#petdeath

[meva-klekx]

TW: PET death

RIP Vaiana

Hey, remember me saying my guinea pig might have to go to the vet? Well, while trying to get an appointment, she kept getting worse. Since my usual vet was sick, I had to try and get a different one.

„Arthrosis“ she said. „Give her pain meds and Vitamin C“, also shamed me for giving them small amounts of (soft) pellets. That was Thursday.

Friday my girl wasn‘t better. Might have to just wait I thought… she was still eating, walking not so much. Just wiggling. Barely moving forward. Dragging her feet somewhat behind.

Saturday I took them out again, tried to get her to walk. She barely did, barely wanted to eat as well. Barely pooped.

Sunday she was just lying there. Found an emergency vet. A way better one. They actually said no, it‘s not arthrosis. We gotta do X-rays. Ah fuck, costs alot, but maybe there‘s hope?

Pics came in. Belly was full of cancer. That’s why the pain meds didn’t even help anymore. Could’ve saved her 4 days of pain, if the first vet had listened to me more carefully. I had to let her go. Stayed with her till the end. Apologized for not noticing earlier.

She was probably the loudest piggy I‘ve ever had. Almost ruptured my ear drums every weekend I overslept breakfast lol. The cutest little teddy face.

I‘ll miss you, little princess.

And yes, don‘t worry. I’m not leaving Zahur alone. Made sure to find him someone, even though I‘m not ready yet. I‘ll show the little bugger off, when she‘s a little more comfortable. Zahur seems okay and has started eating more since his new girl arrived again.

Sorry for the long, sad post. I just needed to get that off my chest. Next one is gonna be cute stuff again, I swear!

[birdhism]

RIP JJ the Lovebird

JJ passed away last week at the ER due to egg-binding. She was acting like her spirited and dynamic self, but she had a giant egg she couldn't pass on her own. Rushed her to the vet, hoping she'd make it through surgery since she still had her spunk. She was doing ok after the surgery... until she started to decline, and continued to do so until she went to be with Cody. ⠀ My emergency fund was exhausted due to car issues and moving to a new state with nothing but my birds and basics. The Birdhist Community came together and helped me in my time of need and I'm so very very very grateful. There's more details on my blog and the gofundme page itself.⠀ Widow Hilda has mostly been in rage mode, understandably. She's slowly starting to warm up to me in her own Hilda way, but I know I'll never be a substitute for the amazing JJ. ⠀ Her family, and her original mama (co-mama) @jj_the_lovebird will miss her dearly. Everyone involved tried their best and that's all anyone can do.⠀

[lostlegendaerie]

My rabbit, Pip, died on Sunday. He was 16. Pip was a gift to me from a teenager who raises rabbits and saw how much I loved them. She gave him to me along with a cage and a week’s worth of food, just to be kind. I lost touch with her when she graduated high school, but Pip proved himself the sweetest rabbit I’ve ever met. Pip had a passionate love of dried fruit (specifically cranberries) and adored eating headphones, digging in the fabric carefully laid out for cutting cosplay pieces, chewing on book spines and overall being a rambunctious little sweetheart. Seeing him last November was painful. The mind was willing but the body was not, and yet he was so happy to be held and have his ears rubbed in ways that I’ve never known rabbits to be. Every aspect of his life, Pip shared such softness - to the literal texture of his Mini Rex fur, dense velvet, to how I got him. But all that matters is that the time we had together was meaningful - he never wanted for anything in his staggeringly long life - and that his end, though slow, was gentle. Please be kind to yourselves as well. And give your pets an extra kiss for me. #rabbits #rabbit #digitalart #watercolor #petdeath https://www.instagram.com/p/CCFEt9dDjfS/?igshid=1o0v92izbyj8h

[kantuck]

It’s time to say goodbye.

A door has been opened, and I’m having to deal with something I didn’t want to do but now...

First my first post:

https://kantuck.tumblr.com/post/188701470689/had-to-share

That post helped. Helped a great deal. I heard a quote once long ago "The reaper causes pain, yes. But he also takes away pain." This also points out just that, and puts me back on the right path. But also it's not damned fair. 16 years ago I brought home this black lab when it's former owner passed on. I remember so clearly our hikes, his playfulness while young. Never sick in his life. Now...16 years later, he's so weak I can barely get him on his paws to do his business. He can't see, probably can't hear well, maybe in pain. Just sleeps. I ask...is it worth it to have relationships, companionship's with animals knowing that your going to be hurt again? I see mother's dog now 3 and know that in 7 years or so it'll be the twilight of her life.  Is it fair that she won't live as long as I? I'll go though my own life without her by my side? To make the cycle start again? I'm not a theologian, I'm just some dumb hillbilly who is unsure about a lot of things.

Then...

