#riri updates

[ririwithrice]

i’m sorry riceballs, but after some thinking i’ve decided to deactivate this blog and become a motivational speaker

[ririwithrice]

hi riceballs. please read this

i have been struggling lately, idk what it is. i thought i was getting better but it just feels like things are getting worse. my anxiety is the absolute worst it’s been in years, idk why. i want to be strong, i want to be happy and funny and post funny and cute nonsense.

i feel lonely all the time even if i’m around people. i’m terrified of being alone which was something I used to love. talking about it with other people doesn’t seem to help, it just makes them worried and me feel guilty. i have been trying to sit with the thoughts and the anxiety which helps but i don’t know for how long. i don’t know if posting on here and trying to push my feelings down is helping me or anyone else. i am going to take a break from posting for maybe a week, maybe a couple weeks.

i’ll still be messaging and answering asks, i’m just going to step away from being so involved in the community and stuff to process some things and take space for myself to recover, cope and spend time with people i love. if anyone wants my discord you can dm me or send me an ask and i can dm it to you.

I have a new video on youtube coming out on the 6th of December which will probably be when I start posting properly again. I feel really scared to lose my audience and moots if i don’t post but i have to do what’s best for me. i’ll probably focus on making videos and editing and just recovering.

thank you for reading

- roshi 🦖

[ririwithrice]

guys i think i’m gonna try going by he/him pronouns :3

[ririwithrice]

please read

thinking about leaving tumblr, genuinely. I don’t think I’m doing anything good or interesting. I never seem to say anything correct or funny or creative enough. I know this is lame and I don’t need to announce my departure like a plane but I just wanted to let you guys know. I haven’t made a decision yet but it’s been on my mind. I just feel like an idiot churning out stuff and not being happy with it or it not being enjoyed by people

[ririwithrice]

everyoneeee i think i’m genderfluid :3

[ririwithrice]

guys sorry if my interactions have been a bit far and few between, i’ve been trying to take some space away from tumblr and stuff and do some reading and meditating, working out, self care etc the past couple days :)

[ririwithrice]

guysss if i’m not online for a bit it’s cause i’m gonna be out at the theatre seeing the lion the witch and the wardrobe :3 i’ll be back early this evening (gmt) tho so yeah :33

[ririwithrice]

ok swines so PERHAPS if i get to 900 followers, i will PERHAPS make another youtube video. if i were to PERHAPS do this what would you like to see

what video next lovely reader viewer person

doing the dishes and talking about random things

1950s educational video parody

quiz type thing idk

ur own suggestion

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