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Please help me with my research project on the "Science of Happiness" by completing the following survey. Thank you for your time!
WOW look who it is. Long story short my mom got a new charger for her old fossil of a laptop, and I am very proud of it for working semi-decently?? So here’s a survey after two whole honkin’ months!
Do you think you look good with red hair? Dude I loved having red hair.
What is your favorite middle name for a girl? I mean that depends on the first name and to some extent the last.
What color was the last scarf you wore? I don't wear them unless I go out in the very rare snow and Mom makes me, lmao. That hasn't happened in so many years that I don't remember the scarf.
When was the last time you took a selfie? Wow, it's been a very long time. Months.
Do you enjoy getting caught in the rain? I really don't, I don't enjoy feeling wet unless I'm like, swimming.
How many of your grandparents are still alive? None.
Who is your favorite music artist at the moment? My favorite artist of all time is Ozzy of course, but I'm going through a MASSIVE Rammstein phase right now; they've been a "favorite" for years, but I've been exploring more of their discography and learning about them personally and they are My Dads... except the bassist. I have a new husband.
Are you allergic to any foods, and if so, what? No. I do have a violent heartburn response to bananas if I haven't taken my prescription antacid, though.
Which insect annoys you the most? Gnats.
How many proms have you been to? I went to two: my then-boyfriend's senior as well as my senior.
Do you prefer hard rock music or soft rock? Hard, but I enjoy both.
Did you ever own a Furby? I did for whatever fuckin reason.
Were you a bigger fan of Backstreet Boys or *N Sync? Backstreet Boys, def. I liked both, though.
Have you ever had sex on the beach? God no, that sounds horrible, even if it was a private beach. I do noooot like sand.
Where does your best friend live? My best friend is my boyfriend, and he lives like 30 minutes from me.
Where did you last hang out? I haven't "hung out" anywhere in over a week, when I visited Girt's house for the first time. I wanna go backkkk.
Why did you get a MySpace? Probably because my friends were, idr.
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you? Nope, bye.
Do you remember the first time you ever went into the ocean? I don't.
Have you ever stolen from your parents? No, because I'm not my uncle. (:
If you owned a dalmation, what would you name him/her? I do know if it was a female, it would be Perdita from the movie. Idk about male tho.
What country music star should be honored in the Hall of Fame? I don't like or listen to country music, idk.
Would you eat cat food for $500? Shit, maybe. I'd try because that's a decent amount of money that you can't just scoff at.
Have you ever had an ultrasound? Yes, on my liver when I was a teenager. I can't remember why I had to get it, but I know everything was fine.
Where do you want to be at a year from now? It'd be nice if I've lost weight and regained some leg strength, as well as be stable on working medications. Less importantly but what would be nice would be if Girt and I are talking about moving in together or already are.
Do you like pickles? I fucking LOVE pickles and have been craving them lately.
Where do you work? I don't. Unless I build my own business of some sort, I just like... don't see me ever being able to handle a proper job for so many reasons. Idk what I'm doing in the "earn money to live" department, y'all.
Have you ever thought you could do a better job at being president? God no.
You’re in line at Taco Bell, what’s your order? I pretty much always get the cheese quesadilla and fiesta potatoes. Sometimes I'll swap the latter out for those little cinnamon bite things.
Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal? I think it's a normal size, if not a bit smaller.
Are you currently listening to a song? Remember that a Rammstein thing I mentioned lmao well I'm listening to "Sex" right now and just real talk it's going on a certain playlist lmfao LOOK it's a fun song
What are you doing tomorrow? I don't really know. I would like to see my boyfriend because he has been SWAMPED with work and other responsibilities and it's been awhile, but I think he has work tomorrow? Maybe? God I can never keep track of his schedule.
Can others make you cry easily? It is more than "easy." You barely have to do anything at all lmao.
Whose house did you last go to? My older sister's. I helped Mom watch the kids.
How has the past week been? It's literally been one of the most hectic but also hopefully emotionally developmental weeks of my life. I enacted a split from my best friend, which was majorly goddamn hard, but for my own good, and I feel I've been learning things about myself and taking steps towards bettering me and my life.
When did you first get your period? I don't remember other than it was a normal age.
Have you ever eaten a Big Mac? No, I've actually never wanted to. I don't like lettuce on my burgers.
Are you engaged right now? No.
Name the last video game you’ve played. Girt and I recently beat the remake of Shadow of the Colossus! I was so proud of him, he beat the final colossus with no hints. :')
Do you believe in sex before marriage? For most relationships, I personally think it's smarter to... y'know, find out if you're sexually compatible with someone if that's important to you before deciding to tie the knot. But do what you're comfortable with.
Have you ever smoked marijuana? No. If it was legal though, I'd honestly consider it for when my anxiety flares up. I don't want to smoke anything, cigs or weed, but if it was only an occasional thing to calm the fuck down, I'd do weed.
Who are you currently living with? My mom and pets.
Do you feel like you need to lose weight? This isn't an "I feel like I should" thing, I literally need to. I'm not your go-to visual of an example of this, but I am by definition obese and completely, totally serious, I wish it on fuckin NOBODY. It. Sucks. Actual. Ass.
Are you close with your cousins? No.
Are you good at rapping? I've never tried, but there is zero way. I stutter too much.
How often do you go to church? By this point in my life, I would rather get decked in the goddamn face than sit through an actual sermon.
Do you feel like you’re judged for your looks? Oh, absolutely.
Do taking tests make you nervous? Not really, at least not usually.
Can you say the alphabet in more than one language? In German, yes. Fun fact, "y" doesn't exist in native German words, and in an instance where the letter is referenced, it is pronounced like "oopsilon" over yonder.
What do you want out of life? I just want to be happy and feel like I made a positive difference. Oh, and have fun.
Where’s the last fast food place you’ve eaten at? McDonald's.
Do you like Wendy’s frosties? They're nothing special, but yeah I like 'em. They always take too long to be drinkable through a straw, though, with how thick they are.
How long of a drive are you from California? Dude California is the LITERAL polar opposite of the country lmao, it would take days to drive there.
Do you ever get carsick? No.
How long can you go without sleeping? Once or possibly twice, I've gone around three days with zero sleep, and I wasn't even tired when I finally said "okay I need sleep" for my health. This occasion along with a few others actually make me wonder if I have bipolar 1 instead of 2, because that right there sounds like mania.
Do you groom your eyebrows? Not really anymore.
What was the last thing you took a picture of? Omg, when I was watching the kids with Mom, Ryder was being REALLY cute with Emerson, hugging and lifting her, and he let me take a picture of them. Emerson even smiled at the camera with her big brother. :')
Does the weather affect your mood? If so, in what ways? It does, actually; dark and dreary days tend to lend to my depression. Hot weather also just makes me generally miserable if I don't have AC.
What is your favorite thing to go shopping for? I live to window shop for ball pythons on Morph Market. *sobs*
Are you part of the LGBTQIA+ community? As a pansexual, yes.
