#personal jibberish

[fallen-angel-nightshade]

Corona virus makes news.

People that have watched any horror show:

It's the Corona virus not the Croatoan virus. Pretty sure there won't be zombies or an apocalypse.

[dorkiobeeto]

I don’t feel at home whenever you’re not around, I miss you

[chencing-coffee-machine]

i watched jungkook’s strike so many times i think i need help 

[marumaruowl]

Self Reminder

It’s okay to move on. It’s okay to separate from someone and go your own path. Sometimes, a person who was once very close to you will find a new group of friends. Sometimes, life changes, and you no longer communicate. Sometimes, that person changes, and you no longer share many common interests. And that’s okay. Don’t force yourself to try to hold onto them. Let them go, and let yourself go. There will be other close friends that you haven’t even met yet. It’s not your fault, or anyone’s fault. It’s healthy and it’s natural. Let it go~

NOTE: I apologize for posting personal things here, that have no relation to fandom or kink. But I feel like I might want to now and then, just to vent a little. Especially in a place where no one has personally met me, or has ties to anyone I know in real life, haha.  

[toliveandtosing]

I hate how I have to in some way make people upset and/or worry for me cause of the news I have to tell them. My friends and family need to know and are getting told in person cause I think they deserve that if I can and my work needs to know cause what could potentially happen will affect how I work dramatically. It’s lovely that they care and all that, but I hate the sympathy eyes. Honestly the two people I got round to today in work looked genuinely hurt and were worried for me and one of my best friends is going to be worrying like nobody’s business cause I know what she’s like.

Although I’m somewhat hypocritical that I’ve spent about 15 minutes crying cause my boyfriend said he would get the day off work to come to the hospital with me as it’s good knowing I’ve got his support. I just feel I can’t win emotionally in some occasions.

[paganwitchofchaos]

So mom came back from the hospital with my aunt and cousin and they all three burst into tears and all I could do was offer them BQQ chicken pizza because I can’t do anything and It was so awkward because for the most part I have blocked off the whole ordeal and refuse to think about it too hard for my mental sanity’s sake. And of course my mom told Jake (my sick cousin) all about how I was sick but now I’m better and now we have matching mud love bracelets with courage on it because I’m somehow an inspiration. And I feel like such an impostor because what the hell did I do other than sit in a hospital bed yelling at nurses because they wouldn't give me pain killers. But I hope she managed to make him feel better because the poor kid is going to be in surgery all day tomorrow.  

[toliveandtosing]

Can't wait to get paid so I can go buy some nice clothes/lingerie to wear for everything that's happening this month.

[toliveandtosing]

It probably sounds stupid, but it kinda pisses me off in work when people keep asking if I'm missing my boyfriend cause he's in South Africa for 3 weeks. I know they probably don't mean any harm, but having every single person ask me whether from the bar or the kitchen makes me think that they think I can't function without him. I had a life before him and I still have a life when he isn't around. The thing is I've still got to deal with it this weekend cause there's still a few people that haven't seen me to ask and then the work night out where everyone will probably ask again cause he isn't there. This is a problem when you date a coworker.