Some days stand out in my memories
Like snapshots of things that I wish I could change
These pictures don’t have dates, no time stamps here, just a feeling, a scream of” Not Like This”
Some were dumb decisions I made.
Some were things I wish I hadn’t done
But the ones that hurt the most are the ones I had no control over
Like looking at the car sliding towards you in slow motion, just thinking. “Why?”
These days are part of me, and the pain they cause becomes more numbing each day.
I don’t know why I’m writing about them.
No. I do. It’s to make sure I don’t forget, that I CANT forget. Because I can still see the beauty in the car sliding towards me. She’s the rainbow behind the car, caused by the rain that’s the reason I’m about to die. But still.
What a beautiful picture.
Happy birthday, beautiful.