𝐈𝐓 𝐁𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐍 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 a birthday gift, neatly wrapped in twine and paper. Anticipating its recipient, it waited on the kitchen table in loneliness, as the doctor prepared a meal for two that only one would eat.
Baizhu was a fool in many meanings, as one could only be to believe he could outsmart death itself, to save others from the flame while avoiding it as a fragile, flammable moth. And for days, a fool he was. The gift box lay unclaimed, his dearest absent, and the last vestiges of December slipped past, cold, white and silent.
Baizhu remembered what it was like to be alone, for the first time in years.
It was difficult to swallow, like a pill too large and bitter. But like with all astringent medicines, one finds the means to adjust. No kinder was the task, but it was easier, thoughtlessly automatic, to go about the days so long as he did not dwell them.
Changsheng gave assurances where she was able, though Baizhu claimed to not need them. Kratos would re-emerge and belatedly open his gift, and Baizhu would have no need to fuss over his whereabouts. Because he hadn't left. He would never, not without bidding him farewell.
But as the eclipse came, and with it the seraph went, Baizhu felt as though he were no longer a moth dancing precariously around a flame, but instead one left without a wing. Not robbed fully of its flight, rather holding onto its own empty hope.
He mourned, private and unmentioned. And Baizhu, knowing of the moth's end, resenting the collateral damage it would inflict should it perish into ash, decided it was likely for the better.