#oli posts

[adhdevankinard]

[oli-nerd]

How it feels to listen to Good Luck Everybody by AJJ in 2024

[thebolter1904]

CAUSE ITS THREE AM

AND IM CALLING EVERYBODY THAT I KNOW!

@nyxe-dragonetti @ireallyliketacosokay @homeless-loki @loki-thanosson @loki-laufeyson-official @loki-laufeychild @goddess-of-birds @0din-borson

[oh-otto]

POV: You’re inside Otto’s microwave while he makes his 5am snack

[hokagegf]

Click here to support Help My Gender Dysphoria organized by Olivia Hinds

I’ve been struggling with my gender for ever since I can remember. The past couple of years, as I’ve taken strides in figuring out who I am,

I’ve been struggling with my gender for ever since I can remember. The past couple of years, as I’ve taken strides in figuring out who I am, my dysphoria has gotten worse. I identify as genderfluid. This means that I don’t identify myself as having a fixed gender. Some days I may identify more femme, masculine, and some days I’m in between. My pronouns are they/he/her and I go by the name Oli. I’m currently not eligible to hold a job because of my PTSD so I cannot make much money myself. I am currently seeing a therapist for my dysphoria and PTSD. We’ve decided that getting a packer/peen would help me lessen my gender dysphoria on those days. My therapist recommends a STP (stand to pee) packer so I can gain confidence with my identity. Please, if anyone could donate even five dollars to me I’d appreciate it so much. If you can’t donate please reblog!

[adhdevankinard]

I haven’t seen this discussed yet but it always make my heart ache when, during the first part of the post-funeral talk on the phone with Shane, Ilya says, “My brother is, I don’t know, scared. It makes him terrible.”

Not “My brother is terrible”

It’s “My brother is scared” and it’s because he’s scared that he acts terrible.

From what the audience has seen of his brother, he doesn’t deserve that kind of grace from Ilya. And yet, Ilya can look beyond his brother’s actions and words and see what’s at the core of him: a scared boy.

And then Ilya says, “It makes me terrible back.” Ilya doesn’t give himself the grace of saying something like, “I’m scared too. And it makes me terrible back.” Only that he acted terribly back at his brother. Yet all we’ve seen from Ilya is give his brother chance after chance and the only time we’ve seen him snap was when his brother insulted Svetlana.

something, something, Ilya can forgive anyone as long as it’s not himself.

[adhdevankinard]

Nobody’s taking him from you, Buck. Relax.

[adhdevankinard]

Can we talk about how much I love seeing the stretch marks and scars on the actors in Heated Rivalry? Because I really really do.

More so, I think seeing those “imperfections” is a microcosm about why this show got me so good. Because they could have airbrushed out the stretch marks (just like how fucking yt is editing out acne on youtubers without consent). But this show feels so lovingly made that, just like the realistic faces during the sex scenes, they weren’t concerned about looking “pretty.” In a time when it’s hard to feel immersed into period pieces because everyone has veneers, i just really appreciate that Jacob Tierney seemingly doesn’t want to sacrifice the intimate storytelling to fulfill unrealistic beauty standards.

And I do want to push back on people saying the show is only about the sex scenes because I think it does a disservice to the care that has been put into this story. Sex scenes for sex’s sake is fine, and there is something to be said about showing explicit scenes in this political climate of quickly encroaching conservatism, but there is a reason for the sex scenes, as cliche as it might sound, other than them being hot. Sex is the only way these two men allow themselves to be vulnerable with each other. It is only under the guise of sex that these two can actually communicate what they’re feeling (ex: the considerate first time scene at Shane’s apartment, “i need you,” calling each other by their first names) and once the veil of sex is lifted, they both run because, oh no, i got too tender and this is not what this is supposed to be, I’m not allowed to be feeling those things.

Anyway, i just love how lovingly this show is made. I love how it feels tactile and real with the stretch marks, the scars, the realistic facial expressions, the messy feelings and actions. I love that Jacob trusts the audience to not feel the need to drown the dialogue in exposition. I love that it feels like there’s a vision behind it — the opening montage and club scene during episode 4 especially felt like there was an artistic vision behind them. I love how serious Jacob and the cast take a story that could have been shrugged off as “unserious fluff.” (Btw, all of this reminds me of Interview with the Vampire, if anyone is looking for other viewing recommendations)