Perfect 10 Liners Episode 13
I haven’t commented much on this show because others tend to put what I’m saying or thinking into words better than I can more often than not. But this episode was truly something. The whole cast delivered incredible performances. But special mentions because Santa is always excellent (As a Santa lover, it definitely still counts!) but this episode specifically, I felt like he punched a hole straight through my chest. Perth is also always excellent, and his anger, his remorse, his desperation as Yotha dropped my heart into my stomach, and then Junior, took and tied my stomach into knots.
Gun loves Yotha. He loves him. He loves him so much that it hurts. And Faifa sees it. How could Yotha not? I think the fact that Yotha doesn’t realize that Gun saw him kiss Wa is a vital missing piece. He thinks that Gun is only upset because of the ambush, that he’s scared of the danger Yotha puts himself (and now others) in. He told Gun to take responsibility for his feelings once he learns how to love again and then he kissed him. He yells at Gun, shuts him out and then kisses him to make up for it. He flirts with him, makes him feel special, and yet there are some parts of him that he won’t allow Gun to see or get close to. And then he kisses Wa and Gun sees. And from what Gun knows, this is the reason Yotha won’t let him get too close, this is part of the reason Yotha puts himself in danger, this is part of the reason he’s at this bar every night. These are some of the wounds he can’t tend to. They have matching tattoos, for goodness sake! Yotha was in his bed making out with him that morning and by the night he was kissing the ex that he has matching tattoos with. Gun is hurt, scared and rightfully confused. The need to create distance is understandable.
But Yotha doesn’t want that. In his mind, that kiss was proving to himself and to Wa that he no longer has feelings for him. And although he may not be ready for a relationship just yet, he’s making progress, whether he believes it or not. But he doesn’t know that Gun saw. He thinks he scared Gun because of the violence and that’s why everyone is keeping Gun away from him. It’s what he tells Arm when he asks for help. His desperation to get Gun back was displayed so incredibly. When he asks Faifa, “Did you ask me if I wanted anyone else to take care of Gun?” Wow, wow, wow. He borderline begs Gun to come back to their room with him, twice. And the disappointment in his eyes when Gun refuses, was painful. He’s resigned to it, and he doesn’t want to make him uncomfortable. But he goes back to their room and he’s imagining his sunshine next to him and he can’t accept it. “I won’t let you go anywhere.” Well tell him while he’s awake, Yotha.
Faifa, sweet boy. I have no words. I just adore him very much. It couldn’t have been easy going against his brother to protect his friend. But he does. He knows Yotha and he loves him dearly, which is why he knows he has to protect Gun. His dear friend, who loves similarly to the way he, himself, does. Faifa gives so much of himself to everyone. He loves so fiercely and dearly. He goes up to bat for Gun against his own brother. He sees how much Gun loves him and it surprises him. I think it also shocked Faifa when Gun told him what he saw because Faifa sees the changes in his brother, he knows that Yotha has feelings for Gun. Which is why he lets him crawl into Gun’s bed that night and he turns the other way, although disgusted as any sibling would be (LOL, Junior you are a gem.). But in the daytime, he’s back to protecting his friend (I love Gun’s friend group so much).
Arm made a great point, Do you want your roommate back or do you want Gun back, specifically? Because they are two very different things. Arm is a great friend and a sweet peer mentor. And although they both tricked Gun into this trip, he does genuinely want the best for them both.
Yotha and Gun both have a lot of talking to do and things they need to figure out. And hope those things actually get addressed and not pushed to the side being that we’re already nearing the end of their storyline.
I don’t know where I was going with this y’all but this episode just ruined me. It tugged on my heartstrings, my body physically reacted to this episode. My emotions are all over the place. I’ll come back if I think of anything else.