#prancingunicorns

[findingmypeace]

Is vegetarianism allowed? Is it both men and women, or just women? How long do people typically stay in the program?

For those of you who don’t know this is an ask about Dine Monte Nido. I did the local Dine program for a little while back in May and June.

Vegetarianism is allowed. Veganism is not. They will also work with you on food allergies. However, most Dine programs do not employ a dietitian and therefore you are in the honor code as far as following your meal plan. There is a minimum amount you have to complete and you will have to supplement for whatever you don’t complete. If you supplement more than once they typically ask you to do a higher level of care as this program is only meant for people who need just a little extra support.

I do not know if it’s coed. The group I attended was just 4 women and typically Monte Nido programs are women only. But that may be different for the Dine programs. I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s just women though.

Typical length of stay is as long as you want. I was there for a few weeks because my work schedule changed and I could no longer make it to the groups but I know some people attend for more than a year.

Let me know if you have any other questions. :)

@prancingunicorns

[todayhasbeenok]

I decided I didn't like having my name in my URL.

I'm doing much better in my classes than I thought.

I am sad that Sarah broke her phone, but excited to skype.

I'm watch an episode of Intervention that I've never seen...this woman (a mother/grandmother) hits herself as a way of self-injury. It makes me glad to know that self-harm other than cutting is being addressed on a show as big as this was.

[mywholeheartedtruth]

prancingunicorns said: I used to get insomnia when my body was going through trauma (starving, binging and purging, etc.), but when my body was nourished properly it slowly went away. Do you think that could be the case for you? (I could be wayyy off)

I definitely think that could be part of it. My sleep always gets progressively worse as ED behaviours increase. I've never slept better than June/July when I was staying with the family I lived with over the summer...and I was actually nourished properly. As of right now, I'm definitely not nourished, and I can't get more than an hour and a half of sleep without interruption. I also can't sleep past 7:30 really. So I'll go to sleep at 4:30am, typically wake up at 5am thinking that it's time to get up, realize what time it is then go back to sleep, wake up again at 6:15, go back to sleep and wake up at 7:30 at which point i get frustrated with trying to sleep so i just lay in bed for hours attempting to rest. But, I have no problem taking naps throughout the day. It doesn't really matter if I take a nap or not in terms of what time i go to sleep though.

I also think that part of it is habitual. Every time I come home, my sleep pattern is thrown off. It's sort of like how every time I come, I fall right back into the routine of never leaving my bedroom. There are some things that I do when I'm at home that I don't necessicarily do when I'm anywhere else. It's like I become a different person when I come home. 

[todayhasbeenok]

I was tagged. :)

  RULE 1: ALWAYS POST THE RULES


Rule 2: Answer the questions you were tagged on and make 11 new ones


Rule 3: Tag 11 new people and link them to your post


Rule 4: Let them know they were tagged

1. Diet or normal coke?

Regular all the way. Diet pop is an eating disordered thing for me; I prefer the taste of regular any day!

2. If you have to choice will you then wear the same shirt or the same kind of pants every day for a year?

I'm actually not sure. It really depends on the day and my mood, how I've slept, what I'm set to do that day etc.. 

3. Do you believe in faith?

I believe in always having hope; Hope for something better has been an integral part of my recovery.

4. What’s your biggest wish/dream?

I want to graduate college with some kind of honor or distinguished thing, ha--and land an internship at my first choice hospital in TN. 

5. Do have a spare time job?

I don't--some circumstances prevent me from working, if you're interested I have no issue talking about it privately. :)

6. Turtles or birds?

I like Franklin, the cartoon turtle from Nick Jr./the books by Paulette Bourgeois and Brenda Clark!

7. If you only could eat 1 kind of food for the rest of your life, what would you eat?

Fruit and ice cream cake!

8. What do you like most about a boy?

I'm not really interested in relationships/looks. ANXIETY.

9. Shorts or skirt?

Shorts!

10. What do you like most about yourself?

My sense of humor/quirkiness, I think.

11. What color are your eyes?

Brown. :)

My Questions.

1. What's your current computer/phone background?

2. Top 5 most played songs in your iTunes library?

3. Do you keep things entirely messy, neat or in the middle (cluttered) ?

4. Do you swear a lot? Do you find in entirely repulsive to do so, or does it not bother you?

5. Do you always need to have background noise going when you're doing work or random things on the computer?

6. Describe your recovery/healing process in six words.

7. Are you sensitive to certain words? (ex: I can't stand to hear the word permeable)

8. What kind of music do you listen to in the car?

9. Do you watch most shows on TV or Netflix/Hulu/other websites?

10. Do you like birthdays?

11. Socks or n0 socks?

[todayhasbeenok]

This anxiety is going to kill me. It has never, ever been this bad. Not even when I was little.

