Always have said I love work, it's not a lie. It brings me satisfaction and even joy sometimes. I would always say I my body doesn't always love work but my brain doesn't care.
Turns out that's OCD! I know it isn't always about cleaning. But it turns out even when it is about cleaning, it's not about cleaning, it's about fixing.
I walk into a room and see everything I need to fix, and if I can't do it all right away it eats at my brain. It eats and eats and eats til I have to push up and do it.
But having a tired, disabled body doesn't work with that always. So I am learning how to rest. Here's my tips, for those like me.
If you are genuinely enjoying a task, you may be listening to music, or watching a show. If you are dissociating and saying you're fine doing a task, that's not the best. Maybe you have to, but remember it's okay to sacrifice a few things you were taught are bad. A tall chair to sit in for dishes, half doing a chore and eating a snack before finishing. And celebrating those little wins in the battle against the bug that tells you you can't rest.
I am in this boat with you, but that's damn better than being stuck in it alone. Let's figure this out together!












