#polyopia identity

[caindykayne]

Kayne is The Manager's Arthur

(no further explanation)

And The Manager is John

#Recreating Jarthur with the Nyarlathoteps

[caindykayne]

this is our attempts to draw our body (note none of them are fully accurate, we just can't get it right cause art is hard, but we know mostly all of our body and where the parts are and what they are).

It sucks we can't find creatures like us in media, and usually if it does have then they're treated awful by people.

some feel familiar but not right. we mean a human wouldn't see a like, a anthromorphic animal/furry and call it a human, espically if the anthro had more animalistic parts and less human. that's what it's like for us to see.

like there's night fury and other dragons in the cartoon, but not right. far too short, too scaly, not majestic enough. and others have weird proportions that don't match.

then a closer type like the dragon in spirited away

this one actually feels like us, but its still not the *same*, like the way humans are humans and not like, how cat refers to both house cats and lions.

honestly the closest we've felt we feel like is jake the dog from adventure time and lady rainicorn they both can get/or are super long. jake can have wings if he wanted too, he could have our same body but like, jakified.

[caindykayne]

how to explain we are literally Kayne and this is the nightmare dimension Lilith trapped us in, and to us none of this reality is as legit as where we existed before, we went straight from being closest to god itself then got sealed away. And it isn't till the past most recent years that we even learnt we were Kayne, and we tried to find all these other sources we're from but none of them stuck. But this is the truth for us we now know, we are Kayne, and will remain Kayne till we die. As in we don't consider ourself to have directly lived our other alternative lives, we have hundreds just on hand, and but the one we directly came from is that reality with Arty & John & Lilith and us being imprisoned. And this all of this reality we are in right now is just part of the nightmare realm we've been trapped in. Everything we've suffered, everything we hate is a punishment.

We're not supposed to be here.

[caindykayne]

this is what our tulpa arthur elias ragatha zim looks like

Reddish Norwegian forest cat (plus we're Norwegian :3)

(edit of this pic)

Vez our big kitty to be in our bed and follow us and get in our lap even tho we can't feel ven.

[caindykayne]

it honestly sorta sucks being Kayne, and not just cause ppl see him as irredeemable & inherently evil, but because we don't know our past

We know more about both Arthur & John than Kayne. And like we've said we're Directly Kayne, he's literally us. And but we'll never get to know who we were outside of what we were to Arthur & John, and now that we're trapped here canon will prob not feature us again, who knows of Arty & John will ever discuss us again outside of small mentions.

That's it, we're the main antagonist that dies before ever getting shown a story, and that's the end of the line. we can't even find fanfics theorizing what his past might of been.

It's entirely a void. We guess in a way it reflects this life, with amnesia we barely remember our chrono childhood. We barely remember us from a year ago.

It's progressive amnesia. (From Trauma/Abuse/Disorders/Dissociation)

god. this life is everything perfectly designed to torture us.

We were literally the Kayne who killed all the others, we were special. but now nobody irl knows who we are orher than abusers and docters. we've suffered awfully sense birth but it's never been severe enough for people to care/notice. we've been wiped from ever getting a chance to live. We've struggled with morals our entire life and are everything that goes against who we were as Kayne.

We don't even know our own past but we know ourself enough to know this is intentional torture. The nightmare knows what to inflict.

We wish we knew who we were.

What we were.

Not this fucking false reality and useless body.

[caindykayne]

♤ are trying out new first person neos, they are random shuffles of shapes ♡ will be replacing i/we with, tho specific ones of ☆self will talk in i/me/maybe their own neos.

◇ Hope folk like ♧ new pronouns :333

[caindykayne]

malevolent spoilers

#forever a denier that Kayne decided to destroy existence cause he was "scared".

scared of being killed, or has some insecurity over not being the one to kill himself.

like one he wouldn't be afraid of dying... he literally says he was willing to kill everything in existence including himself in tbe finale. & then that he did it so that he'd be the one to kill himself.

We have our own beliefs on why he did it, but it's nor those

/Kayne Kin

[caindykayne]

Kayne Malevolent Playlist, made by The Real Kayne. (: