#rancidnutwork

[myinfinitevariety]

I said what I said

[scribbledsilence]

the way jensen ackles is quite literally holding the truth in his hands and could end this all at any moment

[cheerstofandomfamily]

The fact that CW has that video saying "we are open to all" yada yada yada.

Let me tell you something.

My pastor has a son, a mid-40s man, married to a wife, with kids. You know what he did in 2020?

He came out as gay. He decided to be authentic. He lived a good life, he loved a woman, and he decided (with her full support) to go public with his sexuality, after they finalized a divorce.

THIS. Is why I'm so pissed that Dean's voice was silenced. THIS. Is why I am in tears once again, because there are still homophobic companies out there, pretending to be "open to ALL".

My pastor's son deserves to be happy.

He deserves to find love with a MAN, and he shouldn't have to come out of the closet young to get this.

How DARE they kill Dean off before he's allowed to speak his truth *in all languages*

How DARE they destroy a character who is clearly about to come coming out as bisexual, after spending over 40 years trying to suppress it until Cas makes his feelings known.

How DARE they pretend that "I love you" *"and I you, Cas" * scene didn't happen.

Dean Winchester: abused, full of self doubt, desperately trying to live up to the expectations put on him, wishing he could settle down with a hunter, secretly in love with an angel, thinking it was unrequited until 15x18. He was READY. He was finally happy with who he was. He believed he was worthy of love.

And you killed him for it, and told us that only blood matters in the end, and that you should try to live your life in a way that someone else thought would make you happy.

How. Dare. You.

*note: this was written the day after the finale, and I've had it saved for a while. Posting it now because of the proof that Destiel was meant to be reciprocated. I have updated it, but the message is still the same. #theysilencedyou #theysilencedthem #rancidnutwork

[sourtimesmachine]

The TV Gods Are Watching: Why Supernatural’s Metanarrative Matters

The importance of how stories are told and who gets to tell them. [Warning: Spoilers for season fifteen of Supernatural.]

Wrote another article! Something of a followup to The Trauma of Silence. Feel free to share wherever 💛

[mrswhozeewhatsis]

I’ve been a mutual for years. I ignore fandom discord. Your blog usually supports everyone. You’re header is “coexist”. So why the heck did you reblog that call to action against the CW and basically all thing SPN? That’s kinda disgusting. Just because a ship didn’t sail is no reason to trash an entire network. Smh. I thought you were better than that petty trash. Cancel culture is going too far.

It’s true, I normally don’t get into cancel culture and fandom drama. To be completely transparent, of all the acts that the post in question proposes, the only one I’ve done is unfollow the CW_SPN Twitter account. I haven’t tweeted using the new hashtag or replied with my own words on this subject anywhere. I mean, I wasn’t planning on watching SPN on Netflix anytime soon, anyway. Reblogging that post was LITERALLY the least I could do, and that’s about all I’ve done.

I want to make clear, though, that my actions are not “because a ship didn’t sail.” First, I had no cargo on that ship. Second, whether you like it or not, it actually did sail when Cas told Dean he loved him.

My plan, up until last night, was to distill in my own mind my own issues with the last two episodes, and then rewrite them in a way that was more satisfying to me, using the corporate CW/Covid constraints that I’m aware of. That would be my response. There would not be an, “I love you, too,” from Dean, because I didn’t think the network would EVER allow that. In my mind, the most Destiel fans would ever be allowed would be a hug and Dean telling Cas he was stupid to assume he knew what Dean felt. At best, the writers and the network would want to keep things open-ended, to satisfy those who really don’t want Dean to be anything but straight as an arrow.

To be completely clear, I have never expected Destiel to become canon. I have never wanted or prayed or begged or even just thought, “Hey, that’d be cool.” I fully expected Destiel to remain in subtext and fanon. The fact that it did become canon when Cas professed his love to Dean made me nearly fall out of my chair. I mean, I was happy about it, don’t get me wrong. I wasn’t screaming and jumping up and down happy, but I was like, “Yeah. Good for them!”

I was happy that those of my friends in the fandom who are queer finally felt represented by a MAIN character that they loved, yet sad that the character had to die without hearing that he, too, was loved. It was a bittersweet blow. 

People asked me what I thought of it, and I said, “I’m waiting to see what they do with the last two episodes.” In my mind, Cas’s confession followed by sacrificing himself DEMANDED an answer of some kind. It didn’t have to be a matching confession from Dean. But Dean needed to respond in some way, shape, or form. 

And the final two episodes happened, and NOTHING. 

I said before that a major theme of season 15 was Dean’s anger. Dean, himself - Mr. I-don’t-talk-about-my-feelings-no-matter-what - TALKED about his anger and how he didn’t know what to do about it. To me, Cas’s confession was supposed to trigger Dean to DO something about his anger, and then lead him into DOING something based on love. To me, it didn’t have to be loving Cas, either. It could be discovering that pushing people away was bad, and finally inviting hunters into the bunker to share knowledge. Inviting other people into his heart and loving them because of Cas’s love, the same way Cas learned to love the world because of Dean’s love. (That was pretty much going to be the crux of my rewrite.) I even said in one post here, “It all seems to be adding up to them defeating Chuck with the power of love, and I really don’t know how that will look.” 

But the final two episodes didn’t even show Dean really grieving? I don’t get it.

I digress.

I was upset, but understanding about not getting to see Dean tell Cas he loved him. It was never an expectation for me. No one, from the network to the writers on down to the actors, I thought, would ever green light that script.

