#actuallydysmorphic

[muttgirl]

something isnt right here

[othellosyndrome]

make the jealousy end

[pyrosex]

Mood for tonight

[the-daisy-system]

Hey, my name is Ashley and I guess I’m introducing myself for this blog? I’m 15, I like poetry and Twenty One Pilots, and I have Synesthesia. I consider myself to be somewhat of a philosopher and an old soul, and I use moral reasoning (emotional logic?). I’m a Ravenpuff and I want to help people using my writing

Jewel, Lily, and I take control most often, but Jewel is too young to use Tumblr so Lily and I will be the ones posting most of the time

-Ashley 

[othellosyndrome]

so, yes, the love someone with bpd feels is extremely strong and that is good. but when you mix jealousy and fear of abandonment into it, it stops feeling like a good trait and starts feeling like a curse. i am not capable of being in a happy, healthy relationship. i love my boyfriend to death and i’d do anything for him but he also causes me the worst pains in my life

[othellosyndrome]

i love how my anxiety is dibilitating on its own yet i never acknowledge it because i’m so busy with my bpd, body dysmorphia and jealousy

[othellosyndrome]

woke up today with no will to live. the only time i’m (mostly) free from my mental illnesses is when i’m intoxicated.

[shyghost]

lil dysmorphia feels

staying home so nobody can look at you

crying when you look in the mirror

covering up your mirrors 

refusing to take any photos

sobbing in changing rooms

not knowing what you actually look like

panicking bc youre not sure what's real or imagined

feeling like everyone thinks youre an eyesore

thinking everyone's looking at you 24/7

feeling unworthy to walk outside bc of how you look

noticing your warped image in every reflective surface

showering in the dark