Are you scared of growing older? Yes, with how immensely weak my body *already* is.
Would you ever consider adopting or fostering children? No. People are fan-fucking-tastic for doing it, like so much respect to 'em, but it's not for me.
Would you consider yourself to be petty? Not at all, genuinely.
Can you roll your tongue? Not well at all, no. Sometimes when I've been alone lately tho I've kinda been practicing in order to speak German more appropriately lmao. I downloaded a German-learning app yesterday actually and have started it, because I regret not having become fully fluent in the language faaaaar too frequently. Even if I never reach my goal of visiting Germany, it'll be a personal victory for me, an accomplishment to remember.
You are more likely to stop wearing something because? It gets too tight.
Do you speak a second language? bitch i'm GONNA
How many books do you have out in the public areas of your house? I don't think any, actually.
Do you like fried chicken? I HATE fried chicken.
What was the very first social media site you signed up for? MySpace.
Can you see yourself marrying your current partner? (if you have a partner) That's the goal.
Are you the type of person who knows exactly what they want in life? Eek, no.
What was the last thing you felt nostalgic about? I guess old friendships. That happens a lot.
What’s something you’ve done that sounds too crazy to be true? I've lost count of how many times I've been admitted to psych hospitals, but I know it's a number that would make people think i'm actually clinically fucking insane.
Are there any flowers planted outside your house? No, just some small bushes.
What’s the weirdest decoration you’ve seen in someone else’s home? *shrug*
Did you have your own bathroom when you were growing up? No.
Does anyone in your family smoke? My dad does.
How far are you into the book you’re currently reading? I'm rather early in.
Have you ever had a pet escape and run away? No indoor animals, but growing up, we had a cat infestation outside, and they would sometimes just vanish. Usually the males, but that is completely normal for mature, unfixed toms. Please fix your pets and keep them inside.
Do any of your exes know each other? I'll go with everyone who has had the "boyfriend/girlfriend" title. Jason and Juan knew each other and did not get along. Jason and Girt also met at least once when we all hung out at my place, and Sara has met Girt once, again when we hung at my place.
What’s an opinion you find impossible to take seriously? I still haven't decided to this day if the "birds are fake" conspiracy is an actual belief some people have or just a joke. God, I hope it's a joke.
What was the very first election you voted in? This previous one.
Do you know how to make omelettes? No.
Do you feel positive and optimistic about your future? Man idk.
Who’d you last see in a tux? Probably the groom or groomsmen at the wedding I shot years ago, idk.
Have you ever sexted? No, it's not for me.
Out of everyone you know, who was the most heart? My mama.
Who’s the bravest person you know? ^
Do you ever make up retarded words with your friends? How about we don't abuse the word "retarded." But I know what you mean and in which case, no. It's really, really weird, it's actually some strange pet peeve of mine when people completely make up random words and actually apply them as if they truly mean something, unless they're defining things set in a fantasy universe that actually need identification. I don't know if that made any sense whatsoever, but it makes me cringe idk.
Have you ever dated someone who was real sportsy? No.
What profession do you admire the most? Probably those that risk their lives for others, like firemen. And surgeons.
Have you ever made a fake profile, for any reason? Nope.
Have you ever had a teacher that also taught your parents? Yes, actually, in college.
Do you have anything planned for the summer? Mom, Nicole, and I might visit one of Mom's brother's family in New York for like a week, but there are some concerns about me being able to physically handle what we have planned. Like this isn't just in my head, my mother, sister, and uncle have talked about it and it's been decided I'm probably going to have to stay with a nearby aunt while they're out on the river on a boat.
Do you walk fast or slow? Slow. Once upon a time I was a fast walker.
What would you do if you found a small, lost child? Stay with them and first try to find their parents, and if that's not successful, call the cops.
Whose arms do you feel the safest in? My boyfriend's.
What was the last meal you ate? Mom made some sausage and eggs this morning, but I couldn't eat much. I just don't have an appetite, but I needed food.
Have you memorized your social security number? It's funny, I know it sometimes. I know the last six digits, but for some reason usually not the first part. It comes to me sometimes, though.
What’s the last food you ate that was stale?Ugh, a bagel. It was SO dry that I couldn't even finish it.
Would you ever consider moving back to your hometown? Well, it depends where. It's not a "good" city, but I mean I don't know every little nook and cranny of it. It's a very small town though, so.
Describe your laugh: I sound like a fucking hyena.
How did you meet the last person you kissed? We were both in the band of our high school.
Have you ever snuck someone into your house before? No.
Is there something your significant other does that bothers you completely? No.
When was the last time you changed your bed sheets? Very recently, after I recovered from my cold. Mom taught us to always do that after being sick.
Do you think Manwich is amazing or completely gross? I think it's really good, I just hate how messy it can be.
When was the last time someone kissed you on the cheek? Wow I'm not sure. Girt normally goes for the forehead instead of cheek with that kind of kiss, but I mean maybe it was still him?
What are two instruments you’d like to learn to play? Violin and either electric guitar or piano.
Would you rather eat grape or strawberry jelly or jam? Grape.
Have you ever had a pregnancy scare before? No.
Would you ever think about getting your nose pierced? I'm getting it re-pierced at some point.
Has anyone of the opposite sex ever hit you before? No, let's keep it that way.
What’s your favorite gaming system? PS2 had the best games.
When was the last time you thought someone was completely pathetic? Hm... I can't say I'm sure.
If you have your ears pierced, when did you get them pierced? The lobes, I don't remember. My tragus was pierced as a teen, but the hole closed when I had to take the ring out at the psych hospital; I honestly can't recall how l ong ago I got it redone. it's been a while.
Have you ever had a significant other who hit you? No, good luck seeing me tolerate that.
Has anyone ever called you stubborn? Oh god yes.
What is the meanest thing someone called you? A martyr, and not in the "I'd die for my beliefs" way. I've never forgotten it, probably never will. It came from Jason's friend who barely fucking knew me.
Have you ever been paid to build something for someone? No.
Are you a decent singer? No, I can't hold a note.
Would you rather wear hoodies or jackets? Hoodies, for sure.
When was the last time you were asked on a date? I have zero fuckin clue lmao. I don't think Girt and I have been on a "real" date yet, surprisingly. It doesn't really bother me though, chilling at each other's houses is more comfortable and I always feel absolutely horrendous if he pays for ANYTHING for me.
Who is the one person you trust the most? My mom or Girt, I don't know who to pick. I'm full aware Mom has lied to me in the past, meanwhile Girt has always been immensely truthful. I dunno, one of 'em.
Who is your favorite comedian? I don't think I have one, really.
Do you own any exercise machines? No, but Mom seems very intent on getting a nice treadmill once the inheritance is finally fucking sorted. She and I both know my legs are going, and it feels like that's my last hope.
Where was the last place you went? A clinic that offers walk-in service because I have a sinus infection from the greatest depths of Hell. Was prescribed some stuff to start taking tonight.
