TRAITOR - RAFE CAMERON
MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS FROM S2
my first rafe fic, hope you enjoy it xx
WORDS:3060
You spent at least two hours tryna send that text. Just two words that will get the chaos started. That's why you couldn't. But you know damn well that you had to. You know you'll hate yourself so fucking much for doing it; your heart keeps telling you that this is a big mistake, but your brain knows better.
It was too late when you realized that your boyfriend needed help. And not your help and the "I can change him by loving him" attitude. No. He needed real help. And you put the blame on yourself for being so oblivious. Maybe if you weren't so blind and drunk with him and his love you would have noticed that Rafe has some problems. But you didn't and now it's too late for the soft version of the situation. You only have one option and this became your nightmare.
You bit on your lower lip until you felt blood in your mouth and you closed your eyes for a few seconds.
"Every single thing has to kill to live, [Y/N]" You two are laying on a soft blanket on the grass, the sun softly warming your naked bodies. You can swear that this sex in public and in nature makes you even wetter.
"What are you saying, Rafe?" You laugh, too damn stupid to realize that something was wrong. You were up on your elbows and Rafe was laying on his back while smiling and looking around, listening to the birds chirping and not to you.
"Killing is nature."
You frowned, but you kept your mouth shut.
Oh, how fucking much you regret this right now.
Fuck it.
“whats up?”
While you waited for him to text you back, you got ready and took a look in the mirror. You hate what you see. You look drained and sad, far from the girl that looked happy last night when you spent one last beautiful night with Rafe. He fucked your brains out and you loved it so much. The rage, the passion, the love. He was so into the moment that he didn't realized that you silently cried, already knowing that it was the end. The thoughts were and still are killing you.
babyy🌎: driving.
babyy🌎: picking you up in 5.
Those 5 minutes were gone too quickly. So when you walked out of your house, Rafe was already outside waiting for you. He was looking extremely hot with that messy hair, a grey shirt, the ring and that smirk at the sight of you.
Oh boy, how much he'll hate you very soon.
"Hello, beautiful." You smiled as you got into the car and pulled him in for a kiss; you hoped Rafe didn't noticed that your kiss was too deep, too needy.
"Mm, I love it when I can feel how much you missed me." He wasn't wrong, you really did miss him.
"Do you have any plans for today?" You asked him while he started the car and placed his big hand on your thigh.
"Not really." He used that hand to wipe around his mouth and you almost gasped for air. That was very fucking hot. So hot that you felt a pulse between your legs and you pressed your thighs together, already thinking at a quickie. But that would be so wrong.
"Why are you looking at me like that, hm?" You probably were staring; his look was amused and you quickly looked out of the window. He was driving to the docks in the Cut and you gulped down all the blame and hate you feel for your own person.
"Like what?" You faked a high-pitched laugh, your anxiety growing into your chest.
"Like I'm your everything." Something you told him when he told you "i love you" for the first time; that's how the whole conversation started and he's now using it towards you.
"You are, Rafe. You are my everything and I'd do everything to make sure you good." You licked your dry lips and you made eye contact for a second before his eyes turned to the road. "You know that right?"
"I should be the one telling you that." The side-eye look he gave you made you understand very quickly. He killed Sheriff Peterkin and didn't turned himself in because that would mean he has to leave you alone, unsafe and with his enemies breathing down your back. Rafe was known for being a bad guy and on the island were people that would be very happy to take revenge on his girl for something he did years or months ago.
"Answer me." You tried your hard to keep your voice low, the desperation you started to feel because you almost reached the docks sent shivers down your whole body, making you freeze in your seat. You have a tracking device on your phone; Shoupe and the FBI are seeing your location live and there's not going back from this point.
"Yeah I know. What's up with you, [Y/N]? You look stressed." He stopped the car engine and his beautiful blue eyes are narrowed a bit, a frown between his eyebrows. He's suspicious.
"You told me that I have to lie in court for you, Rafe. That's a crime." You took in a sharp breath and finally made eye contact with him, but quickly regret it. He looks sad. And then he looks mad. And before you know, he buried his hands in his hair and his face became red out of anger. He ran out of the car and you followed him outside.
"Rafe, I-..."
"You what, huh? You just fucking told me you'd do everything for me. For us. For our good. You don't want that?" As he was talking you made a step closer to him and he took one back.
"I do. That's why I'm doing it." You didn't mention what your doing for his own good, so it wasn't a lie.
"You are?" His eyes are now full of hope and you managed to get closer to him; a little smile grow on your lips as you shoved his hair back away from his face.