BUT THEY DID.

AND THEN THEY TOOK IT BACK.

That’s the line for me. The fact that every step along the line agreed to make Dean queer in canon (even if it was just a matter of, “Cas is the exception to the rule,”) - the fact that it HAPPENED is phenomenal. And maybe I should be happy that it was even considered seriously enough to have made it to an almost-final script. But I’m really upset that it got through all of that vetting, and at the very last minute, when the people in the show we love had no way of fighting it, it got pulled.

It’s almost like the CW pulled a bait-and-switch on Dabb, Bobo, Misha, and Jensen (along with everyone else who would have had skin in the game). As if they went along with it just to make them happy, and then pulled the rug out from under them. It’s the CW as Lucy pulling the football from Charlie Brown after he’s started his kick.

This is what pissed me off and made me reblog that post. I want to support those of my friends who are hurting because of this, right now. My queer friends who feel betrayed by a network that claims to be so open to diversity and supportive of ALL people. I’m a cishet, white, upper-middle-class disabled housewife. Cut my hair short and dye it blonde and I could very easily be a Karen. I have no skin in this game. But I love people who do. And if they want to organize protests and boycotts, then I want to support them. 

I’m not cancelling the CW. I’ll watch Walker because of Jared. Even if it turns out that the theories are right, that Walker is the reason the CW made this decision, I’ll still watch. I love Jared, and want to support him. 

But I do want to do something to support those who disagree with this and want to do something about it. Because it was wrong. The CW done fucked up, but they will never change if we don’t tell them. Unfollowing their SM accounts, getting a hashtag trending, and other actions like this, are ways to get that message across. Maybe, if we can make a big enough impact, they will change. 

This isn’t cancel culture. This is finding a way to send a message to the CW that they made a mistake. 

If your hate of a ship keeps you from seeing that, I feel sorry for you.

[galaxycastiel]

Would it have hurt the c* to have Cas meet Dean in Baby during his life long drive? No. Yet they still didn't do it. They could have reused a 'Hello Dean' from years ago and cut to montage, but no. That was asking too much. Anyhow. Today we're ignoring the finale cause the more I think of it the more I get sad.

[ganseyard]

#deandeservedbetter

i wish we could trend something like #deandeservedbetter on twitter :( jensen's silence is so loud and i don't want him to think that everything thats happening is only because of a ship. i TRULY want him to understand that this is also about 15x20 and deans death and the 15 years of arc that was erased... :(

can someone start a project or something like this...?

[zeffiroh]

why lamp

the mark of cain inevitably does what it does, and dean with anger issues throws things(on a spree), but pauses after throwing the lamp, and then there’s  the bloody sequence, where he kills people(on a spree), but stops after throwing cas( for a second, then there’s more throwing, but no killing, because cas can listen to dean and dean can listen to cas, even when possessed, gay love pierces through mind control and saves the day<3)

Cas is often forgotten, like the lamps  in the room, but whenever time comes, they pray to cas( switch on lamp). And cas, gives dean hope, like a lamp.

Darkness is alluring, but Cas is like the lamp, light on the end of the tunnel, distracting dean from freakin AMARA( and she KNOWS)

Then there is the lamp, filling in the half of the bed, when cas would have been there, but he's most probably hiding from the angel army, which he gave up for dean. It's watching over Dean, just like Cas said he would. ANd Dean is listening to a mixtape( i guess there's more than one mixtape he's made for cas, but couldn't give it to him). So cas is here as a lamp when he can't be, and Dean is thinking of cas, with the songs he couldn't share with him.

Then there's the dance. Which is pretty much in character for us the audience, but obviously not the kind of Dean that Dean projects himself as. It's unrepressed, and even his clothing isn’t overtly butch (well its always a mix-match with a leather jacket and the samulet , long sleeves but men's jeans...), but here it's a white jacket and black trousers, worn with grace.

this is where not only cas is lamp, but dean loves lamp=cas is innuendoed. THe dream goes in stages, like the character arc and He enters the stage hesitant    He enjoys and lets loose into experimenting with Garth, who knows Dean is a softie and doesn't care otherwise anyway.    He grows comfortable.    He then chooses to perform with the lamp, a male-coded partner. and then at the end of the episode, sam and dean watch garth slow dancing with his wife. perfect parallel, and dean says out loud, “i always thought i could be a good dancer if i wanted to be.” {dean yearns for a ballroom, i.e.romantic partner, and for a long time around this point in th timeline, the eye stares and moment's and quarells and memories and all thought trails in dean's pov are cas cas cas, so that's that.}

deeper readings: the lamp dance was, as much dean romance as possible, it was classy(like rock), and ambigous or covered up( chick - flick - moment - but - very - cloacked : dean^tm) . It also is a call-out to him embracing his true feelings in his dream, and as we also know, cas has access to his dreams(cough -cough), Also, he's dancing to a song about "misbehaving", and it's all romantic, so the innuendo is clear.

But details! The lamp shines in the corner of the bunker, like corners cas often stands in, (almost always ), and dean approaches cas, sorry this lamp, like the lamp that was once filling the half of his bed, He pulls the lamp out of where it had been tucked away, and looks over the lamp from all angles, much like looking over cas whenever cas comes back.

Bonus point- dance paces up in the end, like dean's love and calls to cas become haphazard and more frequent and involuntary in s15.

And voila- the he blows the lamp a kiss in the end. summing up this moment:

a tiny spot the difference:

and finally here's mothDean and lampCas. because if 15X20, then why lamp?