ten years ago, they must be frozen there forever. Nobody can shift. Nobody can learn. Nobody can be judged in proportion.

It is fundamentally anti-progressive, and it puts a muzzle on the idea that people can grow and change. And what are the consequences of that? It becomes a repackaged fundamentalist dogma, obsessed with the idea of innate wrongness. It is absolutely fucking bizarre.

And frankly, democracy does not work if it is decided by algorithms. That is no 'educating' yourselves.

The more time goes on, the clearer it becomes that the loudest people on the internet do not have the critical thinking skills to consume social media in a way that does not rot democracy itself. Tech companies benefit from us hating each other. The less we have outside, the more we scroll. The more we scroll, the more ads we see. There is no incentive to challenge misinformation or de-platform people like Tommy Robinson when they incite race riots and pogroms.

For the loudest people online, it appears that politics is not a set of beliefs or material outcomes. It is an identity. So a shift in position feels less like growth and more like betrayal.

It is embarrassing.

Left and right.

Up and down.

Starmer has done a fair few things I do not like. But alas, I am not the centre of the fucking universe. We live in a diverse society full of different opinions, different needs, and lobby groups that make everything near-on impossible. The same structures that protect our democracy also mean you have to work through systems to pass legislation and make genuine change.

If only it were as easy as the absolute slime balls online make it out to be.

Wouldn't that be nice.

And if you genuinely think Starmer is a "fascist", which I have literally seen and heard people say, then good luck under Farage. Some of you have made it a hell of a lot easier for him over the past few years x

[tar-maironthelordofgifts]

More of my immortal humans origional characters and stories.

This is more of Kinan Filastine . The immortal of Palestine.

Hope you like this quick drawing

No line art will be done on this as I love the raw feel.

NOTE: this is not a representation of a single person and is not to be taken in offence, the character is not real. Nor can I represent real life situations, while my immortal idea draws of reality and history it cannot and should not be taken as reality which is much more jarring in the most senses of history and the present.

Hope you like the art ♡♡♡

[those-feelings]

I paint you in the corner of my mind,

where the light is always soft and kind.

I trace your smile in the air, in the steam

that rises from my cup, in the fabric of a dream.

In this world of whisper, you are close to me,

as real as the sun-drenched, swaying tree.

My hand reaches for the hand that isn't there.

My fingers close on the empty, lucid air.

And in that moment, the tapestry I've spun

starts to fray at the edges, one thread by one.

The lovely, soft-lit corner turns to shadow,

and the sun-drenched tree becomes a window,

where I watch the real world pass me by,

and see the real distance between you and I.

Yet still I choose the dream. I choose the art

of making you a garden in my vacant heart.

For what is life without a whispered wish,

a hope for a future that might not exist?

You may be a figment, a wishful kind of thought,

but you are the loveliest lesson I've ever been taught.

And though I know, when the morning comes to call,

that this beautiful illusion will have to fall,

I will hold it close, this fragile, perfect thing,

this quiet, constant love I've learned to sing.

[rockstar-vamp]

What if meteors are angels getting thrown out of heaven ?