#personal fail

[shadow-mamma-blog1]

So what started out as a nightly promise quickly died. Not that it matters to anyone but me. But still I felt I should list my excuses.  1) I had a sudden and nearly violent bout of nausea and head pain. Brought on by inner ear issues that haunt me from childhood. 

2) Thanksgiving itself and then Xmas tree assembly. Which if they were my own, wouldn’t be an excuse but I’m a servant in a house of masters and I wasn’t permitted to not participate. Also my supposedly loving cousin called me “lazy”, “bitchy”, and “hateful” all night long. No not joking. Its a long story. 

3) I had my mouth busted up by a Hot wheels car. It wasn’t an accident and didn’t cause permanent damage I don’t think. 

So starting tomorrow morning, I will be posting the previous days accomplishments. Thanks so much. Good luck. 🍀 

[followmetopromiseland]

Throwback to that fac christmas party i never made it to because we pregamed too hard at the lab. Next morning i found half a bottle of wine and a mysterious handful of fries in my handbag but i do remember annoying everyone on my contact list with my perfect eyeliner while my coworker was throwing up.

[hectorspearl]

  Day...3...4? of depressive episode/sick grossness...low key wanna die. But in like...the laziest way. I keep drinking coffee trying to find any small amount of energy but all it does is fuck with my stomach because I don’t want to eat and then I’m more miserable. Sorry for being a whiny/downer lately. I’m just...ugh.

[restingbitchfaceisnotsadface]

you know youre tired when you try to submit your (late) assignment into the wrong subject inbox

self high five for a job well done. 

[hectorspearl]

So I finally went to my hematology appointment and I do have pretty severe IDA (iron deficiency anemia) and because my body doesn't tolerate iron supplements I need to get IV infusions. I'll have my first on Monday and if I don't have an allergic reaction to it, I'll have the next the following Monday and then I'll come back at the end of the month to check my levels again and set up further appointments after that. Basically this is a chronic condition, and is directly related to my ungodly heavy periods (which I'm currently on and let me tell you I feel like death) and as long as I continue to have a period I will likely have to go in for these bi-monthly infusions. The only alternative I have to avoid the constant treatment is to have hormone therapy to stop my periods ( more than regular birth control cause that doesn't mix well with my bipolar medications) or to have a partial hysterectomy. So once again my defective baby box is out to get me. Fuuuuuck yoooou uuuuuterus!!

[tellmevarric]

That feeling when you’ve written three and a half pieces for a couple of upcoming fandom pairing weeks but you can’t write word one on some of your works in progress that you haven’t updated in ages....

[highonhorses]

I thought there was SOOOO much incredible horse content on my dash this morning, until I realized I wasn't looking at my dash, I was on search, and had searched "eventing" 😅

[draculavarney]

Most of the things I do are because I feel like doing them, but some of the things I do are done out of the fear of killer bees.

And by killer bees I mean killing of bees. What I'm trying to say is protect those bee babies guys. Be good to bees.