#pickledmess

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im thinking abt how season 12 implied that cas was just gonna raise jack by himself in a random cabin since he and kelly knew she wouldnt survive jack’s birth. and how n much id rather have seen that than watch dean winchester traumatize a baby lmfao

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That post you reblogged, say that! Dean's been abusive throughout his entire time on the show (it's not ooc and it gets worse every season). Everytime he's nice to Sam or Cas, I'm like okay so when is he going to say something or do something absolutely cruel to them (and without fail he always ends up doing just that)

I could probably write an essay about it but I don’t really want to right now. But yea, Dean constantly claims that he’s protecting Sam but he’s only trying to protect a version of Sam that doesn’t exist. The Sam who’s a good hunter who listens to orders and doesn’t question anything, doesn’t raise “ethical” questions.  Inserting a keep reading cause I went off a bit...

Anytime Sam or Cas mess up, Dean will bring up their mistakes for years afterwards and make them re-live the shame and guilt. He doesn’t try to assure them that it was a mistake, that they can move past it or anything, because he doesn’t want them to. It’s a control tactic, because Dean is the moral standpoint and anyone who disagrees with him is too far below and should follow him. 

And the mistakes will be like, Sam not knowing that killing Lilith releases Lucifer, Sam not knowing where to begin to find Dean and Cas because he didn’t know what the hell Purgatory was, and for once honoring their thing about how they won’t go raising one another from the dead. 

Or it’s Cas trying to keep the Winchesters away from a Civil War (Apocalypse 2.0) up in Heaven since they’d already been through hell, but he made a poor decision in opening Purgatory to end that war. Cas not wanting to let Balphagor do that exact same thing bc it would become another huge problem for them, and not knowing that the alternative would be that Rowena dies to close the rift. 

But when DEAN messes up, it’s self-pity hour with the asshole loser who cries about how bad of a person he is while Sam and/or Cas tell him he’s such a good man and he’s just made a mistake!! He can come back from this!! 

Meanwhile the mistakes are like, torturing souls in hell and being really good at it. Letting Gadreel possess Sam and then SAM having the memory of his own hands murdering Kevin but it’s still pity-hour for Dean cause it’s arguably his fault that he lied to Sam to agree to be possessed by an unknown angel in the first place even though Sam was okay with dying. Killing Amy, not trusting Sam when he said that Amy is a good person and deserves to live, and thus leaving her son an orphan. Learning that Jack was going to die in order to kill Chuck and getting angry at Sam for not wanting Jack to die?

Season 15 was a culmination of Dean Winchester caring about himself and his self-image first and foremost, and extending those “feelings” to versions of the people around him he desperately wanted them to be but failed to realize they weren’t no matter how much he tried manipulating them to be the people he wanted them to be. And when he realized that they weren’t who he wanted them to be, ultimately, he cared about his own sense of free will and decided “fuck it, if I gotta kill Sam and Cas to kill God, who cares” and that’s why he pointed a gun at Sam. 

okay so i sorta wrote an essay anyway... 

EDIT: I feel like adding this but this isn’t to say that Cas and Sam are without faults, because they have ALSO made shit decisions that they needed to make up for. But not only were they more likely to genuinely try to make up for egregious mistakes (like Cas trying to help Claire) but they were usually also trying to make up for or were continuing to beat themselves up over mistakes they made when they didn’t know that they were being lied to or misled to (or were possessed/controlled) make poor decisions (like Sam beating himself up over killing Lilith).

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i am Tired of the only videos on tik tok abt spn that come up on my fyp are just people babying dean winchester. actually ?? im tired of having to hear abt dean winchester and his problems in general omfg, people act like sam wasnt there for their childhood unless its so that people can cry abt how dean felt when they were little.

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idk i just think that the writers started up an interesting plotline w sam where he could become a leader of hunters and also lean in to being a witch since rowena left him everything, and instead they gave him a son he named after his abusive brother and a blurry wife and depression until he died.

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still mad that castiel made that deal to save his son and he died to save deans dumb ass after giving some big speech abt how dean is a good person after dean literally was pressuring a kid to kill himself the day before so thet dean and his brother, who are full grown adults, could “be free”

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why do people think the reason that people hate Walker is bc they’re bitter destiel fans?? im sorry i hate copaganda shows???

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ive decided that my new headcanon is that Jack brought Cas back from the empty and Cas found out that Dean doesnt give a shit abt him a week after Cas sacrificed himself so he snuck off while Jack was busy and put that rebar in the right place <3

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rewatching s14 and the scene where Cas and Jack are talking abt Michael!Dean and Jack says they have to just kill him bc Michael is too dangerous and Dean doesnt matter? Lmfao he really studied Dean well bc it felt like Dean talking. Like if anyone other than maybe Mary or Sam were possessed by Michael (esp if it were Jack), then Dean would also say they would need to kill him.