Do you think that in canon, Spinel wishes she could’ve first met Steven in a MUCH more pleasant, peaceful, and non-“I want to kill you and your planet” way? Like she really has extreme guilt and remorse for what she did when they first met and she wished she could undo all of her damage? I imagine a scene where Spinel looks in a mirror or her reflection in a puddle where she sees her previous “evil” self with the crazy eyes in shame and guilt, but promises to not be that same person anymore.
OOOOH I HAVE DONE A THING VERY SIMILAR TO THAT IN ONE OF MY UNFINISHED FICS!!!! With the reflection thing I mean!!! I've also seen a lot of art referencing a scenario like that...
(for reference, I am talking about CANON spinel and NOT PIC spinel from here on)
It's obvious - Spinel feels so much guilt for what she did. I refuse to believe she doesn't think about her actions all the time, and I REFUSE to think that she wouldn't have nightmares about herself being a villain if she ever fell asleep.
I've said it before and I'll say it again, Spinel had no plan to do anything if her plan succeeded (or, if it failed. Which is why in PIC, she didn't succeed OR fail - her plan just worked differently than she expected). And the sad but very believable possibility is that she would HAVE nothing to do and nowhere to go... and would lead to her realising there's only one way out of her trauma.
Spinel in canon would ABSOLUTELY want to go back in time and undo everything she did to Steven. I believe that very often, in secret, she wishes she never met him... for his sake.
(I love being able to ramble about this kind of stuff on my own blog, hehehehe) (THANK YOU ANON FOR THIS ASK!!! <333)
