unfinished animatic plans *__* this was gonna be about double life to you and i in unison by la dispute. i have up obviously but I still like the sketches
[ID: Digital sketch of Grantaire. He's sitting back looking to his left with a smirk. His right leg is crossed over revealing light blue crocs with a red flower detail. End ID]
MY HEART IS MOURNING. I AM NOT OKAY. about to vent my feelings out.
stranger things vol 2 spoilers ahead…
“I think it's my year, Henderson. ( struggling ) I think it's finally my year. I love you, man.”
eddie did not fucking deserve that ending. what was the purpose of killing him off like that? other than the duffer bros wanting to stick with their formula of killing off beloved characters they introduce in every season. like he didn’t need to redeem himself to die a hero like some sort of ‘heroic sacrifice”, he didn’t need a redemption arc. the man was GOOD-HEARTED from the get-go. as evident by his interaction with chrissy in the woods, his adoration and care to his club members of hellfire, he was a big bro to the hellfire kiddos, he just wanted to graduate and pass on his hellfire leadership to the kiddos, he went along to the upside down to help his friends, kill vecna, avenge chrissy and then clear his name. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK DID HIS DEATH SERVE?
AND THIS LINE BROKE ME! BROKE! HE RAN AWAY FROM PROBLEMS HIS WHOLE LIFE AND THE ONE TIME HE DIDN’T THE ONE TIME HE DESERVED TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT HIS BRAVERY, INSTEAD HE GOT AN UNTIMELY DEATH? FUCK THAT SHIT, YOU HEAR ME DUFFER BROS? FUCK THAT.
HE LITERALLY SACRIFICED HIMSELF FOR A CITY THAT HATED HIM.
the desperation and sadness from dustin, he was losing his big bro, I FELT HIS PAIN!
dustin breaking down after eddie becomes unresponsive— i cried, cried and cried. i don’t remember the last time cried this much tbh. (don’t get me started on that lucas and max scene, oh my heart! somebody sedate me!)
you know what angers me more? eddie didn’t even get a funeral. no one got his body from the upside down? i don’t get it. everybody seemed to move on quickly? the more i think about, the more it angers me. no one mourned for eddie except for dustin and his uncle wayne.
are they gonna bring him back like hopper? my gut says it’s final eddie is gone gone but my heart thinks it might be a s03 hopper situation. i’m clearly still in the denial stage. yeah, i am delusional. I JUST WANT EDDIE BACK.
it’s the way they get us attached to characters like alexei, bob and eddie just to kill them right after they are introduced and rip our hearts out. THIS IS NOT OKAY. THIS IS BULLSHIT.
vol 2 is such an emotional rollercoaster, jonathan being the emotional support overprotective big bro to will, max saying she is not ready to die and lucas cry-screaming for erica to call help, eddie dying, dustin crying and holding eddie till his last breath, dustin and uncle wayne mourning for eddie. yeah, what is pain.
in summary, I AM NOT OVER EDDIE’S UNTIMELY DEMISE. IF MAX IS ALIVE AFTER GETTING HER BONES BROKEN IN MULTIPLE PLACES AND HER HEART RESTARTED, EDDIE CAN SURVIVE FROM BEING MAULED BY DEMOBATS FOR FUCKS SAKE. I HAVE A TINY HOPE DURING THIS GRIEVING PERIOD. AND THAT HOPE SHALL SUSTAIN ME UNTILL MY HEART HEALS AND I COME BACK TO REALITY.
p/s: joseph quinn did a beautiful job. he turned eddie into a beloved and an unforgettable character. not only good-looking and have the most beautiful big ol’ brown eyes, he is very very talented actor. hope he continues to flourish and get more acting gigs. i’m gonna go search and watch his other roles… that might help mend my heart me thinks.
hello I am delighted to inform you that “habit stacking” (ie adding a new habit onto a thing you consistently do) seems to be working?? I’ve been having a hard time getting myself to run this spring because I HATE running and I never ever ever want to head out for a run when it’s the first or only workout thing I’m doing that day. but I DO love skating, and when I finish a skating workout I’m always 1) in a good mood and 2) channeling my inner sidney crosby (ie feeling like a Strong & Hardworking Athlete). so I’m ready to tackle more exercise, I’m already sweaty/in workout clothes, and I have to walk Pip anyway—which makes it easy to stack running onto the existing habits (skating + walking the dog).
I’ve also been keeping the minimum running time low (12 min) so I don’t start dragging my feet because it feels like too much work. but in the last 10 days I’ve gone for 5 runs using habit stacking—two 12 min, two 16 min, and one 24 min. that’s 80 min of running, which is so much more than the 0 min of running I would’ve otherwise done!!! plus when you give yourself an easy/realistic minimum instead of setting a punishing goal I find that it’s more fun to be like “oooh I’m done I could keep going right? I bet I could.” anyway I have no aspirations to be a Runner I would just like to be the kind of person who can head out and run 30-40 min anytime I want to.
anyway there’s your atomic habits update. morning walks have not been going as well mostly because I think I have not quite yet cracked the code on that habit. you’re supposed to make it easy and make it fun/rewarding, and I can make it easy but I can’t seem to make it fun yet... still haven’t quite figured out the thing that will motivate me to get out the door. ooh the other thing I’ve been doing is opening my WIP and adding at least one substantive detail or scene idea right before bed every night. five nights and counting so we’ll see... that’s a fun one though so I don’t think it’ll be too hard to keep that up.