1 - Are you one of those people who can watch TV shows and movies over and over again without getting bored?
>> I am not one of those people, generally. Air-sign brain needs new stimuli constantly. However, there are exceptions to the rule -- some things I can watch over and over again because they’re basically a part of me at this point and I feel a sense of homecoming every time I sit down to watch them. Like The X-Files or Event Horizon. ...Or Silent Hill 4 playthroughs, as I’ve discovered recently.
2 - If you drink coffee, do you like it plain or would you rather have something like a latte or something flavoured?
>> I like it plain, but I also like some lattes. It’s all moot, though, since I don’t drink coffee because the caffeine fucks with me.
3 - How did you used to dress ten years ago? Do you dress in a similar way now?
>> A more dramatic and obviously goth version of how I dress now. I had more disposable income (because I didn’t have things like rent to spend it on) and less sensory issues (or, was more desensitised to them).
4 - When you’re grocery shopping, do you buy known brands or are you happy to go with the generic store version?
>> It doesn’t matter except in the cases that it does.
5 - Do you have a close relationship with any of your cousins?
>> ---
6 - Who was the last person to sleep over at your house? Does this person stay over often or was it more of a one-off?
>> ---
7 - Does bad weather put you off going out if you’ve got plans to do so? Have you ever cancelled plans due to the weather?
>> I don’t usually go out, so it doesn’t matter in that case. But the weather does seem to have an effect on my mood and general motivation level, so I might be more lethargic on overcast/rainy days in general.
8 - When you’re on vacation, do you prefer doing the typical tourist things, or would you rather explore somewhere off the beaten track?
>> I like doing a mixture of both. Some tourist things are cool and that’s why they became such big deals in the first place; others, not so much. Having lived in a tourist-trap city, I think I’m pretty good at telling the difference.
9 - Did your family travel a lot when you were younger?
>> No.
10 - When was the last time you went shopping for clothes? Did you get anything decent or find any bargains?
>> I don’t remember. I don’t usually go shopping for clothes... I guess the last time would be during our wedding vacation. We both got some amazing pieces.
11 - Is it true that accessories can make or break an outfit?
>> I think that is true in some cases, but some outfits are just unsalvageable.
12 - What is your worst memory from high school? What about the best?
>> All my sparse memories from high school are some measure of negative.
13 - Is there any trait in a potential partner that would be a total deal breaker for you?
>> ---
14 - Do you insist people use coasters if they’re putting drinks down in your house?
>> We don’t entertain guests. I don’t even have a “guest protocol” script, since it’s never come up.
15 - Have you ever been arrested? Were you guilty of whatever it is you were arrested for?
>> No.
16 - Name five items on the shelf nearest to you:
>> The shelf nearest to me just has a bunch of books on it.
17 - After meals, do you wash dishes up right away, or do you leave them in the sink and do a whole days worth at once?
>> We usually just load the dishwasher and then Sparrow turns it on when it’s full. But recently the dishwasher has begun malfunctioning and Maintenance is... unreliable... so the routine’s all thrown off and I can barely function in the kitchen now.
18 - What websites do you find yourself spending the most time on?
>> This one. Also Reddit and various streaming sites.
19 - Do you still download music and TV shows?
>> No.
20 - Does your phone have a good battery life? How long does it last before you need to charge it again?
>> It’s starting to flag, but mostly it’s all right. The amount of time it lasts between charges varies, depending on how much it’s getting used (and for what), so I can’t really say.
21 - When was the last time you hit snooze?
>> ---
22 - Did you ever play The Sims? Which expansion pack was your favourite, if you had any?
>> I’ve played it since Sims 2, but I don’t play it anymore because the business model annoys me (and it’s just not an interesting game after a while, for me). I don’t have a favourite expansion pack, but I generally liked the “spooky” or “magic” ones.
23 - Are there any popular film series or TV shows that you just don’t get the appeal of?
>> Sure. I can’t like everything.
24 - As a child, did you receive pocket money or an allowance? How much did you get? Was it dependent on you doing chores of some kind?
>> No, I did not.
25 - Do you think your parents did a good job of raising you? Would you do anything differently with your own kids?
>> I am a product of emotional neglect as well as CSA (I was 13, but that’s still childhood to me) and other forms of abuse thanks to the fact that I was shipped away from my primary household to a bunch of strangers that just happened to be related to me, so this is a loaded question for me. Sure, I didn’t starve to death, I graduated high school, etc, but at what cost...
26 - If something is bothering you, do you have to fix it right away?
>> Many of the things that bother me can’t be fixed, I’ve learned.
27 - Are there any household jobs you enjoy doing? If so, what’s the reason that you enjoy those things?
>> I like to organise and tidy things, it just satisfies some primal part of my brain.
28 - Do you still live in the area you grew up in? Would you like to live somewhere else one day? Where would you go?
>> No.
29 - Do you smoke, drink or do drugs? How old were you the first time you tried those things? Do you want to quit?
>> I drink, and I eat edibles every so often. I’m fine with this level of drug use.
30 - What’s one thing that really grosses you out? Is it something you have to deal with anyway? How do you cope?
>> I don’t want to think about something that grosses me out right now. And yes, some of those things are things I have to deal with almost daily. I cope by not coping.
What is the last song that you had on repeat?
Uh I feel like it was "Blind and Frozen" by Beast In Black.
Do you believe that one day the sun will burn out?
... No shit? This is scientific fact? Like it's not gonna happen in my lifetime, but it WILL happen.
What’s your homepage when you bring up the internet?
Just Google.
Have you ever cracked your phone screen before?
I haven't, actually.
Do you like Train’s music?
I do. They write some of my all-time favorite love songs.
Have you ever seen the movie High School Musical?
Yes. My younger sister (who I shared a room with) was particularly obsessed with it.
Are you excited to pick out your wedding dress one day?
I am, but I'm also not looking forward to trying multiple on and possibly being picky. I can't imagine myself being one of those people that tries on dozens and dozens, though.
Does it bother you when an artist remake a song that one has previously done?
Not at all. I like plenty of covers, especially if I enjoy the original song.
How many times have you had sex within the past two years? Guesstimate?
Actual sex, zero. For reasons that are sometimes very hard to deal with.
Can people read your facial expressions easily? If so, why is this?
Yes, because I'm very bad at hiding my feelings on my face.
When was the last time your area had a tornado warning, if ever?
I can't remember. We get plenty of tornado watches this time of year, but warnings are rarer.
Does it scare you when the sky gets really cloudy and dark during the day?
Yes, because I'm terrified of the potential of tornadoes. Thunderstorms themselves don't scare me, it's just the fact that they can spawn tornadoes.
Have you ever ran from the police?
No.
Have you ever watched The Walking Dead?
I haven't.
Do you like horses?
I do.
Snakes?
I love snakes.
Cats?
I sure do.
Have you ever driven an electric car?
No.
Have you ever eaten moussaka?
I don't even know what that is.
