#numachi rouka

[freusan]

6/6 is Numachi Rouka day! Here's a wonderful illustration by Ueda Hajime of her

Our beloved devil doesn't get enough love. Please post any Numachi love in the fan tag on here! Or check out the tag on Twitter

Craving even more Numachi? Go read Karimonogatari by my friend Kimoi https://kimoiworks.itch.io/karimonogatari-borrowed-tale

[nitonol]

Numachi Rouka from the Monogatari Series

[freusan]

It's 6/6, Numachi Rouka day! Make sure to celebrate our favorite devil today! Also go read Karimonogatari by @kimoiyuri. One of my favorite Monogatari fanfics. Kimoi perfectly captured the feel of Nisio's writing even before being familiar with Zaregoto https://kimoisuki.itch.io/karimonogatari-borrowed-tale

[miriamundertale]

this is some annoying selfcentered ramblings on rouka you can ignore it if need be

confession kinning has never been anything thats made sense to me or like. saying a character is you. this isnt like a "oh i hate kinning" or whatever like i just personally have never been able to really describe myself enough to see a character as me. like. every chara i like or use as a pfp is either i like the chara a lot or im matchies. like nazuna is a miriam character as in i like her. im not like. oh nazuna is literally me, kikuri is me, i just like the characters. i think the closest i ever had to one of these is rouka (shocker) and even then, its not me anymore which is. something to process.

when i first really like. had hanamono hit and encountered her she was the most i have ever seen myself in anything. existing only through usefulness as a vent to others, a ghost barely held on through that transactional value. stuck with bitterness and lack of connection. i think a core thing for monogatari is characters with fire, with rage in them to some degree, either suppressed or consuming some part of them. rouka exists in a weird spot because she mostly is just bitter anymore. shes spent. i dont feel the type of burning upset that comes from kanbaru in suruga monkey, the daggers that senjougahara coats herself in, the sodachi oikura. she's a burnt wick and a puddle of wax. she's just bitter.

she's resigned herself to a role where she can exist as something that isnt really her anymore, to be the rainy devil rather than numachi rouka. i think the core of why at least i feel shes transgender is related to this as well, she's literally given herself up to a form that is monstrous and acknowledged by her as monstrous just to exist. how the fuck could i not relate to that as a closeted trans woman not on e? it's why she hurts so much as well. she gets freed and acknowledged as rouka by kanbaru and then, of course, she's a ghost. she can't be anymore. its heartrending to me. but i also kinda have to understand that thats the path for her at this point. its fuckin bleak. idk. i know why she spoke to me so much back then. i know why even now i still feel spoken to. but it's weird looking at a bitter reflection in the mirror when you've slowly become far less bitter. its weird.

[amiya-shirou]

Forgive me for talking about gacha in the monogatari tag but after reading Suruga Devil I can't help rotating a Rouka Numachi / Arturia from Arknights comparison in my head (spoilers about both characters' stories)

There are crucial differences but when it comes down to it both of them are living through the stories of others, in some way 'collecting' their misfortunes and giving them advice (even if opposite advice; Arturia making them act on their desires and Rouka essentially solving the problem by leaving it be) while at the same time ensuring they themselves are never getting the same kind of 'finality' they grant them: Rouka becoming a swamp for these misfortunes in a way that she'll never be able to go on, turning more and more into a devil by absorbing its parts - what's essentially a physical symbol of the emotional baggage of others - onto herself, Arturia giving others a chance to unleash their desires and expose their true selves but at the same time being consumed by their stories and emotions to the point that she remains empty, seemingly with no 'true self' to expose

The resolution of their arcs can be seen as quite similar too, each coming through their specific passion: Rouka finally feeling included in the cooperative aspect of basketball thanks to Suruga passing her the ball despite being her opponent, becoming active part of a two-person (in that circumstance) game rather than taking everything onto herself and essentially playing alone; and Arturia finally expressing herself through her music, filling others with her own emotion rather than "playing" the emotion of whoever is listening,

Also, one is a "devil", the other is an "angel"

if I had a nickel etc etc

[amiya-shirou]

R.I.P. Rouka you would have loved Medaka Box

[twiiceshy]

beloved devil

[nadekofannumber1]

Numachi Rouka????