#payostae

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That is the gayest 'I see you fellow queer' side eye of all time. @absolutebl It's beautiful.

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The way Payos comforts Potae and promises to be there for him, to always believe in him and to be at his side... all while loving him in a way that Potae has no idea about.

I'll be with you to the finish line.

Bonus: Potae clinging to Payos' hand

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And Payos' eternal suffering continues.

Because every moment he experiences is another memory that isn't what he wants but is close as he thinks he can ever get.

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Don't do that again. You know I have only you.

(This truly explains how Payos loves him so much, a loyal blue boy who hears his passionate red rascal tell him he's the only one for him? No amount of watching him flirt with girls can change his heart.)

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Payos versus Gay Thoughts and Gay Anxiety... Payos has lost, big time. He is Suffering and Potae is not helping and has no idea.

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Payos just looks so haunted by this. He's spent so much time feeling ashamed of his love for Tae and then Tae offered no comfort when he repeatedly promised to never cross the line and now he feels like he's supposed to be Tae's friend but he doesn't even know how to keep from loving him and so he's trying but Tae also doesn't know what it's like to be friends when Yos isn't in love it just... it has to hurt. To keep living these moments, to keep living what could be perfect but knowing that it isn't what he truly wants.

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Okay, I love this so much. Payos is doing everything in an effort to stay at Potae's side, to be there for him and with him... and when he tries to be honest to give Tae what he truly wants... Tae is upset. What Tae wants is Payos at his side and with the same passion and so Payos has to constantly hide himself in order to stay at his side. Honestly, they break my heart in this episode.

My adoration of Payos grows and grows. He's just so in love and trying so hard and just... just doing his best. But also especially painful because this is happening entirely because of something Tae did that also breaks Payos heart and just... how do I handle this kind of love and loyalty? How do you handle that!? Just watching this is heartbreaking because first Payos has to watch all the girls Tae is flirting with get revenge and then he has to force him to go try out.

Seriously, Payos, beloved boy what do you see in Tae? Oh, passive and loyal blue boys, you make me hurt for you.

Payos trying to follow Tae's passion even when he doesn't share it because it lets him stay at his side and because of how Tae treats him as long as he's the one there... oof.

And this is why Payos stays and why he loves so hard and so much and fights so hard to stay at Tae's side no matter what he does. He hears that and his heart screams and he cannot move away, cannot let go, cannot tell the truth. He is entirely lost in that, in being the only one he has, in being important to Tae no matter what else might happen around them.

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Payos and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Crush on his Straight Best Friend Gay Frustration