#personaltherapy

[texanmight]

Everytime i think about love or being in love

My mind always goes back to you, you'll always be my everything

[texanmight]

The hardest battle

The beasts are always after me

Always clawing and fighting to reach me

They're grasp is stronger then anything ive ever felt

Their teeth sink deeper into me everyday

I cant escape this battle no matter what i try

Before long i fear i will die

These beasts that hound me know no end

Its no use trying to defend

These beasts i speak of know no compassion

For the beasts name is Depression

[texanmight]

I can tell you what pain is

Pain is that feeling you get when you cant feel your own heartbeat

Pain is that feeling you get when you yearn for something you know you cant have

Pain is that feeling when you see things you never wanted to see

Pain is seeing them More happy without You

Pain is Love

Love is Pain

@honehfox

[texanmight]

Its kinda silly really

I always saw myself growing old with her and making a life full of wonderful memories

Prolly wind up having two or three kids who would go on and have kids of their own

And in our old age we would travel as much as we physically could to see every corner of the world we possibly could reach

But i guess i never really saw either one of us just giving up when we ran into an issue...

[texanmight]

Without her

I feel like a well without water,

A plate of red beans without rice,

A cake without frosting or filling,

A tire without air

Im not saying its impossible for me to live without her but its the last god damn thing i want to happen on this hell we call a planet

She was the one thing that brought sunshine to my days when the rain didnt seem to ever stop

[texanmight]

Why miss somebody who doesnt miss you

I only miss the memories now, because i know the person isnt the same

Theyve been corrupted and stolen by the one person i thought i could trust

Its ok though, i hope you ruin each other, i hope everything you thought was wonderful will turn sour

And when that day comes i hope they try to apologize and come back because thatll be the day i show the strength ive gained in my time of weakness

[texanmight]

Do i scare you?

Good, i scare even myself sometimes

I hope your terrified of the monster inside me

You made it into what it is after all

[texanmight]

Fuck you for doing this to me

I cant even function normally without you popping up in my head and bringing me down

Im tired of it and really wish i could just forget all of it

At this point even that would be better then suffering constantly like i do