Jun 7
never getting over the ascent to the rooftop ever like. siiiick to my stomach. right after breaking the news to leah's parents that he couldn't save her. that he failed again. looking out at the chaos and being so thoroughly unable to handle it, so, so fucking tired. so full of grief.
his shuddering breaths. his ducked head. the way nobody is around but he's still trying not to cry, still trying to keep it quiet. climbing to a roof he might jump off of. he just wants it all to stop.