#rachel-primaluce

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Hello beautiful people. 

I’m a real person, too.

I still write and I’m very much alive and I’d love to share this with you. 

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The antidote to shame is share. - R L C

[rachel-primaluce]

hello hollow I am there is something I can't quite  place empty space, time, where do I fit I don't  know, understand  this  all I know is I don't, I hope, I try, despair a slap in the face, buck up, fuck  everything and everyone that's ever told you you're not good enough  because if you don't, who will? sombre far too fucking sober but that would just make this worse and  why am I so sensible, I'm only young, can't I just have  FUN what is?  tete-a-tete face-to-face I can't escape I try and I fail and I stop trying because  trying is futile and  I try instead to  grit my teeth and learn to live but fuck it's hard and fuck it hurts and I miss something I cannot put into words so I'll say I miss you because it's easier  it's not you, it's me I wish it wasn't always ego-centricity is king in this day and age but skin is prison and transcendence is limited and  god only knows what  where who  he is; only god knows if  he exists that's why I don't pray: I want certainty I just want to know that I can count on something, somebody beyond me. beyond  the hollow of accountability.  beyond "this is all there is" beyond the constraints of my - your - our - humanity beyond fuck-up and fuck-with and fuck-you and fuck-me and I just want to be loved, to fucking feel it.  that's all there, I said it I put it into  words.  powerful

R L C 

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[rachel-primaluce]

Lol, mate - that really wasn’t cool.

How to get through life: a synopsis

1. Stop taking everything so seriously 2. Laugh more. At yourself, preferably. And at the world in general. Madness is relative. 3. Don’t let yourself expect things from people, but remain curious about and open to what they can give/offer. 4. Don’t give yourself to people who don’t deserve it. 5. Learn to be your own mother, father, lover, best friend. Learn to love yourself, full stop. 6. Learn to trust yourself. It, and you, are all you have. Listen. It’s a cliche, but cliches are cliches for a reason: the answers lie within.

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New Wave - R L C

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incoherence is bliss - R L C

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If the world is a place you don’t belong, fear is somewhere to call home.

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