#protector post

[protector-culture-is]

shout out to protectors i swear

[september-softies]

its good and important to have words and names for the experiences you have. there are few things quite as empowering as self-identifying your gender, your feelings, your personality etc, in specific words that are immediately understood.

however, it is also important to remember that in naming things and claiming them as "part of [me]", you may be denying other aspects of yourself that are equally real and important.

it is good recognize having temper problems. it is good to recognize and name your mood as depressed and irritable, or your feelings as betrayed and hurt. but when you adopt depression, anger, and distrust as "part of who you are", you are denying yourself the possible existence of a good-natured person with a kind and warm personality, who is known to be fair in their assessments.

alongside a bad temper, perhaps you have a passion for fairness and justice. to others, perhaps you are known as having excellent instincts or a great sense of humor. if you hang on to every moment you were unnecessarily rude or unexpectedly betrayed, you won't have room to hold on to your sincere apologies, efforts youve made to improve and manage symptoms, the friends who love you but never get to see/talk to you. and so much more.

no one is a one-trick pony. let go of the things you dislike and look around for the good things that are already within you. what are you when youre not angry? when youre less depressed? when youre talking to friends or offering advice?

what kind of person are you outside your own perspective? open your mind and eyes and see the good you do, the help you bring, and the love you share.

youre not as bad as you think.

[the-moonchild-system]

Something I always have to be aware of and analyze is people's intentions with us. My job as a protector is to deem whether or not people are safe, not only for the system, but our daughter as well.

I don't like new people. And it's hard for me to trust even those with innocent or good intentions. I'm aware we all as a system use this blog as a bit of a system journal and we share some pretty personal shit here, but I want it to be very clear, I'm not always comfortable with that. But I also realize my girls need a place to shout into the void. I get it. It's fine. Whatever.

But lately, outer world, we've been getting too much attention from people starting to firgure out who's who and when different alters are out. Pair that with our heighten paranoia dude to flashbacks and nightmares and it's made it extremely hard to function and attempt to make and keep friends. All of me is in fight mode right now and I want to lash out at people and push them away because I know if no one's close to us we're technically safer, but also would then be lonely. I don't wanna do that to my girls, so now I'm just stuck here being pissed off as per usual, trying to fight of paranoia and anxiety. This is a mess.

[protector-culture-is]

time to appreciate your protectors! :o)

[protector-culture-is]

here is a reminder that protecting comes in various forms. your efforts are appreciated and valued no matter in which form you do it or how you achieve it

[protector-culture-is]

maybe not quite protector culture but this blog helps so much with the isolation of being in a system where the host doubts our existence so often, until we read these posts and I (the protector) am overcome with so much emotion the host is just stunned. thank you for helping me feel connected to other protectors and feeling more real than our self doubt allows

really glad that it helps you guys!! ^^ you exist and you've got a community in here <3

[september-softies]

we did it. don't forget to exhale. it's okay to cry, or laugh, or both. it's okay to be numbed by relief. pls drink some water and take a nap if you're tired. it's going to be okay.

"Kuromi”, Melody’s protector ( @sanrio-soft-pastels )

Biden-Harris won!!

[systemofwonders]

We aren't going to interfere Sora. You said it yourself, no more running. You need to confront your emotions head on and work with your partner when they are ready.

I'm proud of you, keep it up.