On the bright side, 8 DAYS until I move into my new apartment AND we're getting furniture from family (aka we don't have to pay $600 for a chair) And I see Sarah so soon!

[herchainsaregone]

prancingunicorns replied to your post: happiestcarrot replied to...

Did renfrew not even give you a chance to go on contract? Like a chance to prove yourself?

No they never contracted me. I was honest with them at first and said I was using behaviors when I left program in the afternoons, so my therapist had already started talking to me about the possibility of residential two days after I arrived. Last Friday, she told me I had an insurance review on Monday. That made me especially vigilant over the weekend. I came back on Monday and was able to honestly tell her that I barely used ED symptoms at all. "Great job," she says. "You're approved for more day treatment."

On Tuesday, I get weighed, my lab results come back (almost all normal, mind you), the doctor takes my blood pressure, and they get all sketchy on me. They asked if I was sure I didn't use behaviors more frequently than I told them about over the weekend. I ended up b/p a few times and spending a lot of time at the gym this week, but their sketchy behavior was making me paranoid so I didn't say anything about it. They wanted to weigh me again on Wednesday morning, even though they normally only weigh you on Tuesdays and Fridays. When I asked why, they didn't answer.

On Thursday, my therapist told me during our session that she thinks that she's going to recommend me for residential. At this point, I'm just nodding my head and going along with her. "OK! Sounds great! Can't wait!" It hadn't really sunk in yet. (I tend to do that a lot). Then, about an hour after program, she calls me out of the blue and tells me that she's made an admissions appointment for me in Philadelphia for Monday morning, and she just needs me to confirm in the next 30 minutes that I'm going to kiss the rest of my summer plans (which, to be fair, consist of eating disorder treatment during the week and bumming around on the weekends) AND my summer housing assignment goodbye and catch the next train out to Philadelphia with no inkling of when I would come back, or how things would be different when I got back. 

[todayhasbeenok]

PSA: I get to spend part of my summer vacation with Sarah!

HER BLOG IS HERE

I MISS HER FACE AND WE ARE GOING TO WATCH GREY'S AND PRIVATE PRACTICE AND THERE WILL BE UNICORNS ALL AROUND TO KEEP US COMPANY.

[todayhasbeenok]

Tag Game!

I was tagged by whatseatingatme.tumblr.com

 THE RULES

1. Always Post the Rules

2. Answer the questions the person tagged you and write 11 new ones

3. Tag 11 new people and link them to the post

4. Let them know you tagged them

1. Favorite color to paint your nails?

Darker shades of purple/pink sometimes even blue or black with sparkles!

2. Best book you’ve ever read?

I don't think I've read a "best" book yet, but I absolutely loved The Fault In Our Stars by John Green!

3. Do you have any pets?

Sort of. I live away from home. My Mom's dogs name is Zoey. She is a precious four year old black lab. My dad has four cats but he is divorcing his wife, so...I am planning on rescuing a dog when I move in the fall!

  4. Tell me a joke.

Oh goodness...I only know inappropriate jokes, haha.

5. What’s the best positive distraction you have against negative thoughts?

Music. Always music. I love Pandora--making new stations and seeing what new artists I discover. 

  6. What’s one unusual talent (or normal one) that you have?

I'm pretty boring, actually...haha.

7. Any awkward moments today?

Not yet! Hopefully none!

8. What’s your favorite place to be?

Either of my grandparents houses (NC.MD)

9. Best gift you’ve received?

A group of girls paying my co-pay for residential in 2011.

10. Did you sleep with a stuffed animal/blanket when you were younger?

Yep. I still do.

11. What’s your favorite holiday?

Thanksgiving spent with my family.

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My questions!

1. What kind of phone do you have? When you upgrade (if you do) what kind of phone do you want?

2. What's your favorite kind of music?

3. Are you good at making conversation?

4. Do you think the saying 'you learn something new every day' is accurate?

5. Do you pass judgement easily on people too quickly before getting to know them?

6. Do you own a lot of shoes?

7. Would you ever consider shaving your head for a cause that you are very passionate about, if even just to show your support?

8. What is the background of on your computer screen?

9. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?

10. Where is your favorite place to relax?

11. Do you sleep with any background noise? (tv, fan, music...)

Tagged!

prancingunicorns

justbeingjess

restoringlaura

changesandchallenges

redefiningolivia

kimberlycan

strengthtodance

xodance

(these are all people minus prancingunicorns that I've never really talked to, but would love to!)