What breed was the last dog you saw?
Chihuahua.
Do you ever fact-check the things you read on the internet?
Not everything, I don't regularly care enough about what I might randomly read, but especially if it's a topic I'm invested in, I certainly will.
Have you ever had a parrot sit on your shoulder?
No.
What was the last caffeinated drink you had?
Mountain Dew.
With a fried egg, do you prefer the yolk runny or set?
I won't eat a fried egg because I cannot stand yolk like that.
Have you ever planned a wedding?
Not really. I mean sure, I have plans for my own, but we're definitely not at the "real" planning stage yet.
Do you have any pimples right now?
No.
Have you ever painted a rock?
I don't think so.
Do you ever shop at Aldi? Do you even have one nearby?
There's one very near here, and Mom goes there rarely. She loves the prices there compared to elsewhere, Walmart is just easier for us.
What are some of your favourite snacks?
Right now I'm in an insane pickle episode. In general though, I love chips, or Cheez-its. Small candies that come in packages like peach rings or Skittles I also like a lot. We don't tend to keep snacks like that in the house though, so I'm more likely to have something like a cashew bar or Special K blueberry snack bar... thingy.
What has been the best thing to happen to you in the past year?
Honestly, becoming more aware of and better understanding my autism. I've come to accept myself much more, instead of just thinking I'm fucking weird with stupid quirks that could never make sense to anyone else. I still want an official diagnosis, but I firmly believe I don't need it, at least for myself.
Are you prone to jealousy?
Nope. It's happened, but I definitely don't experience it much.
How did you get through the lowest point in your life?
Look, to be totally real with you, I was too afraid to actually kill myself. I had no other choice but to just ride it out.
Have you ever been someone's first love?
I suppose possibly Sara, but idk. She dated people before me, but I don't remember her ever mentioning truly loving somebody.
How old were you when you got your first gaming console, and what kind was it?
The OG PlayStation. Idk how old I was, I think we had it when I was born.
What is your favorite food to put gravy on?
I hate gravy.
Do you know anyone from Canada?
Yes.
What's your opinion on astrology?
It's dumb as hell and for insanely gullible people that generally don't want to take responsibility for their own flaws.
Do you use TikTok?
No.
Do you ever get super bad buzzing in your ears?
Not really, no. I've had rare instances of minor ringing, but nothing severe, for which I'm very thankful.
Do you know anyone who has actually been in an alcohol or drug-related crash?
I do. She lost her best friend, who was in the car with her, because of it. They were both high, or possibly drunk, one or the other. It took years upon years upon years until she seemed okay again.
Did you celebrate Father's Day?
No. I sent him a message and was happy to hear he hadn't touched a cigarette in two days, but that was all. We've usually gone out to lunch, but my sisters never mentioned it this year.
Do you hate how being bisexual is like a trend?
It's not a trend, shut the fuck up.
Have you ever gotten a professional massage?
No, this would be insanely uncomfortable for me.
Do you have a good relationship with your first love?
We don't have a relationship, period.
What is something you’re currently nervous about?
This weekend. I'm going to my first Pride event ever but it's supposed to be scorchingly hot and I have hyperhidrosis.
Are you dealing with any health-related problems right now?
I always am.
Are you experiencing problems within a current relationship?
No.
Do you find that caffeinated or alcoholic drinks make you pee more than normal?
Water makes me pee more than anything else. I don't drink alcohol enough to have noticed for that, but there are sometimes where if I drink a soda, I have to go to the bathroom pretty quickly.
Do you still enjoy watching Disney movies?
I sure do.
What are some interests you have in common with your parents?
My mom likes writing, even if she doesn't really do it. When she was younger, she also enjoyed drawing, but that's another thing she doesn't do anymore. I *enjoy* fishing like my dad, even though I don't think fishing for fun is moral.
How old were you when your parents trusted you to stay home alone all day?
I don't remember.
Do you drink more or less water than is recommended?
Technically still less, I'm sure. I think the very vast majority of people don't drink the amount that is technically advised.
Do you go on vacation with your family a lot? Where was the last place you went?
We never go on vacations. At least, Mom doesn't, and I live with/under her. We can't afford to.
What do your parents think about piercings and tattoos? Do you agree with them?
My mom doesn't care. She doesn't LIKE all piercings or tattoos, but she has nothing against them in general. I'm like my mom in that respect, but I'm even more open and accepting of them. My dad doesn't seem too bothered by piercings, he was never against me getting any, but he was shocked and nervous when he found out about me getting a tattoo. Mine don't seem to bother him though.
What are your religious beliefs? Are these the same as your parents’?
I am an atheist, but sometimes with some agnostic-leaning wonderings. Both my parents are Christians, which I am definitely not.
Do you remember The Land Before Time movies? Who was your favorite character?
I do, but I think I only saw the first two, maybe three. I know I loved them, though. I don't remember my favorite character as a child, maybe Littlefoot.
What’s your favorite genre of book to read?
Animal fantasy.
Are you one of those people who texts back instantly?
Almost always.
What’s your favourite place to get pizza from?
Domino's.
Think of the last verbal argument you were in; what caused it?
My mom having main character in life syndrome and refusing to even entertain the possibility of her ever, ever being wrong. I had to blow the fuck up to Girt, she and I have butted heads a lot lately and I finally snapped in half. I hadn't been that angry in god knows how long.
Does your refrigerator have one door or two?
Two, side-by-side. Left is the freezer, right is the fridge.
Do you smoosh bugs, or just let ‘em go?
I tend to ignore them, but if it's a spider, I will try to take it outside so Mom doesn't kill it. I never kill bugs, unless it's like, an ant in the house. Absolutely never, ever outside.
Would you ever kiss someone with facial hair?
I've done this plenty and would keep doing it. Sometimes Girt has stubble anyway and it doesn't bother me at all.
Have you ever drooled in public?
I feel like I have a little bit at least once while sleeping in the college library.
Have you ever been bitten by a dog?
No.
Would you ever shave your head?
No, not me personally. Female-presenting individuals can look amazing with no (or very little) hair, but it's definitely not for me.
Would you ever meet someone you met online?
I've done this before and want to meet at least Mazzy and Tez. Shaz would be amazing, too, as well as Sam and his wife.
Where do you wanna live when you grow up?
The more mountainous area of NC. Blue Ridge Mountains would be the absolute dream.
Would you get married if you could right now?
I'd get engaged. I'd like to lose weight before my wedding... but by now idk if it's ever gonna fuckin' happen.
What color are your eyes?
Grayish blue.
Who was your first good kiss with?
Jason was my first kiss and he was perfectly fine at kissing.
Would you kiss this person again?
If I actually loved him again, yes, but I will never let myself have that kind of relationship with him ever again.
Who was your hottest bf/gf besides the one you have now?
Jason.
How often do you drink water?
A lot a day, I don't actually track it.
Name something that is on your bedroom wall?
