#othellosyndrome

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make the jealousy end

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so, yes, the love someone with bpd feels is extremely strong and that is good. but when you mix jealousy and fear of abandonment into it, it stops feeling like a good trait and starts feeling like a curse. i am not capable of being in a happy, healthy relationship. i love my boyfriend to death and i’d do anything for him but he also causes me the worst pains in my life

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i love how my anxiety is dibilitating on its own yet i never acknowledge it because i’m so busy with my bpd, body dysmorphia and jealousy

[othellosyndrome]

woke up today with no will to live. the only time i’m (mostly) free from my mental illnesses is when i’m intoxicated.

[othellosyndrome]

is there literally ANYBODY out there who has othello syndrome like me???? i feel so alone

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i’m so jealous my heart breaks over and over and my chest hurts and the feeling of betrayal is so heavy that i need to lay down

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it feels like my fp cheated on me. it hurts so bad. how do i deal with this? it’s not like he really did.. but if it feels like he did to me then? how do i cope? i cant just pretend it didn’t happen.. and i can’t leave him but i don’t want to be with a cheater but he didn’t really cheat. i’m going to fucking lose it

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stoned rn. my first moment of anything but depression today. i usually forget or let go things i’m upset about when i smoke but this isn’t shaking. i cant take this. i feel like this might be the turning point in my relationship where i go crazy until the other person leaves because i’m so wildly jealous. i should’ve killed myself