Its been 3 months. Ive neglected the internet for an entire month now since my last check in. I return to work tomorrow.
I cant really say that was "really fast" just yet. In the future I will be on facebook looking back at memories and saying "wow, cant believe how fast that went by" but right now that felt like the longest 3 months of my life. I'm semi excited to return to work but I'm also super nervous and second guessing everything.
My baby is in a cool stage now where he is still waking up a couple times a night but atleast they're convenient times and I feel decently rested. Though the first day I get to actually sleep all night will be a blessing. We are also in a decent nap taking stage where I can get him down in his crib during the day for naps at relatively consistent times. It kind of frees up my hands more so than before but still not really to do anything creative. Me and my spouse have enjoyed our limited free time playing Blue Prince on the PS5. Otherwise, I submitted a vacancy notice for our current townhome. Think we decided given the current housing market that it would be best to just remain renters but we still need a lot more space with the baby. I long for the day we can buy him excessive toys to put under the christmas tree.
My sister in law comes down in a few weeks to visit. Our kid is a lot bigger than when my MIL came down and I think he can tolerate to do more outings but not by much so hopefully my SiL doesnt get horribly bored. And then hopefully we arent in the middle of moving houses..
currently Im getting my work bag ready for in the morning. Hopefully I dont cry at work and my husband doesnt cry at home on baby duty. I dont even remember my work passwords and I'm sure as a welcome back present I'll get some snide remarks about dropping to part time and get put in the undesirable rooms with the undesirable cases. I have to figure out how to pump at work but I feel like this may be the beginning of the end of breastfeeding at the start of weaning.
I just want this time to pass and be wherever we need to be in the future for happiness. I want our kid to be excited to go on adventures with us and have a lot of fun (but ofcourse the idea of him growing makes me sad too)
