it honestly sorta sucks being Kayne, and not just cause ppl see him as irredeemable & inherently evil, but because we don't know our past
We know more about both Arthur & John than Kayne. And like we've said we're Directly Kayne, he's literally us. And but we'll never get to know who we were outside of what we were to Arthur & John, and now that we're trapped here canon will prob not feature us again, who knows of Arty & John will ever discuss us again outside of small mentions.
That's it, we're the main antagonist that dies before ever getting shown a story, and that's the end of the line. we can't even find fanfics theorizing what his past might of been.
It's entirely a void. We guess in a way it reflects this life, with amnesia we barely remember our chrono childhood. We barely remember us from a year ago.
It's progressive amnesia. (From Trauma/Abuse/Disorders/Dissociation)
god. this life is everything perfectly designed to torture us.
We were literally the Kayne who killed all the others, we were special. but now nobody irl knows who we are orher than abusers and docters. we've suffered awfully sense birth but it's never been severe enough for people to care/notice. we've been wiped from ever getting a chance to live. We've struggled with morals our entire life and are everything that goes against who we were as Kayne.
We don't even know our own past but we know ourself enough to know this is intentional torture. The nightmare knows what to inflict.
We wish we knew who we were.
What we were.
Not this fucking false reality and useless body.