Above my bed and framing some plant art I have up is a branching string of circular lights that's meant to look like a vine or something. I only really turn the lights on if I'm reading in bed, but it's super cozy.
If you could paint your walls any color what would it be?
Because I'm going for a nature theme in there right now, I'd probably go for a light green.
What are you drinking right now?
Raspberry lemonade-flavored water.
What does your phone case look like?
I don't have a case. I'd like one, but that's not something I can just casually afford to buy and it's certainly not important enough to be on my gift wishlist.
What do you take the most pictures of?
My cat, lol.
If you could be a professional in any sport what would it be?
Dance.
When was the last time you made dinner?
Tonight; Mom was too tired to cook. I just put popcorn shrimp in the air fryer.
Who do you want to be buried next to?
I'd prefer to be cremated and have my ashes spread than be buried.
Do you have any hickeys on you?
No.
Who did you last share a bed with?
Girt.
Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
As of this year, yes.
What are you listening to right now?
I'm watching some of John Wolfe's Baldur's Gate 3 LP. I'm not very far from being done, I just ventured into watching other stuff for a while.
Do you get blizzards where you live?
No.
What’s something you prefer to keep private?
Sexual information/past.
What was your favorite book you had to read for school?
The Handmaid's Tale.
Has anyone ever called you a sociopath before?
No.
Have you ever saved someone’s life?
She says so, but more than anything it was me coincidentally sending a message at the right time.
Do you have a laptop or desktop?
I have a laptop right now, but I want a desktop computer. As my anhedonia improves, I've been getting much more into gaming again but my laptop has zero space for games. I can only fit WoW on this laptop and that's literally it, even to update that I have to go through and clean things I don't even know if I should remove from my computer 'cuz there's just no space, and I don't even have much on this laptop.
Do you own any television series box sets?
Yes, the first four seasons of Meerkat Manor. Idk if the 5th has a boxset.
When did you last receive a hug and who was it from?
My boyfriend, before he went home the other day.
Do you plan your outfits ahead of time?
Nope.
Have you ever spent the night in jail?
Nah.
Do you have long hair or short hair?
Short.
How much makeup do you wear on a daily basis?
None.
Do you have weak upper body strength?
YES
Do you think hugs are awkward?
I mean, they CAN be, but I generally love hugs.
Do you think facial hair is gross?
No? I mean, if you don't clean yourself then facial hair can certainly become gross, but as a rule, it's definitely not. I'm generally attracted to it.
Would you ever dye your hair an unnatural color?
I've already done that and am literally dyeing it lilac this week.
What is your favorite band of all time?
Ozzy Osbourne's solo career.
Are there any paintings on your wall?
We moved into this house with a copy of some famous Monet painting above the fireplace. It's one with lily pads.
What do you think is the best smell in the world?
Cinnamon rolls.
How old is your oldest sibling?
She's like, 40? Somewhere around that?
Do you enjoy dancing?
Not anymore. I like watching dancing.
Can you handle scary movies?
Yeah, I like scary movies.
Would you date someone 5 years older than you?
Yes.
Have you ever been to California? Did you like it?
No.
Do you like deviled eggs?
I've never tried them and I never will, I would almost be willing to stake my life on the fact I would hate them because of the yolk. They smell foul anyway.
What is your favorite horror movie?
The Blair Witch Project.
Has a little kid ever fallen asleep on your lap before?
Yes.
What foods can you absolutely not eat?
Beans are one; I literally cannot get them down. There is honestly A LOT of food I can't eat, I'm absurdly picky, but in my defense autism plays a big part in this. My reactions to food I don't like aren't intentional, I will literally just shudder and gag.
Do you like hot, cold, or lukewarm showers?
Hot.
Have you ever taken part in a threesome?
No, I'm not interested.
What is your oldest sibling’s middle name?
Kathryn. I think she ~technically~ has a two-part first name and no middle name, but w/e. She doesn't go by her actual name though.
Have you ever been to Disneyland or Disney World?
Disney World, yes.
Have you ever been the victim of a crime?
Yes. We had a basketball hoop stolen from our front yard, and our house was also egged one Halloween. We also had an attempted break-in by the Bloods gang. I grew up in a bad town, and to this day I don't understand why we were targeted for so much, we bothered absolutely nobody. My one and only assumption is because we were the first house on a street of the "better" houses; we didn't quite live in the hood or whatever, but the road adjacent to us had more cookie-cutter houses that I'm aware were cheaper and with less yard space than our road. I haven't an inkling of any other idea of what the issue might have been.
What colour are your brother’s eyes?
Blue, if I remember correctly.
Have you ever played a drinking game? Which ones?
No.
How many friends do you have on Facebook?
112. I'm picky with who I add on there.
Do you regularly check anyone’s profile online?
Nope.
Is there anything unusual about your house?
No.
What is your favourite type of cookie?
Just your basic bitch gooey chocolate chip.
Have you ever taken care of a newborn baby?
No, I'd have an anxiety attack.
Do you snore when you sleep?
I do, and I'm very self-conscious of it. I never did when I was a healthy weight and I'm aware my sleep apnea is obesity-induced, so I'm hoping I won't forever.
Who do you (romantically) love?
Girt.
Do you wish you could go back and change anything about your childhood?
More than anything, I wish my dad was a better dad. I wish he was never an alcoholic. Even though I have very fond memories of playing outside and stuff, I do wish we'd lived in a better, safer town. I wish my parents were stricter about us doing chores.
What would your mom do if you told her you were pregnant?
Panic, cry. She knows I'd need an abortion and I have no income so she'd probably assume she'd be paying for it, and even though she's pro-choice by her age (she wasn't always), paying for the extermination of her potential grandchild would basically be the same as tearing her limb from limb. For clarification though I wouldn't ask her to pay for such a thing, I'd be talking to Girt way before her. Hell, I'd ask my DAD before her, just because I know she'd probably rather die herself.
Do you think you have nice feet?
No, they're extremely calloused from when I was a teenager and would walk for hours. They just never went away. I also have extremely small toes in a way I think is slightly disproportionate.
Where did you get your name?
My mom just liked it. My middle name runs in my family.
What’s the most unique or exotic food you’ve tried?
Idk, nothing very weird at all.
Who was your first online friend?
A girl nicknamed Kat from the Meerkat Manor forums. Mazzy was extremely close behind or honestly about the same time, both were there when I joined the forums, I just remember I got closer to Kat first.
What’s a condition you have that you haven’t been officially diagnosed with?
Autism. I KNOW I'm a high-functioning, high-masking autistic. The revelation that I have it has changed my life and how I face certain issues I have. I've been professionally tested for it, and the results were "yeah, probably a high-functioning autistic, somewhere on the spectrum, we just need further observation for an actual diagnosis." So, the issue is, I don't know the next step to GET an actual diagnosis. Am I supposed to return to this specific location after some amount of time for another test or what? Who has the ACTUAL authority to say, in this moment, "yeah, you have it?"
Do people tell you you have cold hands?
Yeah, actually.
