#road bumps

[thispurepositivity]

Don't let life's road bumps keep you from moving forward and acting

via @thispurepositivity 

[bakary-potter]

Discipline and Patience.

[leticjaf]

Something to live by....

Looking for a counselor to tell you everything is gonna be okay when's it's not fine.... If you need the truth fine. Here it is... Shit happens you can either dwell in the pass and marinate in all the disappointment or you can move on because it is literally just a road bump. And if you're gonna stop because you can get over a road bump... What are you gonna do when you get to a bridge? I'm not telling you to suck it up because I don't care... I'm tell you to get over it because I love you. -Leticja Flamuraj xx

[susanbby]

They say

The friends you still have after high school will be your friends for life. I don't know who they are. But I think they may have been correct. 6th grade was a lifetime ago. And it seems we can and have taken a few sledgehammers in the years since then. Here's to those sledgehammers, and their friends who are no doubt waiting to hit us in the future.

[shemelon]

Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you will enjoy the smooth road afterwards.

[findingthesilenceinwords]

Just another road bump

I remember talking late into the night one weekend about the friends that were going to be with us 10 years down the road. I remember her mentioning your name, I gave a very unconvincing half nod. She questioned why I didn't see you as a lasting friend. It felt a bit like I was in an interrogation. Isn't he always there to help you? Doesn't he make an effort? Don't you guys get along? I can't remember the rest of the questions..they weren't that important anyway. Because despite the answer being yes to all of them, I've dealt with enough loss to know better. I've watched as the people who claimed to love me forget about me like I was just another road bump in the road. They only ever slowed down for an instant- taught me something, left their mark, moved on. I assume you will be the same, I may be wrong but rarely do souls like yours stick around. She is unconvinced, believing you are different. Perhaps it is because you have put her on a pedestal, and I have only ever been down here on the ground. I try my best to flash a fake smile, I respond and say "yeah, maybe he's in for the count." I fall asleep that night, dreaming of all the souls that came and left..my heart breaks to the empty sound.

[theinsideofmee]

A path of self-destruction

I've recently re-engaged in a possibly destructive relationship with myfitnesspal. It's giving me a sense of control that I had lost for what seems like so long.

Yesterday was not a good day. I went to bed hungry. And I awoke at 4 am, with a gnawing hunger in the pit of my stomach. I told myself get up and go get something to eat, so you can fall back asleep. But I laid their under my sheets, scrunched in a ball unable the move. My mouth filled with saliva as I remember it did months ago. I didn't know whether to put the food I was potentially going to consume on my daily intake for yesterday or today. So I stayed in bed and got up at my normal time, 6:15 for school, and by that time the hunger was dull. I felt as if I had won.

I realize that I had lost though. Eating disorders are all about control, when in actuality, I am consumed by thoughts and those thoughts regulate/define who I am, what I can eat, when I can eat, and what I do.

Today I tried to be better. I didn't measure anything so I don't have an accurate calorie count. It's giving me quite a bit of anxiety but I know I can make it through the night. 

I don't want to revert back to behaviors, but in the same instance I do.

I don't know what to do.