#perzoreth.op

[lachrymosian]

My theriotypes!

[lachrymosian]

Does anyone else's level of verbality change when they have very heavy kinshifts? Most of the time, when I'm semi-verbal, it's because I am stressed. However, when I am having a very heavy hamster kinshift, I get semi-verbal, but I'm usually very happy.

[lachrymosian]

Someone on Mastodon suggested I talk to people who are physically transitioning to get a different perspective on transition other than my perspective of "it didn't change my body hardly at all and I don't feel like it benefitted me".

I don't know how to meet people who are physically transitioning, though. I don't know what the tag for that on Tumblr is. There are no meetups at my local LGBT center that are for people who are physically transitioning. I'm too old or too young for all their meetups. When I meet transgender people in person, they either (probably) aren't physically transitioning, or they're women, and I want to be a man.

I don't know what the solution is. Does anyone have a link to a server of transmasculine people who are physically transitioning? That isn't transmeds? I fear a server dedicated to trans people who are transitioning would be full of transmeds, due to how crucial the desire to transition is to them...

[lachrymosian]

I'm curious! Does anyone to whom this is applicable have both a wild and a domesticated version of your theriotypes? My main theriotype is a hamster, but this involves being a pet teddy bear hamster as well as a wild European hamster. I'm also both a dog and a coyote, and I feel like the dog kintype is the domesticated "version" of the coyote kintype.

[lachrymosian]

I would have a much easier time accepting "you can be transgender just because you feel like it, not because you deeply and uncontrollably identify as a certain gender" if I actually knew someone whose transgender experience was like that.

But every trans person I know seems to be the kind of trans person whose identity is fully uncontrollable and deeply unshakeable. I don't know anyone who's transgender just because they decided they wanted to be or who feels like they aren't "really" the gender they consider themself.

My system has identified as a trans man for over a decade, but due to difficulties in identity and recent host transfers, we have me, a host who doesn't feel confident in their identity as a man and sees themself as "someone who wants to be a man but isn't", not "someone who is a man but isn't always seen as one" (where I assume the latter description is more similar to how most trans men see themselves).

What do I do. How do I meet trans people who just decided to be trans. Is that a kind of person who even exists. I'm fully okay with them existing but I have no real evidence that they even exist. Help.

[lachrymosian]

So, we've become more familiar with the fullest range of things that can fall under the "persecutor" role, and we've concluded that a good number of our headmates might fit it. This would mostly be in the form of wanting to do (rarely actually doing) self-destructive or aggressive things.

We looked in the persecutor tags, but there was one insight we couldn't find: namely the reason of why a system or headmate would choose to use the persecutor role, especially in a system where a "role" is usually thought of as something beneficial.

In the case of my system, we do have something of a concept of "headmate who wants to do things that are bad for us", but we don't consider that a role but rather I guess a personality trait, or maybe an archetype. Most of the things we consider "roles" (e.g. caretaker, manager, socializer, etc.) are things that we consider beneficial to the system in some way.

Meanwhile, we don't fully understand why it would be considered beneficial to the system to have a persecutor, outside of the kind who could be regarded as a "misguided protector", which I don't think ours would.

To be clear, I don't think persecutors or any headmate needs to be "beneficial" to be allowed to exist in a system. However, if my system is going to label something in the system as a role (as opposed to a behavior, a trait, or something else), we tend to conceptualize a "role" as something that is beneficial.

If anybody has any insight, we would be interested in hearing.

[lachrymosian]

I'm curious about something in other systems.

A lot of systems believe that making the host the central member of the system and giving them unlimited authority in the system is the wrong way to go about things, and I agree.

However, I'm curious what the alternative is for systems who feel that way.

In my system, we have a handful of headmates (26 in a ~100-member system) with authority roles, who are responsible for making rules (e.g. things we do, things we don't do, how we choose to collectively conduct ourselves, etc.), major life decisions (where input from all headmates is considered), and doing daily tasks. One of them (Capriel) is considered the "main" authority (in that he has the power to override the decisions of other authorities (which I don't believe he's ever done), and if other authorities can't make up their minds, they go to him). However, he is not a host.

I understand that some systems, though, divide authority and responsibilities up much more equally among the system, and in some systems, those concepts are irrelevant.

I would like to hear from other systems about how their internal structure works.

[lachrymosian]

Hello! I've just made this blog, and I'd like to find some mutuals!

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Our collective names are Azzi or Ix, and our system name is Local Void. We're 31 (adults only, please), and have DPD, a complicated relationship to gender, and a system whose origin is traumagenic but where we are now splitting headmates on purpose!

We will also post about self-ship, alterhumanity, our in-system relationships, and maybe kink on this blog.

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Please check our about page on this blog. Here is our Neocities, with a list of alters who post on the blog.

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Thank you for reading!