#phoenixthoughts

[cynicalbengal]

OK I’ve heard of sexuality changing while on hrt. I knew it was uncommon and not expected. And I thought that after 2 years I was in the clear.

NOPE!

Within the last couple months I’ve gone from AroAce to…something????? Idek yet. All I know is that hot people actually exist now???? I see someone and think “damn”??????? I FEEL LIKE I’VE BEEN HIT BY A TRAIN EVERY TIME!

Like, I’ll figure it out, but it’s a bit annoying to go from aroace, planning to completely go through life single player, then have multiplayer mode just randomly turn on.

Damnit I’m 26 and I’ve never even been on a date. Wtf how am I supposed to break into the dating scene now???? This is scuffed.

[phoenixe3]

It’s big missing Gabriel hours😕 I mean look at him, the lil face scrunch 🥺

[heartmindalignedspirit]

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[cynicalbengal]

Not to be horny on main but I just went on a first date with an older trans woman and she called me cute and my heart started racing.

And then at the end she asked me what I was looking for from the relationship and the look she gave me! The devious grin!

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[cynicalbengal]

Feeling vibes for once. Winter is such a good season for me

[cynicalbengal]

Thinking about that time when I was in the closet and questioning hard where I got blackout drunk and woke up to find a video message from myself, inebriated to the point of delirium, to ‘Sober Me,’ featuring such hits as:

“I’m transgender as fuck!”

A random explanation about how alcohol affects inhibition and impulsivity

An unrelated rant about torque and moments in dynamics and how you maximize them by “making the distance the greatest,” whatever that means

“By the way, I would push the button. Or take the hormones! I want boobs. Let’s go do it as soon as possible!”

Several minutes of darkness after I dropped the phone and can’t find it, with additional mumbling about how dumb torque is

It was simultaneously the strangest way to come out to myself I can imagine and also extremely on brand for me

[cynicalbengal]

If social media is to be believed I apparently became visible a few hours ago but I’m sleepy so I lack the brain goo to think about the ramifications of opacity.

[cynicalbengal]

Arcane is a Shakespearean tragedy about the Disaster Gays told through a series of Renaissance paintings