Sometimes, Rhodey forgets.
In his defense, it was late. Past 2:00 am, if the clock in his car was to be believed, and it sure as hell felt like it was past 2:00 am. He hadn’t been able to get away from his meetings in D.C. until the sun had long set, and the drive from there to the cabin was over four hours. By the time the familiar mailbox finally lit up underneath his headlights, he could feel the road fatigue sitting uncomfortably on his eyelids.
It’d be worth it, though, in the morning. Morgan’s face when she saw that he’d come to visit always was.
Still, he didn’t know when the last time he’d gotten a full six hours of sleep had been. Last week, maybe? Or was it the week before that?
Jesus, maybe Pepper was right, and he really did need to take a break. They just weren’t as young as they used to be.
He’d expected all of the lights in the house to be out when he pulled into the driveway, but there was a dull glow coming from the garage, and he sighed.
He switched off the engine, grabbed his duffel, and used his key to slip inside. F.R.I.D.A.Y. greeted him in a hushed tone, and he just waved in response, knowing that her cameras would pick it up.
He gestured at the door that led to the garage. “I’m gonna go force him into bed,” he said, voice low.
“That would be appreciated,” F.R.I.D.A.Y. responded, just a touch amused. “He will not listen to me.”
“Barely listens to anyone,” he grumbled, grabbing the door handle and pushing his way inside.
Like he’d said: sometimes, he forgets. It was a surprisingly easy thing to do when the remembrance hurt, and it got even easier when you were pushing through exhaustion and denial and over thirty years of muscle memory.
The outline bent over the far worktable was an intensely familiar one: muscled shoulders, mess of curly, untamed hair, and he didn’t even bother drinking in the rest of the details. The memory that he unconsciously superimposed over the reality was so ingrained, so lifelike, that he didn’t feel like he needed to.
“Tones,” he called, the nickname soft and fond on his tongue, “it’s 2:00 am. Go to sleep.”
The outline froze. Then, a tiny voice floated back to him.
“Sorry, uh,” Peter swung around, running a stressed hand through his hair, “I’m... I’m not him.”
The realization of the lapse, of the magnitude of the lapse, smacked into him all at once.
“Shit. Shit, Peter.” He clenched his fist, shame and grief rising up in his throat. “I’m... Jesus, I’m so sorry. I was just...”
He shook his head. How the hell was he supposed to justify forgetting that his best friend, a man who was practically this kid’s father, had been dead for over four years? How the hell was he supposed to apologize for that?
“It’s okay,” Peter said, offering him a shy, pained smile. He could tell that the kid was struggling to keep his voice light, forgiving, because the words just barely trembled in the air. “It’s... You’re not the only person who’s done that, ‘s all.”
There was a thick lump in his throat, and he swallowed it back. “I’m... not surprised. You... You look like him.”
Peter’s smile morphed into something more genuine. Still sad, but less sharply so. “Yeah. I, uh, I know. Pepper tells me that a lot. So does Happy, actually. It’s a thing, I guess.”
He didn’t know what to say to that, and he certainly didn’t want to think about the implications of it. Peter had spent most of his life following in Tony’s footsteps, to the point where everyone who had known Tony, really known Tony, could see the similarities as bright as day. And it wasn’t that Rhodey thought Tony was a bad role model, (in fact, he thought the opposite), but he knew where those footsteps ended.
In Rhodey’s mind, Peter was one of the last true remnants of Tony left on Earth. He didn’t know if he could bear to watch one of those remnants die.
“Well, I’m gonna head up,” he said, because he didn’t know if he could spend another second in a dead man’s workshop, trying to pull the pang of nostalgia out of the child he’d left behind.
“Yeah, yeah.” Peter nodded, half turning back to his project. “It’s late.”
“Sure is,” he said, turning away. Then he paused, hand gripping the doorframe. He’d never been particularly spiritual, and he knew that Tony sure as hell hadn’t been, but there was something making him stall, a warmth and affection that he wasn’t completely sure was entirely his own.
He loved Peter, sure, but... but this felt different.
(It felt exactly like Tony, but he didn’t think that he was ready to analyze that just yet.)
“Pete,” he called back, and he saw the kid jolt in surprise at the nickname. “I meant what I said. Go to sleep.”
“I’m almost done, though.”
“Now, Parker. Whatever it is you’re working on can wait.” He let out a slow, measured breath, voice softening with it. “You know what Tony’d say if he knew you were down here this late.”
That seemed to work. The kid’s posture slouched with defeat, and he followed Rhodey back into the cabin and up the stairs without another complaint, a half-repaired set of webshooters forgotten on the table.
When they got to the kid’s bedroom, the one that Pepper had given him after the funeral, Peter stopped, hand poised on the handle and face pinched up in contemplation. “Hey, Rhodey?”
“Do you... Do you think he misses me?” Peter’s voice hitched a little on the question, but he kept going as if it hadn’t. “Just... wherever he is. Do you... Do you think he wishes he was here?”
“I think,” he started, crawling his way through the words, hoping to hell he didn’t screw this up, “that if he’s able to do just about anything, he’s... he’s gonna be missing you, yeah.”
“And it’s,” Peter swallowed, “it’s good that I remind people of him, right? He’d... He’d like that, right?”
“Okay. Yeah.” The kid met his eyes, and they both pretended that Rhodey didn’t notice the wetness on his cheeks. “Uh, goodnight.”
Once Rhodey was in bed himself, he asked F.R.I.D.A.Y. if Peter had actually gone to sleep. She said that he had.
“He’s not all like you then, huh?” He whispered to the ceiling, smirking through the tightness in his chest. “You’d’ve already scurried back down there, and lied to my face in the morning.”
He didn’t know if Tony heard him, if there was any of Tony left in this universe to hear him, but he knew that if he had, he was laughing, and that was enough.