Day 24: What does a good day look like for you?
Do you expect me remember my life ?
Idealistic day
A good day start by a smooth nightmare, that kind I’m used to since years. There would have no sexual connotation or people I know Inside or knowing it’s a dream.
Then I wake up more or less awake and have a nice chat with the other residents. I eat bread then take my meds. I would either have no chores to do or just easy one, that means I would have Energy for the day. Then I do my things on my computer, play video games or creative stuff. I either go to medical appointment and feeling better after (with little people and silent ones in the train) or sent the day Inside. I would have no problem going to sleep around 10pm.
For the symptoms I would be dissociated but not noticing it. I would be overwatching everything but with no surprise that afraid me. I would have difficulties get close to someone but it will still feel good. In a really ideal day I would be able to rest and relax.
Realistic good day
Dream and activities would be the same.
Dissociation would be unoticed and I would overwatch everything but I will feel afraid and uncertain. The difficulties I guess would down me a bit neverless I can have a good chat with someone I like. Relaxing is the Graal for me. An ideal that isn’t reachable. I evolve in the good sense for this but I still doubt I can actually relax.
