#poems365

[justthoughts03]

Normality is a pained road

It is comfortable to walk on

But no flowers grow there.

[justthoughts03]

Promise me something

That 2022 will be a year that you focus on all things you.

Be kind to others

but more importantly yourself.

Take those 'Silly dreams'

Off that dusty shelf.

Be brave to say no

Be brave to say yes

Take each day as it comes

but also remember to rest.

Remember to laugh

Remember to cry

Remember that feelings are like seasons

They will pass by

Mistakes will be made

and change will come

But stand tall and own it

and always acknowledge how far you've come.

Take the wisdom of yestetdays

and the hopes of tomorrow

Take the laughter with the tears

and the joys with the sorrows

And make me a promise my dear that in 2022

You will give yourself permission

To focus on

YOU.

[justthoughts03]

Even though it kills me...

And even though it kills me

I'm gonna step back

Away from the want of wanting you

Which eats away at me everyday

I'm gonna step back

And see if that day comes

That day when you want to speak to me.

When you want to be close to me.

That day when you want to want me.

And even though it kills me

I will step back.

I must step back.

Because for a moment...

I forgot to want myself...

[justthoughts03]

What’s your secret?

How do you do it?

How do you dare?

How can you receive a message from me

And pretend I'm not even there?

How can you swipe by me?

How do you not have the time?

When yesterday you said I was your everything

And you called me 'mine'.

How do you walk around acting like I don't exist?

The audacity is really loud my love

Tell me what's your secret?

[justthoughts03]

if they wanted to they would but they didn't

Therefore

I

Choose

Me

[justthoughts03]

The path to hell

Is paved with good intentions

That go wrong

Again and again

Through repetition

And bad decisions

Made through desperation

To change outcomes

Hoping for different endings

Just to be loved

But how?

After a while

You realise that love can be forbidden for some

And allowed for others

Maybe it's because you're not built for it

Or you may break it and others in the process

What seems like normal progression for others

May just be too much for you

He decides.

Or has he already decided?

I don't know.

All I know is

The path to hell

Is paved with good intentions

That just go horribly horribly wrong.

[justthoughts03]

And here I am again

I've just woken up

And here I am again

You are the first thing I think of in the morning

And it's come to a point where its not a habit it's routine

But you are no where to be seen

In my life and on my screen

It's like you don't even exist

And I start to question whether any of this was real

The way you made me feel

So I try to get out of here

Count to ten

But I find that I'm right back here again

[justthoughts03]

I'd be a fool to call you mine

And yet

In my mind

You are all the time...