“Everything alright, Cat?” Your mother asks, standing up until she can tilt you chin up to find your eyes. There’s such open concern in soft eyes—eyes you remember to be so much bluer, so much colder. “Cat?” She asks again, and you can only think, this isn’t right, even if you can’t put your finger on it. Can’t explain exactly why this is wrong.
She doesn’t call me Cat, you think absurdly—which absolutely isn’t true, except it feels right.
Tapping your pencil against the paper, you can’t focus—there’s something flickering though your mind. None of this feels right, it’s wrong—something is wrong.
Leaning forward, you realize you’ve written something—not on the paper, but right onto the polished wood of the desk. The pencil tip breaking into pieces but not until after you’ve already finished. Only three words, and they don’t mean anything. Until they do—until you trace the lines of the letters with tender eyes and remember orphan aliens, and missing years, and the end of the world.
You remember that you’re supposed to be finding her—her, her, some indistinct person without name, but you can remember blue eyes and blonde hair. Pressing your palm flat against the words, they seep into you. Spilling like sugar into your blood, sweetening the beat of your frantic heart. The words wrap your mind in gray silk, and you’re tired—so tired—like the world is just slipping away.
Untuck your thumb, and everything goes black.
i will make you queen of everything you see by @civilorange : chronological order [#47] snapshot 73