#pluto whines

[caninestooth]

alterhuman vent

I AM NOT HUMAN. do not perceive me as human. do not call me human. do not say "but real canines," "but real avians," "but real angels," "but you have human kins," I AM A REAL CANINE. I AM A REAL AVIAN. I AM A REAL ANGEL. MY "HUMAN" KINS ARE NONHUMAN BECAUSE I. AM. NOT. HUMAN.

humans need to get it through their thick fucking skulls that I am not what they perceive me as. I am the canine they despise, I am the winged creature they refuse to see, I am the angel spreading positivity, and they just. don't. listen.

some humans are okay, I have ones I like. I love my human mate because he sees me as I am. the others are not okay, they refuse to look past what they think is true and its so tiring.

[caninestooth]

so i actually ended up using a mobility aid td. Im not diagnosed with anything due to my family thinking im faking but my friend brought me a cane to use so ive used it td.

im incredibly embarrassed about it, i feel like i shouldn't need the help. i played sports, i used to be incredibly active, and now im just .. not

sports definitely caused a higher degradation of my body quicker, along with constantly pushing myself thru pain until exhaustion. but i still feel the need to push myself to be viewed as able bodied. my period is causing my body to hurt hurt, nosey people feel the need to know why im using it, and when i refuse to disclose my medical information (even tho im not diagnosed im still disabled, a diagnoses wont change what is or whats not going on with me.) they get upset.

im supposed to be a working dog. Im supposed to be the ehlp, not need it. my owner is being incredibly helpful and supportive right now, and it makes me feel better about this time. i really do hope that this flare up died down soon ( like . tonight soon) i dont wanna be looked down upon anymore.

[caninestooth]

“I feel attacked over something I chose to feel attacked over. My response is to attack a resource and community for people like me instead of the people who are actually attacking me.”

-you

I didn't realize me pointing out that a "resource" for my community being WRONG was a bad thing ?

I do not feel "attacked," I feel the need to correct something that is blatantly wrong and causing harm towards an already misinformed community. I myself am not "attacking a resource and community for people like me," I am correcting. Beings are free to be in that community, I myself am in the discord server. Therian Territory has recently unbanned the talk of physical therianthropy, which It was stupid it was banned in the first place, but Thorn is improving in their acceptance.

To any alterhuman who feels as though I was attacking a community or person, I was not. I want it to be known that this person who claims to be an educator was wrong. You're free to enjoy their content, you're free to be in their server and community, do what you want, but be aware of the harm they caused us.

[caninestooth]

fictkin dysphoria feels so much diffrent than the other dysphoric states I have. I can help dysphoria with "real" animals, my canine and avian identitys are easier to soothe. collar ? tail ? nest ? fluffy clothes ? flowy clothes ? bam ! im better. angelic kin is a little harder but its still doable.

HOW do i ease the dysphoria that comes from being a COOKIE. how do I cope with missing the people from source. I will NEVER get to see those people again. Penny ?? my girl ?? never again. Wolvie ?? spidey ?? BLIND AL BRO. I MISS MY OLD BLIND WOMAN.

and the dysphoria I get from my universe as deadpool is astronomical. I can't just regrow my parts and it makes me so upset, bc thats my WHOLE THING ?? and theres no way for me to have that again ?? AND MICHAEL AFTON im not ROTTING ?? and I cant have that until im dead, and like, once im dead im gone ??

this universe SUCKS and I wanna be split back into all of my other ones 😕

friendly reminder doubles dni [deadpool, strawberry crepe cookie, squid ink cookie, michael afton, bolt]

[caninestooth]

vent post ahead

talking about fears in a relationship

I really really hate disagreements or "arguments" or just little blips of being kind of rocky with my partner. I already worry daily if this is our last , I trust him but I dont trust myself.

I feel the need to constantly apologize any time anything comes up , I need to defuse the situation before something bad happens and he gets mad and ignores me (its the trauma talking, hes never done this). and i know the constantly apologizing gets annoying bc bes expressed he wants me to stop but I can't stop seeing everything as my fault and if I had just stopped whinning none of this would have happened

were having a conversation bc I was upset that he didnt tell me like anything he did the whole week he was in Wisconsin and it turned into how I rarely ask about his day when I do ask and he seems to ignore it. I told him I feel bad because I start most conversations and its just a mess and im trying not to cry.

I love my mate so much and I hate whinning to him about how I feel because what if this is the last straw.