I just finished watching The Flash "There will be blood" https://www.cwtv.com/shows/the-flas.....f-3b635b603a77 It's what I needed. I'm going to have to say goodbye to Thunder, soon. I watched the exchange between Barry, and Joe, and kept seeing Thunder and I; He being the Flash, I being joe. Barry told Joe that above all, Joe was the one who made him what he was. How he could be a hero, accept that he was going to die. all because of Joe. He said that if it wasn't for Joe, he'd never be the Flash, he wouldn't have saved all those lives, had such a wonderful life. I saw then, Thunder was telling me the same thing. If I hadn't rescued him, became his pack alpha, there is no telling what sort of life he'd had, even if he would had one. I gave him life, and he's had his run. Barry said that he'll never leave Joe, even after he was gone. Just like Dot has never quite left me, nor has Feather. I remember them, I remember the good times. I feel Thunder would be the same way. I think now I can finally say goodbye to him. I see another good coming from being terminated from Tyson. I can be here for the little time I have left with my best friend and to let mother's dog help me though this time period.  Give her what I gave Thunder. I've been fighting this for two straight years and I'm tired. I don't want to do the wrong thing. I've been so hoping the reaper would take him first but I'm being denied that. So...it'll be up to me. Call the vet, ask him to come by, give him the injection. Watch my best friend sleep for the final time. Is this right? Am I doing the right thing? Great Mystery take this weather. I need to get out into the wilds and it's pouring. 

[clovercoin]

Life updates... July. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Can we just all agree sucky month? HAha, nah I'm sorry. It's been just a really hard go of it for our family to have such a sudden loss in our family. Prov and I are still grieving, but putting that upset energy to some good use. With lots of help from our clover crew (cinnri/choco) we're working on getting the house cleaned up and putting effort to getting pictures and shelving on my walls. We're ever so slowly going to finish unpacking this house darnit all!

It cost a pretty penny for candy's memorial items, but this was something I felt was... incredibly important to me. Since the passing of my first therapy dog, Shade, I have been.... grieving ever since. There is never a day I don't go on without missing him. And then the days I remember that I forgot, the guilt and shame wash over me.

I don't want those feelings associated with Candy. I shamefully hid Shade's urn in the furthest, darkest corner of my bedroom closet because it hurt... it hurt too much to see it. It hurt me so bad that I wanted to die. He was... just my light, for such a long time. It's so hard being here without him.

But Candy was here. And she was.. so amazing. So communicative. She was bright and full of personality. Literally NOTHING could slow her down. Shade is my relief, Candy is my reminder. Of what real love and understand is. And that's been such a desperate thing, all my life. And here I had it, I had it right there in my arms... I feel like I somehow let her slip away. As if this something I could have stopped from happening. She was elderly. She was never suppose to survive in the first place. But my god did she, she lived. A great big adventurous life with so many friends and companions. Candy was never lonely. And I'm so grateful for you all for that. All the years I struggled and barely survived.. Provinite my husband, My family, my friends, my fans and following... You all did so much for us and allowed us to be together. I am so grateful for that experience. Thank you all so much.

We also received a beautiful, I mean just absolutely stunning small plush of Candy the Corgi from TheFlamboyantPigeon on Deviantart. Prov and I lost our minds over this really sensational little plush of our baby girl. I would like to take a special day and take out candy's very lovely urn and take pictures of her with her beautiful plush self, so that we may always remember the true puppy she was at heart. <3

It's been... just a really hard month. We're still very much grieving but slowly getting back to routine of everything.

I have been working very hard at taking some artwork commissions to try and save up money to pay off the credit card I used to pay for all of Candy's vet/memorial expenses. I'm so far $1,200/$3000 covered. I am going to desperately work hard to clear it as soon as possible, this was a very big surprise monkey wrench for my personal plans to attend 2 conventions this year (WI/local ones at least?) The credit card I need back for booking hotels or prepping sample sets of my prints and merch. (sweats so much realizing just right now I have to find a new printer hnng)... so... As you can see money will be a bit tight on the fun stuff. I'm just so grateful I had been saving up cash also that could afford me all these extra vet visits and time with candy. I do not regret spending any of the money, it did exactly what we wanted. It got her home to say goodbye to our boys. And that was worth it, to have her resting peacefully in my lap for the last few hours.

SO... FLEXES... If you ever wanted to buy artwork from me, please feel free to hit me up or email me [email protected]

I also have adopt characters for sale on Deviantart! You can also purchase MYO Pillowing slots and help support the world of Clo financially~

Or even just last shot, ko-fi would be amazing. Donations and tips are never expected but forever grateful for. We're working hard so we can get back to making new content (prints/merch) for CloverCoin!

[kashidoodles]

My heart is heavy today, as we had to put down my favorite little puppy, my orchard scout and frisbee champion Roxy. <3 She was the best dog, the most beautiful border collie, and had a long happy life! She lived a whole 17 years, I couldn't be any happier how much love and happiness she gave us. Now she can run without pain in all the orchards and catch all the frisbees she wants for all eternity <3 <3 #dog #bordercollie #pet #nature #petdeath #tw #twpetdeath https://www.instagram.com/p/BtzxmmBgvIZ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1sclxy0vn2mi5

[potrix-the-queerschlaeger]

You will be missed, little fluffball. 😔🐹💕 . . . . . . #hamster #hamstersofinstagram #siberianhamster #siberiandwarfhamster #djungarianhamster #pet #pets #petsofinstagram #petdeath #bulletmcnugget (at Obfelden, Switzerland) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn9m0_tjKUh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1755anyj62e9q

[feralworks]

Warning: personal post. One year ago today, Hobbes passed away. He was my first dog that was my own and in many ways, my partner's and my first child. Hobbes was 16 years when he passed. We'd had him in our family for 14 years. He was a good dog. The best. #dog #dogsofinstgram #personal #pets #petdeath #stillgrieving