15 Feb 2026
Its 9 am in Saudi Arabia right now. It feels surreal that I am here.
I had a massive fight with my parents for absolutely no reason. It wasn’t even like I said anything. My moms the type to just burst at me, and my dad. Its such a sad reality. I prayed so much for them but between you and me it felt like waste of time. I feel like what was the point.
Ive been here since 13th Feb. I flew on the 12th.
In the flight from uk to bahrain 🇧🇭 i had kids behind me who kept kicking mine and my twins seat. Honestly horrendous. I was so angry at the parents but it was a fully booked flight I was stuck for the first 5 hrs thankfully for the last 2.5 hrs i swapped with my parents and finally slept as the night before I had a total of 50 minutes of sleep. But الحمد لله that was over. Overall the rest of the journey was smoother الحمد لله
I did my umrah yesterday and it felt surreal. But I was so disappointed that i completely forgot surah Kafirun cause i was like “WHY NOW” lmao. But its ok. I’ll work harder next time.
Today we woke up at 3 am and heading your to do tawafs at masjid Al Haram. It was great <33 i loved praying fajr.
On the way back my mum got angry at me for literally no reason, im glad my aunt was witness to her injustice. She ended up standing up for me a lot. Im really hurt by my dad. Im done with him and my mom. They can’t keep going on with this endless pride that they are always right. They are so manipulative and toxic that I kept praying for them to get better. All duas are accepted ofc im not saying it went unnoticed but a person can only change if they themselves change. Its freewill and those two have too much of it.
Im sorry for the rant. I want to be as honest as I can here.
Thank you so much,
Mon Rae Doe.
