#pb willow

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I'm stressing majorly right now. On the verge to panic. Spacey. Idk. Losing it... I had some older lady call me Shannon tonight and I'm terrified because idk why she called me that I don't remember ever meeting her in a sense where I introduced myself so idk what's going on. Did I meet her and just not remember it? Is she confusing me with someone else (like outside of the system altogether?)? Did someone else meet her, within this system? Did she just get the name wrong? Or is there someone else in system that I don't know about??? Or does someone have a nickname of Shannon? Is someone just messing with me? I don't know and it has me really scared and worried and soooooo unsure and just feeling so badly and unsafe idk what to do... Have any other systems gone through this? Is this normal? Common? Possible? I'm so scared. Idk what to do or think or any of it. I don't know I don't know I don't know Willow

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orange plum kiwi ((Haru N))

Just realized I d idn’t post this from my drafts from forever ago so here is this.:

Orange- Do you have any pets?Yes I do! I have two dogs (poodle terrier mix) They are small an cute and sweethearts and basically a lot of my motivation day to day. They keep me active everyday and can always cheer me up and comfort me. It’s sweet how they know when I need them. My aunt (who lives with us) has two labs that are sweethearts too.

Plum- How old were you when you had your first kiss?Kinda a trick question. I haven’t have that conventional kiss. Hopefully someday.The closest to a kiss I’ve had was a dare a guy got while play truth or dare when I was like… 13. Someone dared him to basically peck me on the lips. Needless to say, it was not a good moment haha.

Plum- Horror film or romantic comedy?Dang… I really love good horror movies, but I also like romantic comedies… But I think I’d rather watch a really good horror film. (I know, I’m weird.)

Thank you for the ask!!!! :D

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Traveling

Sorry we’re going to be a bit scarce over the next several days(like today). We’re packing today and leaving for Idaho tomorrow, which will be a 3 day drive. We’ll have some time to come on, but it won’t be as much for a while, and we’re likely to be less active over the next 3-ish weeks, because we’re going to be kept busy with family.

BUT we will still be checking in and try to get through our dashboard and keep up with everyone. We love you guys and want to  keep up!! So, just wanted to let you all know so no one worries :)

-Willow

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How does one cry for help without making people panic? :) :) :)

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Dream?

I had the worst dream I’ve had in a very long time. Idk if it qualifies as a nightmare, because I wasn’t flooded with blind terror (which just makes it worse). I feel really sick and upset and just crippled with this... I don’t know.. violated feeling. Also, in the dream, Tori had fronted to talk to our friend happychances and someone else had been out while we were waiting to see her. I can’t remember who exactly, but I know it was a little. I have the impression it was Evanna (which explains why she is very active and towards the front right now) but I can’t be certain.

I just feel so sick, like there’s venom in my body instead  of blood. I hate this... And this was after taking my med that’s supposed to take away bad dreams (and almost always does) and so for this to get through and wake me up through my other hardcore sleep meds, it just shows how bad it is.

I hate being broken :(

-Willow

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Seems only fitting that I have a panic attack waiting outside the cardiologist's office.

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Oh joy...

I just accidentally found out a new random trigger and so mow I feel all ick y and nauseous and like doomed and spacey and switchy and scqard and  just how do I make it go away and forget  again??????????????????????????????

-Willow

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If all goes as planned, I will have enough money to get the rest of Brianna’s birthday presents today. Don’t want to have wait until Tuesday but if I  have to, I will.

Still trying to decide, though, when she should beable to open up her gifts. Should we let her do that on her actual birthday or wait until her party. Any suggestions?