something something about fatphobia
i've been suffering for months with stomachaches so strong i'm actually scared to eat anything other than plain bread and rice ON TOP of my extremely painful period pains that have been going on for years now.
i changed gynos and doctors so many times because often their answer was just to "lose weight and be more active" (mind you i'm slightly above average, just to say that i'm far from the point where the fat could actually impact my health). while sure, being active surely helps to live a long healthy life, i'm in pain. almost constantly. how could you think i'd be able to be more active if i'm in pain?? so, yeah. i never recived proper treatment.
long story short in these few months i lost a lot of weight due to plain not eating because my fucking stomach reject pretty much anything that has a smidge of flavour on it. everyone keeps telling me how good i look, how proud of me they are, how i look "healthier" when my health has never been lower.
funny thing is, when i was little i used to pray for something like this to happen. i prayed one day i'd become so sick that i'd come out that sickness being skinny and beautiful. congratufuckinglations me, i guess you got what you wanted.