When was the last time you held an umbrella?
I have zero idea.
Do you feel that the shape of the pasta alters the taste?
No.
In games, do you like to roleplay as good or bad?
Well in actual writing RP, I tend to enjoy RPing baddies. I try to be a good person, so I think RPing characters that don't give a fuck is a fun experience lmao
Is there an instrument you don't like the sound of?
I'm sure there's something, if I actually thought about it. Nothing I have a strong opinion about.
Would you rather be a kangaroo or a sea turtle?
Kangaroo. I like social animals and I also don't want to live in fear of getting caught in plastic and shit lol
Do you like to get ready in the bathroom or the bedroom?
Bedroom, usually.
What's your favourite Coldplay song?
"Paradise"
Do you have a favourite insect?
Butterflies and moths. I also love orchid mantises.
What colour is your ceiling?
White. We have those godawful popcorn ceilings.
Do you own a scooter?
No.
When did you last play a Mario game?
Oh jeez, it had to be Mario Kart YEEEEAAAARS ago. I was never really into Mario games.
Are your bedroom curtains long or short?
I don't have curtains, this house has shutters.
Have you ever attempted to sculpt something from ice?
No.
Have you ever had to wear an oxygen mask?
Yes, from an asthma attack as well as another ER visit from a severe asthma flare-up that bordered on an attack.
What’s your favorite thing you own that YOU made?
Drawings.
[TW: EATING DISORDERS/SIMILAR] Have you ever starved yourself?
I've tried to. I react to severe hunger pains badly though so I never lasted very long.
Has anyone ever had to physically restrain you from doing something?
Attempting to kill myself, yes. This happened twice, first with Jason and then with Mom.
Do you like the pretzel M&Ms?
I do! Man, that sounds good. The bit of salt adds so much.
Have you ever been accused of thinking you’re too good for something?
No.
Have you ever stolen someone’s boyfriend?
In technicality, I guess so. Joel broke up with Jenna because he wanted me instead, but thankfully I came to my goddamn senses and cut ties with him.
Do you have a locket? What’s the picture inside of it?
No.
How do you react when you feel embarrassed about something?
I react to embarrassment the worst out of any emotion. I get VERY short and defensive and want to flee the situation, and it's entirely probable I'll cry.
Have you ever tried to "fix" someone?
Sure haven't, that ain't my job.
When’s the last time you were carried by someone?
Hell if I know, I weigh almost 300 pounds and have been obese for many years, no one's carrying me lmfao
Are you in possession of any currency that isn’t used in your country?
No.
Did anyone witness your last kiss?
No, Mom wasn't in the room at the time.
Do you have any younger siblings?
Yes, Nicole.
Are you cool with them, or do they annoy you to no end?
I love and respect her immensely. It's hard to believe she's my "little" sister. Oftentimes I feel like she doesn't like me though, but both Mom and Ashley agree Nicole is very weird about showing affection or anything similar with anyone but like, kids.
Last person you flipped off?
Probably Girt haha, but playfully of course.
Anyone who’s way over-protective of you?
No.
Have you ever been to a rave?
No, I feel like I'd hate it.
Your opinion on smoking:
I don't think it's a good idea, but you do you. I don't at all support smoking around others that do not consent to it, however; smoking right outside of public spaces even makes me mad. Second-hand smoke has killed an obscene amount of people. You don't have to touch a cigarette to die from lung cancer.
Have you ever wanted a wild animal for a pet? If yes, what animal?
I am very serious about rescuing an opossum one day. I would never do this without the proper education and permit though.
Do you like group work?
Absolutely not.
Do you have any stickers on your laptop?
No, but I'd like some. It's just not something I'm willing to spend money on when you consider I don't have an income, and I certainly don't care enough to ask for laptop stickers as a present.
Does your grass need cut currently?
No, the dude who mows our lawn was here not too long ago.
Are you a godparent?
No.
Have you ever gone a full day without interacting with another person?
Yep.
How many watches do you own?
None.
Who was the last person you sincerely thanked?
Girt, for just being a great guy.
Have you ever been carded when buying something?
Yes.
Can you have more than one best friend?
Of course you can.
What was the last thing you drank?
At the time I'm answering this question, I have raspberry lemonade-flavored water.
Do you ever wonder if you will get in a car accident and die?
Yes, I do. I'm terrified of cars on the road.
One night stand or relationship?
One night stands are not for me.
Do you honestly have any regrets?
Yes.
Who was the last girl to say something to you?
My mom.
New tats in your near future?
No. Of course I WANT loads more, but they're just not my priority right now.
How about piercings or re-piercings?
Again, probably not soon, despite wanting more. I'll maybe ask for a nose piercing for Christmas, but that's not exactly soon.
Have you ever had a tattoo covered up or added to?
Two actually. I plan on covering one more (it's very simple and VERY badly placed since it takes up such prime skin real estate for a bigger piece and I want to redesign it and place it elsewhere), and if possible, I actually plan on tampering with my Markiplier tribute tattoo; I no longer want his logo. Not because I don't like him anymore or have forgotten what his content got me through, but it's just not... relevant to my interests anymore. I would have to talk with tattoo artists to see if it's doable, but I'd actually like to adapt it to JUST a space background and, over time, expand the tattoo over the area more to add people and pets I treasured who have passed away, floating in space looking happy with astronaut helmets. I REALLY want this. It'd finally be a prime place to implement Teddy's dedication tattoo, and certainly I'd add my mom when she passes, probably even Steve Irwin, etc. etc.
Have you ever kissed someone who has previously kissed someone you hated?
Yes, Jason.
Do you have any relatives with red hair?
I don't think I do. My maternal grandma dyed her hair a reddish color, but it wasn't natural.
What’s your favorite kind of pasta?
Just your average spaghetti with normal sauce, and add meatballs.
Have you ever had rabies?
Nope.
Do you know anyone who ever had to get a rabies shot?
I think so?
Ever eaten deer? Duck? Squirrel? How about lamb?
No. I've heard lamb is delicious and I kinda have this urge to try it, but... the idea of eating a literal baby animal fucks with me and I don't think I really want to.
Does your car have heated seats?
No, Mom's car is extremely old.
Have you ever been tempted to steal?
From my friend as a kid, haha. I was OBSESSED with Dory from Finding Nemo and she managed to get the Dory toy that McDonald's had at some point and I was so envious. Of course I didn't actually take it, though.
Would you rather travel to Ireland or Japan?
Ireland.
Does tickling turn you on?
It sure doesn't.
What is the age gap between you and your parents?
Mom is like two years older.
How many bathrooms does your house have? Is this enough?
Two, yes.
Have you ever dated someone who was emotionally or mentally unstable?
Yup.
Be honest: are you clingy?
Not SEVERELY, but I am. I know how to control clingy urges though, like Girt always says I'm clingy enough for him to feel very loved but also not overwhelmed or like I'm pushing myself on him, he thinks it's a perfect balance.
Have you ever had bronchitis?
