anyway, while i’m laid up with sudden sickness, i wanna talk about something that makes me happy so i can feel better.
my secret slightly ashamed romantic power fantasy (because all romance is a power fantasy, make no mistake) involves the unmanageable, emotionally unreliable, loud/crass man coming to heel because he meets a woman he cares for so much. like, the guy who has a personality but it’s abrasive and sharp without bein ~edgy. he just runs his mouth and it gets him into trouble and then he just isolates himself further. like a male daria. or mr. darcy whose social awkwardness involves him being the cause of many awkward silences.
and suddenly all the years of a lack of self-awareness or his utter lack of interest in the feelings of others comes crashing in on him as he realizes hey, he has to be better than this. he knows to be ashamed of himself, his past behavior, and his inability to realize he doesn’t have to sacrifice a value he has (honesty) while also maturing as a person. and this shame inspires him to change and grow not for the woman, but for himself. he unlearns bad behaviors and starts to listen, starts to communicate, starts to just... be less of a battering ram with a mouth and legs.
and the woman who inspired all this doesn’t have to lift a finger. she has no emotional labor to shoulder at all. hell, maybe she even has a contentious relationship with him throughout all this because she has such a good read on why he’s terrible. the point is, he changes because he listens to and respects her.
and that’s rly the be all/end all of het romance for me. a man falls in love with a woman and wants to be worthy of her. they learn from each other, grow together, and grow individually as people. they communicate and soon become each other’s safety and comfort and homes. it just takes some fixing up.