Lying in bed alone at 1:56am allows such wonderful opportunities to really think about life and how I have been looking at it lately. I have wasted so much energy on looking at things negatively and yeah, things can get shit for me and obviously I didnt want to end up in the situation I am in but do you think children in third world countries wanted to be born into an impoverished life where the chances of surviving past infancy are so devastatingly slim? NO! They deserve to stress about life, not me! Sure, I have no job, my next semesters textbooks are going to cost me $617.50, I have to register my car in less than a month which will cost me minimum $525ish and I just kicked out my room mate because she owes me $300 for the utilities bills BUT I am not starving, I have a roof over my head, clean running water, electricity, and I am for the most part healthy! Tomorrow I am going to go to the chemist and buy my $12 antidepressants (best money spent besides that $6 i spent on sards stain remover but thats another story!!) and I am going to spend the day doing positive things such as go job hunting, clean the rest of Lara's curtains and go for a long and most likely sweaty walk/run.