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[symbol-of-victory]

Literally the day before...

Did he just forget the trigger because it was such a violent response, or was he intentionally lying, or is he that obtuse about his own feelings?

[craftyjellyfishcat]

Here's my thoughts on Tenna's reaction to Mike's identity reveal.

[spookyjedimaster]

Life’s too short, so respectfully tell a mutual you love them, you appreciate them, or wanna fuck them.

[shallowseeker]

you might be someone’s

hate read

but you could also be

their guilty pleasure

or

their comfort read

[thelaughingmagician]

Hellblazer #62

[rainbowcatpaws]

DC!!! CREATE A COMIC RUN WHERE BRUCE GETS HIS HAPPY ENDING WITH TALIA, SELINA, OR CLARK, AND MY LIFE IS YOURS!!!!!

[greyskyflowers]

I like the idea that while Bucky's recovering, he has to relearn what hurt is, how rest feels, being full, etc.

They have to drill into him that if he's hurt, then he needs to tell them. It's just until he gets better at identifying it himself because they quickly learn he can't identify it himself.

For a while, when he first starts the long recovery process, he almost causes more damage to himself than Hydra was. Simply because he doesn't understand limits, or rest, or anything like that. He doesn't know how to care for himself.

Not maintenance.

Care. Humans need care.

And he's human now. Always was. Maybe? He's still working on that one....

It takes a while for him to really know what hurt is. Whenever something happens and he starts bleeding, or breaks a bone or anything happens that he thinks they might consider hurt, then he turns to look at them like a kid would, trying to figure out based on their reaction if he's hurt or not.

He's still bad at explaining it, though. He's still learning the different types of hurt and how to narrow down what exactly is hurting.

He usually just goes to whoever is around that he trusts and just says it hurts and stares at them.

I'm a fan of colorful/sparkly/excess bandaids being used for this because visual aids would be so helpful. Even putting them on things that don't need them but instead having them function almost as reminders more than anything else.

Bucky, be careful. You have that sprained ankle, remember?

And he just looks down at like 4 gaint, completely unnecessary, neon bandaids plastered on his ankle and remembers to take a minute to acknowledge the hurt. Just so he knows what it feels like and that if his hand hurts, he should be careful with it. And if there's a cut, then he should try not to reopen it. Or if he hurt his leg, then he should try to rest off it.

He doesn't have to stop anything, and he rarely does. It's more an exercise in body awareness and remembering that weapons don't have limits, but the human body does.

And he's human... So sometimes he has to stop.

He just kind of lingers around them when he's hungry because he hasn't quite gotten cooking down yet. He'll eat anything, even if it's undercooked or burnt, and it's kind of heartbreaking that even those are gourmet compared to the shit Hydra had him on.

He's still learning what hunger feels like and tries to remember that he needs to eat because he forgets a lot there at the beginning if they don't remind him.

They hope he forgets anyway. He says he does when they ask, but they always worry that he thinks if they don't bring it up, then he shouldn't either. Like it's a punishment, and they're playing mind games.

He's also learning what full feels like.

He has to relearn what tired is and what well rested feels like.

He sleeps curled up at first, usually shoved into somewhere small and hidden. He does that when he has episodes sometimes, too. He still has the instinct to run, but he also knows this is a good safe place, so he usually just shoves himself somewhere small and dark until he calms down.

Eventually, though, he starts to fall asleep on them. Slumped over on their shoulder, head in their lap, and pressed close when they finally convince him to sleep in their bed.

To sleep... Just come sleep, Buck. Relax... please. You're tired. You're so tired, honey, and you don't even realize it.

I just have this scene in my head and maybe I read it in a fic or saw some fanart art of it or whatever, but in the very beginning of his recovery process, when he couldn't think, got overwhelmed, scared, etc then he'd shove himself under the bed.

Small, dark, and usually against a wall so that someone could only get him from the side or bottom. He usually pushed himself back in the far corner, just a pair of wide eyes and pale skin when someone looked under it.

But gradually, he gets closer and closer to the edge until eventually he still goes under, but rarely, and he's right there on the edge.

Often after nightmares, when the world is just too big and the dark is in him as much as around him, then he goes under the bed.

And they sit by the edge of the bed, on the floor, leaned back against the wall, and eventually Bucky comes out a little, still mostly under but part of his knees and his head and shoulders visible. Just curls towards them until his head is kind of pressed against their thigh/hip.

And he sleeps.

I'm also a fan of the idea that Bucky gives people access to his throat and belly, the inside of his wrist and his inner thighs when he's especially relaxed and feels safe.

All those vulnerable, soft areas with thin skin, and where it's easy to hurt him even without having to put much effort into it, but they never do.