#pears thoughts

[pearycider]

I hate finishing shows and books and movies and good poetry and songs and walks and showers and I hate waking up in the morning and going to sleep at night and people dying and sunrises and sunsets because all endings suck and it doesn’t matter if when you turn the page something better is on the other leaf because the page before is gone and the moment is gone

[pearycider]

Can someone cover Merry-Go-Round-Of-Life as an 80s rock anthem? It'd be a perfect theme for the book!

[pearycider]

Ooooo more good news!!!!!! Guess who passed her BSL!!!!!!! I’m so pleased! Going to have to see about doing my level 2 now!!!!

[pearycider]

Oh good god I am in my twenties what am i meant to do now

[pearycider]

So hyped to be an older middle aged lady with a tiny house and a dog and an enormously fat cat (who is on a diet, we don’t know why he’s so fat) and I’ll have an ok job that doesn’t make me feel too tired and I’ll go for a tea once a week at the cafe, sometimes with friends and sometimes on my own and I’ll drive to the hill above the town sometimes and watch the sunset go down and though things will still be annoying and things will seem hard, when I look back I’ll realise that everything is ok

[pearycider]

K away again! Just wanted to catch up on all the shenanigans after that horrendously embarrassing exam embarrassing 😳 See yous later!

[pearycider]

I really want to try positive affirmations because my confidence trainer said she knows loads of people who found them helpful, but it’s really hard finding ones that would work for me. They all say things like “I am beautiful and confident. Women love me, fish fear me, towers crumble before me, the tide recedes at my command and I am omnipotent and Lord over all,” and that sort of thing just makes me feel really uncomfortable. I am objectively an uggo so a lot of the stuff really just doesn’t apply to me so I’ve been trying to write my own but they just aren’t inspiring any amount of inspiration at all. Does anyone have any ideas? So far I have “I am more competent than my track record might lead me to believe” and “I try my best.”

[pearycider]

I’ve accidentally somehow managed to get myself on the sailing club committee for my uni next year. I have been out twice and the first time I literally sunk the boat.