Well, that was a surprise. A truly surprising encounter with no other way to reach out to ask how you are? what are you currently doing? Based on your facial reaction, you were also surprised in seeing me that day. Was this a way where fate was trying to tell us, it's time for you to reach out again and there might be a need for it to happen again? Or was it just fate testing the waters with both of us?
What was I feeling that time? I was happy, excited, and truly surprised to see you that day. Did I wish to talk to you? Yes. A definite, yes. It felt like I was seeing an old face from the past which felt comfortable and familiar somehow. I am with someone right now and truly happy. But why do I feel like I need to speak to you and know how you are. How the hell are you anyway? You're already a nobody a certain no one who I should not be wasting any more of my time with. But maybe the feeling of seeing something or someone familiar brought me back to the past and gave me thoughts of the hundreds and millions of "What ifs" in my head again. Were you really that impactful in my past life? Probably. Why? probably because you were someone who I was not able to get the most time of. I was not able to test the waters with you. I was not able to get my closure as well. As I was left alone with more questions that I could ever thought I could ask myself.
Would I be able to see you again? I wish but I am not that hopeful. Why? I wouldn't want things to be complicated. You were the one who ended things anyway. Even though I am dying to get my closure and to get answers to my whys, I couldn't and wouldn't be able to get them. I'm sure of it. No, you made sure of it. All I wanted to know was, was I ever that important to you? Why did you leave me without telling me the reason? Was the reason me? or was it someone else or something else? With my overthinking head, the only thing I could think of is all these scenarios where they might, or they might not have happened to end things in my head.
I know I shouldn't. But I wanted to. Is this something wrong to ask? was this something I should not be thinking of? Is this clouding my judgement or giving me other emotions about my current situation? No. Will this change any decisions I would be making in my future? No. I don't think so.
I just wanted to move on with my life and close this chapter finally. How could I not even have that? How selfish of you. I wish I could just erase your face in my head and just move on from there. How I wish.