"Yeah." His emotions changed drastically by seconds. He was calm and collected, he got angry and then calm again in just five minutes. How could you think this was only about his temper?
"Why are we here?" You asked him while he slowly grabbed your hand in his and you both walked on the dock. The Cameron's boats and yacht aren't here, they are obviously in Figure Eight, so why are you two here? In front of you was a tiny wooden boat and two backpacks and Rafe quickly jumped onto it.
"Maybe you won't have to lie in court for me, baby." He turned to you and raised his hand for you to grab it, but you hesitate.
"What's this, Rafe?" You look around, panic taking control all over you knowing that this place will be soon crowded by police.
"We can ran away together, [Y/N]. Right now. Anywhere you want." His smile was pure and honest as he helped you to get onto the boat and slowly kissed your forehead. "Name a place."
"Charleston?" You answered confused, still not sure that this is happening for real and you really have to make this choice.
"Charleston, yeah, sure. We can go there, princess." He cupped your face and lifted your head up so you can look into his eyes. "Are you doing this with me or not?"
You just freeze in your spot with your eyes wide and your eyebrows raised, not knowing what to do or what to say. You just look at him and took in every little detail on his face: every freckle, the way the sun lights up his iced eyes, his teeth, the way you feel and are just perfect in his arms. You look right into his eyes and remember every little moment. The way he protected you way before you even were his girlfriend, your nights spent together in sweaty sheets, the smiles, the "i love you"s, every date and parties and every thing you tried with him for the first time like anal sex or lobster. Rafe wasn't a bad person, you saw that in they way he plays with your cat or in the love he has for his sisters and Ward. He loves them with everything he has. And he loves you even more. He used to say that he'd kill for you and every damn time you'd just smile, not knowing that he was so true about it. He meant it every single damn time. And if you really do betray him, what are you gonna do without him? You have no friends beside Sarah that turned her back on you, you have no family but a alcoholic mother. You have nothing but Rafe.
"Yes. Of course I am." A tear rolled down on your cheek and he quickly wiped it away and kissed your closed eye lids before deeply kissing you.
"Shh, don't cry. OBX was hell to us. Let's raise paradise together." You swallow with difficulty, feeling like you have spikes around your neck and a knot tied in your stomach. You heart almost dropped to the ground and you tensed your whole body when you heard someone passing by with a boat, jumping all over Rafe but he easily caught you. He hold you close to him, his chin resting on your head until your breath calmed down. You're so stressed that you're surprised it did, but he always calms down your anxiety.
"I have an idea" You said as you sat down together and Rafe started the boat's engine. "We should throw our phones away."
You both did it and left the dock without looking twice. You are too scared to do it. You know they already tracked your phone, they know you came here and they'll probably came after you very soon. Rafe gave you some men clothes and you changed into them, hiding your hair with a cap just like he did.
"You're the most beautiful girl I've ever saw. I'm so lucky." His smile warmed your whole terrified heart and you smiled back, finally without having to fake it, but you didn't know what was coming and you didn't had the time to answer to his beautiful words.
You heard them way before you saw them.
You heard the siren and your heart stopped in your chest. You and Rafe turned around and saw two boats from police and FBI coming after you and already being very close to your old boat.
"What the fuck?!" Rafe screamed, unable to understand how they found him that quickly. And then for just a split of a second his eyes laid on you. You started crying and your whole face is now very pale as you screamed at him something he didn't even heard anymore. Everything is now moving in slow motion for him, the sounds and your screams became almost inaudible as his mind was concepting a plan. He pushed the boat's engine even more, not ready to let his guard down. Not yet, not before trying every fucking shit to save his ass.
"Rafe! Faster, fuck!"
And then you heard Shoupe talking on his megaphone. "Rafe Cameron, stay where you are. Let the girl go and put your hands where we can see them!"
Rafe heard every single word and his desperate look stopped on you; you can read the shook on his face. "You...You did this to me? Are you working with them, [Y/N]?!"
"Rafe. No, please. Go on. They’ll catch us." The desperation that started to grow in your soul and mind is the same one with Rafe; both of you unable to understand each other because of the emotions. The tears are coming out of your eyes in waves and you gasped for air when you realized the weight that lands on your chest blocks the way to your lungs.
"You fucking betrayed me, [Y/N]!" Shoupe was still talking to you through the magaphone, but your eyes and ears couldn't leave Rafe.
"I'm so sorry, Rafe. Please, I wanted to do it for your own good, but-...But-"
He didn't even looked to where he drove the boat in and you almost hit a tree when you reached the swamp, a scream left your throat and you caught him by his arm but he quickly pushed you away and started screaming right into your face.