No, thankfully.
Have you ever had a reptile for a pet?
Multiple! My first was Shadow, a Chinese water dragon (I was a kid and they were very improperly cared for, they are not beginner reptiles and I had no idea what I was doing, but they lived the species' full lifespan and was a sweet thing, I hope the sweetheart knows how much I loved them and how differently I'd do things now), and I've also had two snakes in my past: Mona Lisa (died very mysteriously, I was devastated) and Cato, who died VERY quickly because they came to me with some sort of intestinal issue. Don't buy animals from PetSmart. 🙃🙃🙃🙃 Now I've had a champagne ball python morph named Venus for many years, she's my darling. I plan on having MANY more reptiles throughout my life.
Are you afraid of the dentist?
I sure am. I never really was until I started to pay for the neglect of my teeth and had painful, scary procedures, plus the extraction of my wisdom teeth without being put to sleep because we couldn't afford it. I had bad problems with not brushing from my depression, simply forgetting, and executive dysfunction, but OH yeah I've learned my lesson and take much better care of them now.
Did you attend Sunday School as a child?
I was forced to. Trust me, I wouldn't have gone if I had the choice. I harbor a lot of bitterness about this. I know my mom just wanted the best for me, to be a "saved" child of her god, but I KNOW religion being forced on me played a ginormous role in why I'm so hateful towards its existence, because faith caused me a lot of hell and self-conflict.
Your boyfriend/girlfriend isn’t around but their phone is. Do you look through it?
No, because I trust him fully.
Have you ever liked anyone that was in a relationship with someone else?
More than once. My first crush had a girlfriend, but they were struggling and he confided in me a lot.
Do you think your last ex ever thinks about you?
Oh, I know she does. But not positively. She's an extremely hateful person and how dare I betray her by not keeping her being a Nazi a secret.
Would you rather have salad or french fries for a side dish?
If I ever, EVER, order a salad over fries, ask with great concern if I'm okay.
Which one of your relationships was the shortest?
With Juan. It didn't even last 24 hours.
Which was the longest?
Over three and a half years.
Have any of your exes told you they regret breaking up with you?
No.
Are you going to be getting any new pets soon?
Not soon. I might be talking my mom into a velvet spider for Christmas, though... I talked about it with her recently, and they're small and OBNOXIOUSLY cute (even though she didn't quite think so lol), but because of their size, harmlessness, and I think especially my passion when talking about it, I think she might FINALLY acquiesce about me getting a pet spider. I will fucking cry if she agrees to it come Christmastime. It's no tarantula, but it's still a spider species I adore.
Do you like BBQ sauce?
No, I literally hate it.
What do you like to do when you’re home alone?
The same thing I do when Mom's here: I do shit on my computer. The only difference is I rarely listen to stuff without earplugs.
Should the guy always pay for the date?
lmao shut the fuck up
Do you like Frozen?
I don't hate it, I think people claim to hate it just to say they do, but I don't necessarily like it either. There are much better Disney movies.
Do you use Instagram often?
Yes, more than usual as of the late.
What is one question you don’t like being asked?
What I do for a job or what I even do in my free time.
Who is someone you know who is talkative?
My nephew, haha.
Do you know anyone who plays the violin?
Not that I know of.
Out of all your usernames for websites, which one is your favorite? Do you use it for more than one site?
Ozzkat. It's what I use for most places.
Have you ever spent the whole day (or multiple days) just looking up one thing on the internet (e.g., videos of your favorite band, how-to videos, quizzes, etc.)?
Bro I'm autistic, this is my LIFE
If someone told you that we live in a society that hates women, how would you respond?
Absolutely agree.
Which of your breakups was the hardest for you to get over?
ANYONE who reads these knows it was Jason.
What did you have for dinner last night?
We had breakfast for dinner: eggs, sausage, and biscuits. The sausage was a brand Mom had never gotten before and it was the best I'd ever had, but of COURSE it was a more expensive brand haha, so I doubt that'll be common to have.
Do you write poetry? If so, what kind of poetry do you write?
I did, mostly just angsty stuff as I dealt with mental illness. I haven't written a poem in a long time, but I actually do have concepts written down that are much more positive and hopeful.
Have your parents traveled to any countries that you have not been to?
No.
What's your favorite type of gemstone?
Opals of various sorts. I'm also fond of rubies.
Would you rather take a class in fencing or archery?
Archery, by far.
Have you ever had a stalker?
No, not to my knowledge. For which I am extremely thankful.
What was the last strong scent you smelled?
A dead animal somewhere, I think.
When was the last time you changed your outfit?
This evening, when Girt and I got home from Charlotte from him getting the exercise bike Javier was selling. I changed into my pjs.
What was the last thing you took a picture of?
The worm snake I found at Ashley's house and showed the kids!
What were the positives and negatives of your last week?
Positives are definitely multiple instances where I've really challenged my fears. The most obvious negative is I'm not as happy as I could be with my new psychiatrist; she's not as bad as the last, but still quite rude, EXTREMELY interruptive when I or Mom are talking, and just made me feel like a total fucking idiot.
What is one of your wildest dreams or ambitions?
To have a photograph published by National Geographic.
What was the subject of your last phone conversation?
My dad called me to talk about fishing plans. I still think fishing for fun and not consumption (re-released fish can easily encounter infection and die) is a mean, selfish thing to do, but... for the sake of bonding with my dad (who I very rarely see) and nephew, I am willing to choke on my morals here and enjoy something I did as a child with my family.
What are your plans for tomorrow? How about the weekend?
Big ol' nothing. Today was a long day. It is the weekend.
What did the last jacket you wore look like?
It's just a very simple, plain black with a hood. Quite sure the material is cotton.
Have you ever seen a cougar in the wild?
No, thank god. They don't even live here.
When was the last time you took a selfie?
Like, months ago.
Do you have any nieces or nephews?
Quite a few.
Who’s your favourite person?
Girt.
Are you more of a cat or dog person?
Cat.
What’s the weirdest compliment you’ve ever received?
It's not appropriate so we're not talking about it lmao
Who is someone you really admire?
Mark Fischbach.
Do you prefer piano or guitar music?
Electric guitar.
Are you good at using Photoshop?
I'm decent.
What were you last embarrassed about?
My social awkwardness when I was trying to order a burger at this place in Charlotte. I was just getting over being overwhelmed and stuff, and the menu kinda confused me, so I made a fool of myself. Idk how in the world Girt managed to not just walk the fuck away from me lmao
Are there any clothing items you really want but can’t find?
I've wanted a black, studded leather jacket since I was a teenager.
What’s a habit you find gross?
Biting toenails. I was floored when I learned people even did it.
Are you a hat person?
No.
Has anyone ever approached you in the street and asked to take your picture?
No.
What color hair did your first crush have?
Brown.
Have you ever had a professional make-over?
No.
Have you ever had a professional photo shoot?
Not for just myself. Family stuff, though.
What is your favorite Avril Lavigne song?
