Jun 19, 2025
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looking back thru old pics and I miss my bridge piercing 😔
Something I need to remember when my mind tries to play games with me
Source: The.chronic.couple
being this hyper sensitive to rejection sucks ass because last night I kept spamming the group chat about bullshit and eventually I got called out by my best friend, who told outright told me she didn't care about how some YouTuber liked my tweet or whatever. and that's fine!! she doesn't have to care about my shit!! my rational brain is aware of this, but still, i felt so incredibly bad. i immediately went into a rabbit hole of "oh what if they're all so fucking fed up with my stories and my constant messaging them and what if I have hyperfixated in them and I'm too dependent on my friends what if my family thinks the same too" yadda yadda yadda
eventually i cried myself to sleep and I'm feeling better now, however I don't think I will be able to trust my best friend about the little, insignificant events on my life simply because I won't trust her nor the others. I may stop talking through that group chat entirely. who am I going to speak about my nonsense then? i won't. i am obviously a huge nuisance and have a victim complex so I'll just stop
anyways. i guess I'll feel better once the horrid pain of rejection has worn off. or at least, i hope so.
tldr: ADHD can do some weird stuff to your brain, go to therapy xx
Self care and setting boundaries for myself sounds so great in theory but it's so fucking hard for me. It's so hard for me speak out for myself or tell others around me what my boundaries are. It's so hard for me to say "hey I know what's best for me, it's this, and I need you to stop," or whatever it may be. Especially when it's coming from those close to me. I just can't. I'm so concerned about them that it just... Doesn't matter what I want or think anymore because I'm so concerned with what they think, how they feel or whether or not they'll be upset with me. And the worse part is when it's decisions that have nothing to do with them. It's personal decisions. Like little things that in their should make me happy.
perhaps......i am still sexy even tho i gained some covid weight.............maybe i’ve been sexy and lovable the entire goddamn time!!!!!!!
If a random offhand criticism sent you on a depressive episode or if an random comment by a loved one caused you to rage at them, it might have been what I feel is the worst part of ADHD, a thing called Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria.
RSD isn’t a seperate condition; it is the unofficial name for the rejection sensitivity aspect of the emotional dysregulation that comes with ADHD.
RSD causes exaggerated reactions to perceived attacks to you; note the word ‘perceived’ because it doesn’t even have to be an actual attack.. anything you see as an attack can cause an exaggerated reaction too. Hell, it can even be triggered by imagining the situations happening in your head.
Untreated RSD can make a person become one of two things: people pleasers or withdraw away from everything.
I was the latter; I even developed Avoidant Personality Disorder due to the pain. I did my best to avoid thinking, feeling or even being.. I have little to no memory of anything before last year when I started getting a handle on things. I avoided everything that could potentially cause me pain, ignoring friends and loved ones.. and costing me my SO along the way.
RSD can be treated and in my opinion, its definitely one of the first things to try to get under control cause it stops you from being able to put yourself out there.
dear rsd, go away. they dont hate me, im not a failure. they’re just busy, its the holidays. suggesting something only for it not to go through doesnt make me a disappointment or a letdown. life just happens. shut up shut up shut up SHUT UP IM A GOOD KID FUCK YOU
hi my friend just asked me about something i was supposed to do months ago without any real malice but i got panicked and almost cried and then i sent an apology message about how i forgot to do it and then i hid discord from my apps because i couldnt bare to see the result is this like. a symptom of rsd????? or is it too tame
Sent 3rd August~
Yeah, that definitely sounds like it’s because of rejection sensitivity—I know for a fact that I’ve done exactly that…. So many times.