#ogbfconfessions

[drexxci]

2020

This is year I just want to focus on succeeding period. Fighting for what I deserve in life. Wether you respect me as a person or not, you will. Ima sucha indigo child & I will let this temper and anger that I have in me as my power to get where I need to get in life. Enough focusing on “myself” I need to focus on my future. I know we have need to live in the moment but sometimes sacrificing certain things for a short amount of time is ok, cause we need to be realistic and have consistent ... which will be a challenge for me cause I hate routines, I don’t do well when it’s the same thing every day. If I can do something for just 2 months I know It’ll be worth it at the end.

[drexxci]

sometimes to chase after your future, you have to stop running and plant yourself in one place. Take a stand and fight for what you want; and know that even after the darkest of nights, the dawn will come, and you will find a place where you don’t have to hide.

A place to call home.

[drexxci]

[drexxci]

Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light. I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night.

[drexxci]

- Sincerely Dre

Used my last vacation day today. It’s bittersweet because we never know what can happen in the future. Not to mention, I haven’t been feeling so confident with job lately. Im beyond worried about it. & having the most painful and yucky time of the month is not helping out. I really need to get on mediticions when I get my period, the level of depression I get is scary. Even days before getting it, I literally feel like the world is out to get me. I hate waking up, I hate talking to anyone, I have zero strength to do anything. I understand pmsing is normal but I truly believe something is wrong when I specifically get it. I also have put a lot of mind to this and I’ve decided to get on medication for my anxiety/depression. Buying weed and CBD is coming out to be way too expensive and I’m getting immune to it & im not really improving. It’s time to put this under control cause my daily thoughts of wanting to drop everything and just walk away is terrifying cause once that happens I literally won’t care about anything or anyone.