"Nobody's Home"
Do you have any embarrassing health issues?
I have IBS, yes. Hyperhidrosis is also very embarrassing because you look like you dove into a pool after being outside in mild heat for five minutes.
Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Yes, the second time I had to go for my asthma. I don't think I'd properly reached asthma attack territory, but it was mighty fuckin' close.
Have you ever gotten sick in the car?
No.
How many teeth do you have?
Idk, however many you're supposed to have without wisdom teeth.
Have you ever cussed someone out?
I remember doing this to my sister's abusive boyfriend she had in high school. I feel like this has probably happened with another or two.
Does it take a lot to make you feel guilty?
No.
Have you ever broken a really important promise?
Well, I did promise to keep Sara's disgusting political compass a secret. So yes, I eventually broke that.
Have you ever told someone’s deep, dark secret?
^ yes. There was no way to ban her from the RP forum without explaining it to our mutual friends/RP partners, I'm sure.
Have you ever purposely hurt yourself?
Yes, I had problems with this as a teenager, and it happened a few times in my early 20s.
Have you ever eaten any type of insect?
No.
What’s a hobby you would like to try out?
Herping.
Have you ever won a raffle? If so, what’ve you won?
Yes, this is how I won two rare and limited pieces of Silent Hill: Revelation merch.
What’s the biggest insect you’ve ever seen?
Probably some sort of beetle.
How about the biggest spider?
A bird-eating tarantula when I was at the NARBC with Sara. The insane thing is I think the guy whose booth it was might have been the YouTuber who GOT me into tarantulas (The Tarantula Collective) lmfao, I just can't remember for sure. They definitely at least looked similar.
Is your room covered in posters, or pretty bare?
As of only a few days ago, they're almost completely bare now. I'm redecorating in there. I'm leaving most posters behind.
Would you ever consider being a cannibal?
Strong no.
Do you collect anything valuable?
No.
What was the last thing you killed?
Most likely an ant.
Who is your favorite female celebrity?
Hm... I guess either Gab Smolders or tarantula kat. It's strange, all celebs I've been wildly invested in were/are men lmao
What’s your favorite Lady Gaga song?
"Bloody Mary"
Would you date the same sex? Why or why not?
Yes, and I have before, I'm pansexual.
If someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
Nope, you've got one shot.
Obsessions?
Meerkats have been my longest-lasting and most well-known, but online I'm also very open about my extreme Rammstein hyperfixation (I say "online" because irl I am very embarrassed by being someone who hyperfixates and I don't like sharing), the Silent Hill franchise, watching YouTube, tarantulas...
Addictions?
Technology, specifically the Internet. I barely know how to exist without it, and it's sad. I'm aware I'm also addicted to soda, albeit this is an addiction I'm more capable of actually fighting, but I still have a few bottles (not two-liters, don't be mistaken) a week.
What are your #1 priorities in life?
My happiness, health (mental and physical), maintaining healthy and fulfilling relationships, and trying to figure out my purpose and what I want to live for (this includes working towards a career of some sort).
Have you ever dated a redhead?
No.
List three of your favorite types of YouTube videos to watch.
Let's plays, reptile and tarantula collectors' care-type videos, herping.
What is the name of your YouTube channel, if you have one?
0zzkat (it’s a zero because with an "o" was somehow already taken boooooooo).
How old were you the first time you encountered God?
God was forced on me from birth (I was baptized, so quite literally).
Any upcoming travel plans?
I'm probably going BACK to Charlotte next weekend because Girt's picking up a really nice exercise bike Javier has for sale, so he has to pick that up because shipping would be like, $500. The bike is rather small so would fit into Girt's bedroom, and he plans on facing it towards his TV so he can just be on the bike while watching YouTube.
What are you reading currently?
Nothing right now; I recently finished the Omen of the Stars arc in the Warriors series, so now I need to order the next arc.
What’s the first concert you attended?
Alice Cooper.
Where do you most hope to visit?
The KMP grounds in South Africa.
For what would you be famous?
I feel that I'm most CAPABLE of being famous for my writing, but I WANT to be well-known for my photography, at least in the photography community; truly "famous" photographers are extremely few and far between.
When did you last cry? And why, if you feel like sharing.
Last night. I had an anxiety attack.
What fictional character/s remind you of yourself?
Clearsight from Wings of Fire is a strong one.
What would you like to tell your father?
I wish you were better when I was growing up.
What would you like to tell your mother?
Thank you for literally everything you do.
What is something you have no patience for?
Jokes about rape or other extremely serious, harmful things.
How many cats do you have?
One. I'd like one more, but.
How many dogs do you have?
One.
How many other pets do you have?
One: a champagne morph ball python.
How many of your grandparents are still alive?
None.
Have you ever been flipped off by a random stranger?
Yes, when I was driving one day. My mom was absolutely seething, she reached her arm out of the window and did it right back.
Does everyone in your family know your sexual orientation?
I don't think everyone does.
Would you ever want to go back to school?
So... as of extremely recently I am considering going back for some sort of writing degree. I don't want to be an author, I just feel like a degree in my strongest skill might come in handy for getting SOME sort of job in writing.
If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair?
shrug
What is the wallpaper on your cell phone?
Lock screen is this gorgeous artwork featuring a skull with flowers, butterflies, and bees, and my home screen is another piece of artwork that's a simplistic monarch butterfly texture.
What do you have handy at your bedside?
Two lamps (only one is usually on, my little moon one, but the bigger one is for if I need more light), sometimes my phone, the remote for my moon lamp (it can change colors), and whatever book I'm reading.
When did you last sing to yourself?
When I was otw home from Charlotte with Girt.
What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?
Healing from my trauma with Jason, I think. I could say still being alive, because boy have I wanted to kill myself plenty of times, but in a way I feel like healing from Jason was even harder. A big reason I'm still alive is because I was just too afraid of the experience of killing myself, so like... surviving was the only option.
What is your opinion on brown eyes?
Do not get me wrong, brown eyes can be beautiful, especially in the light. However, it is my least favorite human eye color.
Would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?
The child of both.
How do you feel about tattoos and piercings? Explain.
I fucking love them and I'm so glad humans conceived the idea for both. Both can be a method of self-expression, and especially for me, making you enjoy your body more.
Talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.
Ozzy Osbourne. He was my bait into metal music, and his music has comforted me since I was a pre-teen, and continues to do so to this day. His music makes me feel warm, and it feels like home to me.
The world is listening. Pick one sentence you would tell them.
For right this very minute? Free Palestine. If it wasn't currently under genocidal siege, I'd have to think harder on this, because there's a lot of contenders.
Do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organized/not organized?
I have a desk for my laptop. It's got my laptop on it of course, plus the Mira plush Girt got me, the weighted meerkat plush Mom got me, my planner and Girt's work schedule, my therapy workbook, and a few art supplies.
What’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?
I would never share my sexual life with either of them. Specifically kinks, no fucking thanks.