"How could you? You fucking traitor." He was crying while he grabbed a backpack and got out a gun. Because he wasn't looking anymore, the boat crashed into a fallen tree. You screamed at the percussion of the crush and you almost fell into the water, but Rafe covered you up with his body and whispered into your ear. "Do what I fucking say if you really love me."
"Rafe, do not move! We'll shoot!" You heard Shoupe voice again and when they reached your boat, Rafe caught you by your throat and lifted you up. The cold gun was now pressed to your temple and you froze in, still crying. You trusted Rafe, you really did but you betrayed him. What if...? He would never do that. Right?
"Put your guns down or I'll blow her fucking brains out." He screamed. Rafe in the rage mood was a beast that didn't cared about anything beside his own purpose and you feel this now right on your skin as he tightened up his hold around your neck and pressed the gun even harder on your head.
"Let her go, Rafe! Don't shoot. Put your guns down, it's an order!" Shoupe said again and Rafe pulled the trigger as a threat, knowing the gun was empty. You didn't even realized what happened until you heard the shot that was coming from a cop that didn't listened to Shoupe orders and you've saw Rafe falling out of the boat. That moment your whole heart sank and you screamed, feeling an indescribable pain that kneeled you down.
"No! What the fuck did you do? Rafe!" You're yelling is full of pain while you see him crawling into the water, the blood scaring the shit out of you. You jump out of the boat when you see him ran further into the swamp, his palm pressing on the wound that was on his leg.
"[Y/N]! [Y/N] come back!" You heard Shoupe yelling to you as they also came after you into the swamp, the water already making it hard enough to run as you try to caught up with Rafe. You took a look back and tried to run faster when you saw Shoupe and other cops looking after you between the trees and when you looked around again, you lost Rafe out of your sight. "Rafe!" You whispered a few times hoping he'll be the only one hearing it and not anyone else. You looked around yourself, you heard some stories about gators being around here that are now scaring you to death. The water reached your hips already and you can't even run anymore, you just try to move in silence while whisper-screaming for Rafe.
A palm pressed on your mouth and brought you down after a fallen tree, the water reaching your neck by now but when you looked into Rafe's eyes, you weren't scared anymore. You are scared for him, but not by him.
"I'm sorry, baby. I'm so fucking sorry. I just want what's the best for you. I wasn't thinking straight..I-I-" You began ranting out while not being able to catch your breath, but Rafe stopped you by roughly kissing you. His hand grabbed you by your hair and brought you to his lips, hard kissing you and breathing on your lips. When he retires from the kiss, he pressed your foreheads together and by the look in his eyes, you just knew that this was your goodbye.
"No, Rafe. Please. Don't leave me." You grabbed him by his arms and took a quick look at his wound. "You're hurt."
"Shh.." He cupped your face and gently wiped your eyes, but his palms were stained with his own blood. "I'm not mad at you. I love you, [Y/N]. I love you. I'd kill for you. Anytime, anyone."
"I love you. I love so fucking much." You whispered and kissed him again, one more time. He didn't even answered the kiss, but you tasted each other tears. You both heard them and knew they are coming, they were close.
"Listen to me. I forgive you. I won't tell you to wait for me, but-..."
"I will. I will wait for you. I promise, baby. I don't want anyone else." You spoke so soon without even thinking twice; you were so sure on yourself that you made him believe you right away. You made a mistake, but even Rafe knew how deeply and truly you loved him.
He kissed you one more time, but you didn't even had the time you feel the kiss because you were pulled away from him. A cop you didn't know hold you at his chest, his arms holding you tight by your waist as you jerked yourself trying to escape. Rafe lost his mind at the sight of you being hold like that by another man and he shoot in the air a few times as an warning. You got hold by two cops and you elbowed one of them; the other one shook your body and yelled into your face.
"He's a criminal! What do you think you're doing?!"
"Shut the fuck up! [Y/N]!' He screamed and ran into the water after you, no even realizing that he got himself out of his "safe zone" that was the tree.
"Put the gun down, Rafe!" So he looked around, every gun pointed at him; his beautiful eyes stops on you and he smiled at you before slowly throwing the gun away and lift his arms up.
"Please, don't shoot him! Shoupe!" At this point you were begging, begging for his life that you cared about more than your own. His gaze didn't left you for a second while he got handcuffed and both of you were pulled away into the police boats.
You watched him as his boat drove away and you read an "I love you" on his lips. You felt the tears running down your cheeks, but you smiled despite of everything and screamed your lungs out that you love him, too.
But in the end, you're still a traitor.
