#random 911 thoughts

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You know, actually, I think my favorite part of this episode is the idea of Bobby, sitting in his office, giving a reference for Eddie to this new captain, while also actively staking his claim, like "that man belongs in MY firehouse, you can borrow him but you canNOT have him."

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Do any other British 911 viewers think of these guys while watching the show because they occassionally pop into my head and make me giggle ?!!!

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As an aside, I think there's something really beautiful in Eddie allowing himself to dance for joy in the way it called to mind that video Ryan posted about finding joy in dance after not dancing for so long.

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Just over here thinking about just how much trust is implied in the way Eddie let loose at the bachelor party. And I know this isn't news, that Eddie trusts Buck implicitly, but there's just something so beautiful in the idea that Eddie Diaz—master of control and compartmentalization and putting everyone else first—was not only willing, but eager to let loose with Buck. Even after the safety of the rest of their group was gone, even after Buck had invited dozens of strangers into their space, Eddie didn't hesitate for a moment to let go with Buck because of course Buck is safe and of course he can trust Buck to let go right beside him without judgment.

And there's just something really beautiful in that.

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You know what, actually?

It is GOOD that they didn't take Buck off the hamster wheel for his first queer relationship.

To do so would have implied that the only thing he was missing was his sexuality, and not only was that clearly never the story they were telling with him, but also I don't actually think it would be great representation to imply that figuring out your sexuality is the thing that will solve all your deep-seated self worth and abandonment issues.

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Okay, am I wrong or is it true that Maddie and Eddie have only ever interacted three times in the entire series, and all three of those times, she has basically had to scold him for some bullshit?

Because if that's true, I find it very funny.

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It's not just the way Eddie scoffs at the idea that Buck would have to ask if he could come in.

It's also the way that—the moment he realizes it's Buck—he visibly relaxes and steps back immediately to give him space to walk through that door.

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I cannot even begin to articulate how beautiful and heartbreaking the Kevin moment was.

The idea that this man who Chimney loved as a brother, who he lost too soon, came back to him in his moment of need and pointed him home? The way Kevin is one of his ghosts, but only in the most loving way.

As tragic as it was, losing Kevin brought with it a realization of unconditional love in the Lees—because not only did they manage to love him through the hurt, but they needed him, too. He wasn't a reminder of their pain—he was the son they had left who they could have lost, too, but didn't. He was love and joy, even through all the hurt. They were a family. A little bit broken, but built on the kind of foundation Chimney had never had until them, at least not since he'd lost his mom.

For Kevin to be the one to point him home? To send him to the two people whose unconditional love had kept him alive, if only in their hearts? To the parents who'd raised them both and didn't deserve to lose another son? To the two people who had never let him down?

It's just a lot.